mush talk

为梦受一点伤

2012-01-14T01:46:00.000+08:00

我要为我的梦想受伤
因为那是我曾经奋斗过的痕迹.

我要做我所爱
爱我所做.

蓄势待发这主题太棒了.
366天后我要宣告自由.
势在必行.

I know what is going to come might break me.
But that's okay.
I will be strong, to protect what I believe in.

Reminder to self:
When there seems to be no way,
God will make a way.

BELIEVE. BELIEVE. KEEP BELIEVING.

能够独处的地方

2012-01-08T03:21:00.001+08:00

剩下我的办公室及家里的厕所...

才发现我极度需要私人空间...

真的不想只有工作和大便的时候才能做自己.
哎...有点粗俗. 不好意思.

多年后, 才发现那些年搞自闭原来是一种需要...

这是一个必彻的季节,
今天格外如此, 一堆鸟事接连而来.
在接近临晨12点独自在公司处理一些鸟事时,
忽然"悲从中来" 长叹的一声....
"我需要耶稣的爱~~~~~~~....
真是奇妙,比海更深, 比天更高.."
不知不觉竟然哼起"跳高高"的歌词来...

比海更深的爱...
或许神要锻炼我的气度吧...
让我的爱心更有"深度"...

替自己加油, 也替你们加油!

啊...想做自己啊...去大便吧. :D

* 2012年第一个post有点没有建设性, 没关系... 今年肯定会更好! 我超级无敌期待!

导演，我们做到了。

2011-12-19T01:46:00.000+08:00

我最想念的导演

我想告诉你，
我们做到了。
没有你的日子，我不知道我怎样走过来...
我不知道那里来的力量...让CPM走到今天。

Kevin...
去年2010年12月19日...
《4320》创造了制作组的奇迹。
多么多的不可能，在你的带领下，
都一一实现。
你告诉我们说，不要轻言放弃。

今天2011年12月19日..
你再一次创造了不可能的奇迹。
你用你的生命换来许多生命的改变...

虽然上帝知道我们非常舍不得你...
但他更知道我们需要你带来的神迹。

今天后台的状况真的让我一度以为《单程旅客》演不成了。
在那一瞬间我闭起双眼，不要轻言放弃...
我知道上帝爱你，他会为我们开道路。
就在千钧一发的瞬间...电脑荧幕重新操作，向牧师比了ok的手势，你的故事顺利上演。
虽然面对电脑随时当机的情况，我不断地祷告...
我祈求上帝，让杜凯文最大的制作能完美呈现。
在最后的一个短片播完，我盖上剧本，深呼吸。
走到台前拿了麦克风，为Kallpana合音，唱完献给你的一首歌。
在闭上双眼演唱的时候，我感受到你的满足，我感受到上帝为你预备的一切美好。

走回后台，我一腿软跌坐在PA台旁...
头一底，眼泪不停地掉。
或许是如释重负，还是这段时间忍得太久...
牧师分享的时候，眼泪不停打转...

我真的真的好想念你。
有你在的日子，我知道你为我承担了多少重担...
这一次你不在了，我逼着自己长大，学习承担我以前不需要负的责任。
今天，
我想告诉你，
我们做到了。

你的梦想，我们会一直一直为你实现下去...
我答应你，我不会放弃。

Kevin...
献给你...

We two have run about the slopes,
and picked the daisies fine ;
But we’ve wandered many a weary foot,
since auld lang syne.

We two have paddled in the stream,
from morning sun till dine^† ;
But seas between us broad have roared
since auld lang syne.

And there’s a hand my trusty friend !
And give us a hand o’ thine !
And we’ll take a right good-will draught,
for auld lang syne.

凌晨

2011-11-24T05:53:00.000+08:00

好像很习惯这样了。
超级不好的习惯...

刚才和印刷商通电话的时候应该也预了会这样。
很突然的job啦，加上心虚虚... 因为不知道有没有通过approve的project。
算吧，做好分内事，其它的就少管。（拼命祷告不要发生什么是才好）

既然这么早，去睡觉很浪费，睡下去又怕起不来...
来废话一下咯。

废话 1
我真的开始担心自己的健康
没有睡好，繁忙的工作，三餐不定...
咳了两个星期不会好...
前几天好像没有吃什么但不觉得饿。
这是什么症状啊？
想到接下来的行程表真的不敢病... 还是注意注意比较好。

废话2
我真的在法律上成为人妻了
感觉怪怪，因为“有名无实”。哈哈哈哈...
刚注册后的那天到教会，梁太太前梁太太后...
还有，竟然有人问我怎么没有和梁先生一起来？
咋到。我们还没有住一起好不好。
再重复：在基督徒婚礼后才算数ok!

废话3
房间的衣橱门脱落了，爸爸叫我自己钉。
房门锁头坏了，爸爸叫我自己弄。
妈妈买了4个书橱，我替他组装好。
店里装修敲敲打打搬搬台台...
同事问我是不是女的。

废话4
2011年要过去了！！！！！
今天也未必过的太快了吧 @@

废话5
最近很夯的《那些年，我们一起追过的女孩》...
或许我对它期望太高了。
还是比较喜欢看在youtube的幕后花絮... 听导演及演员们分享好像比看戏来的精彩。
其实是有好看啦，（起码梁先生至今对它念念不忘...一直讲一直讲... = =）
只是总觉得... 很多东西还不够...AHH...That's right!! 你明白吗？
不要紧，等我们CPM拍的青春热血片吧！
（屁啦，八字没一撇还青春热血叻...）

~~废话6~~ 这不是废话！
《单程旅客》真的是一部很棒的制作。
如果你在马来西亚的话，我真的鼓励你百忙之中也要抽空来支持。
演员们的档期真的要我吐血... 但我们还真的完成了拍摄的部分！
上个星期拍到我们差点晕到... 11场戏！！！一天内拍了11场戏！
从3pm开始拍到11:30pm，中间几乎没有停止过。
我知道大家已经到累到极限，所以到晚上医院的一场戏大家开始语无伦次，行为异常。
Details 迟点跟你们讲...不要紧啦...开心就好。

.......

Yay! 6am了，应该可以SMS印刷商了。
好吧，废话到这里。

p/s: 噢，看到新的Blog Header吗？可以download去放你的blog...如果你要的话啦。我没有逼你。

click the picture to enlarge

又是依末的季节

2011-11-22T04:02:00.001+08:00

是正面的依末 :)
看了《单程旅客》的预告片吗？

我自己已经看了N遍... 说我自恋吧，我恋上了我们的制作。
说真的，首映那天早上，牧师看了目瞪口呆... 在稍后会议的时候赞得Billy （剪接师）天上有地下没有。
首映那天早上，梁先生看了红了眼眶，aunty看了频擦泪。
首映那天早上，我看了心里想你了。

很感动啊...
或许有人说，我们之所以这么有感觉，因为我们是杜凯文故事里的角色。
对于一些不认识他的人来说，可能不过是一部催泪说教的作品。

我们不是要做一部戏来自爽。

杜凯文是我们在这个世界上最重要的朋友。
杜凯文是我生命里最重要的朋友。

就如前篇，这部预告片差点因为太少画面而难产。
能够完成到这样的水准，加上观众们的回响...我们的确有少少心虚...
我只能说，这是上帝的作为。

《单程旅客》打从一开始，就是上帝的制作。

还记得那天晚上，杜凯文还在医院，我在家望着照片...想起他的点滴...
我向上帝祷告，求你，让杜凯文完成他的心愿：做一部更大的制作。
画面，故事，一幕一幕浮现在脑海里...
隔天我兴奋地跑去告诉牧师：上帝给了我们一个最棒的故事---杜凯文的故事！
我们聊了好久，好兴奋。
“杜凯文的角色是该由谁演绎？”
“等杜凯文好起来，他自己演！”
“..... Amen....。”

我不明白牧师的迟延，我信心十足。

剧本没有写出来，他走了。
结果剧本里没有了最后一幕。我心中好多个为什么...
今天我终于明白，上帝的结局，最美。

我相信，他的故事，必定能让你们，他们，每一个人...学习，感恩，感动。

制作杜凯文的故事，让我们一夜长大。

这次拍摄感觉好不同，大家团结的心意，没有埋怨，全心全意... 我知道，都是因为杜凯文。:)

印象很深刻，饰演杜凯文妈妈的美清姐，在拍照顾重病的凯文一幕...
在台词念完了后很久...我都没有喊卡。
最后喊卡的时候，看到妈妈哭了。哭得好厉害...
我们都静默了好久.. 大家的心境应该都回到三个月前了。
跟在第一次念剧本给制作组的时候一样，
当Deric拿着一把走音的吉他唱着写给凯文的一首歌，我们都哭了。

我们真的很用心，很用心地制作这部戏... 因为凯文的生命值得我们纪念，值得与大家分享。

恳切邀请你，一起见证这个生命带给大家的勇气，坚持与爱。
与我们一起，完成杜凯文的心愿...这是杜凯文的制作，最棒的制作。

感动

2011-11-20T02:25:00.000+08:00

虽然已经是凌晨2：15am...
心里的感动，很想记录下来。

刚做完《单程旅客》的trailer，
真的，感谢上帝。

因为演员们“档期”的问题，拍摄进度延后很多。
说真的，真的是太少footage可以放进trailer 里面。
和Billy一起想一大堆文字拖延时间... wahaha...

回到家里，把trailer从新看一遍...
我好感动。
能够和杜凯文一起制作这部舞台剧，我很荣幸。

我们时间有限，人力有限... 但你一定会说：不要轻言放弃，否则对不起上帝。
很感谢演员们的敬业，摄影队的付出，幕后工作人员的辛劳，教会牧师及领袖的祷告...
杜凯文，如果你还在，一定会称赞我们的。

我们一定能够做得到。
为上帝，为凯文...
我们一定能够。

11。11。11

2011-11-11T23:11:00.001+08:00

感谢各界亲朋好友亲身到来，

远从各国各界的信息，

FB炸爆我notification的祝福等等。

今天法律上是人家的老婆了。

p/s: 但是，基督徒正式结为夫妻，乃是要等到婚礼过后哦。

21.7.2012

到时早点到，红包记得大大的 :p

幸福啦~

Sometimes

2011-11-04T03:42:00.001+08:00

I just want to stick a piece of paper on my forehead saying:
"DO NOT TALK TO ME."
when I walk into my office.

Overwhelmed by too many things.
Doing one thing at a time is luxury.
I'm blur with priorities.
Everyone says this is more important, that is less.
Everyone wants a piece of me...
Just tear me apart ba...

I am taking my time, doing somebody else' work.
I am wasting my life, living somebody else' life.

Being too nice for so long...
Just let me... let me...say

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!

I would appreciate some space some time and some love.
sorry and thank you.

ehem. complaining isn't making me feel better.
so shut up la me.

在办公室里等学生放学

2011-10-28T21:07:00.000+08:00

听着《那些年》的主题曲，手中的滑鼠来回click。
不知不觉做了这张海报。
应该不是finalize的吧... 还没有经过approve 就放上fb :p
引起的不便请见谅。

最近的设计很minimalism风。不是黑白就是fade out... 然后字少少，很多留白的空间。
这跟我boss的喜好很有出入，他喜欢黄橙红的说... (不要跟他讲我酱讲plss...)
不过，I like it this way.

喜欢人事物最简约，纯朴的一面。
留白的空间就让看得人添上自己的颜色，写上自己的心里话...
然后，自然看见自己内心的图画。

本来poster里还有两句话，
“每个旅途都有结束的时候你是否知道，终点在那里？”
应该是layout的问题，看来看去还没有到“Ahh...就是这样！”的feel...

沉思了一会... (屁啦，还沉思...= = )
把两句话删掉，
写上：
“大家好，我叫凯文。”

忽然会心一笑，
他真的常常这样介绍自己。
看着看着，仿佛看见真的凯文，拿着皮箱，戴着一顶他从来不会戴的帽子。
阔达又带点傻气的笑容...
跟大家说：

“大家好，我叫凯文。”

Ahh...就是这样。
: )

凯文的故事，12月感动上演。

I am

2011-10-24T01:53:00.000+08:00

a very LAST MINUTE person.

some of you reading might say... ABUDEN??

16 pages of content draft + graphic design for Newcomers Welcome Booklet
Christmas production promotion materials (flyers, invitation card, bookmark)

All by 10am later.

I thought... yes I assume I'll have the whole Monday to finish up all these..
but a sudden trip to Ipoh freaked me out... I only have 8 hours left.

I literally begged Aunty Evon to give me one more day...
All I get was a cold message: "They are not working on Wednesday...so...I think quite impossible."

Regretssssss.
So regret for being a last minute person.
This is serious shit.

ok you say it..
"ABUDEN!!!??"

it has arrived.

2011-10-22T03:03:00.001+08:00

Although some people might avoid talking about you,

but I'll somehow think of u a little,

talk about u a little..

sometimes.

Christmas this year, is all yours.

A story about you and God.

Be with us,

this is your greatest production.

It will be.

A photobook of you.

I'm gonna give it to your mom.

I remember asking you this question in my dreams.

"We know that you are not here with us anymore,

but why somehow I can still feel that you are around?"

I know many of us feel the same way too.

We miss you..

like, a lot.

mission must possible.

2011-09-27T21:29:00.000+08:00

"You sure you wanna look like this when I propose to you?"

I pulled myself out of bed to gym.

After 20mins on the treadmill...

"Good. I think your legs are still not pass for the short dress you want to wear for our ROM."

I threw myself on the bike for another 20mins.

"That tummy might spoil your wedding gown you know.."

Okay okay.. 3 sets of sit ups.

"Darling you did such a great job :)"

That's my evil personal trainer.

I can only have soup for dinner T_____T

Dear God... I need to shake off that chunk of extra fat...in a month's time.
I know through You I can do all things.
This is Mr Leong's prayer. Amen.

转眼就永远

2011-09-27T04:16:00.000+08:00

永远
是个很遥远的字眼。

转眼
代表的何止是那一瞬间？

爱如果可以到永远
你是否能陪我到那天？

爱如果只能在瞬间
一转眼你会不会不见

梦如果可以实现
应该不会太远

可是我好像把梦遗忘在昨天。

找不回寻不见
想你的时候就闭上眼
聆听风声雨声
和你模糊的再见

只能珍惜有你的瞬间
哪怕一转眼
就是永远。

哪怕一转眼
你不在身边。

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

许多话想说但不知从何说起
真的艺术家的忧郁不是骗人的。
我不是说我是艺术家，也不是说我很忧郁
那种半夜三更外面下雨的effect真的很恼人。

十月了...
2011年快到尾声。
这年大起大落，经历的怎能用言语形容？
我的心啊，我的心...
你辛苦了。

说故事的人，
说的总是别人的故事。

忙碌的人
忙得总是别人的事。

只能说还活着是礼物
还忙着是祝福
能知足是一种幸福。

我的心啊，我的心...

Pik Chek again.

2011-09-24T20:04:00.000+08:00

See my post last year...
http://angeline-ning.blogspot.com/2010/07/pik-chek.html

Well... I'm in the same old situation AGAIN.
Just that...
Mr Director is not here to bug me...
He's not here to blow me up the wall...
He's not here to see if I'm ok...

It's not easy...
to make myself dwelling in his story over and over again.
to make myself recall every single heartbreaking details.
to dig out memories from his love ones.
I hate doing that.

and this just makes me miss him more.

I believe it's for a greater cause.
I just have to keep myself together.
Chill. I'm perfectly fine.

just...

PIK CHEK 2.0!!!!!!

haha :D

Beautiful.

2011-09-20T04:42:00.000+08:00

Beautiful 全然美丽

Beautiful 你是全然美丽

我身我心我灵都要赞美你

耶稣你是全然美丽

一生一世永远都要敬拜你

在Only God Church Camp 按手礼时的感动。

　我的耶稣，全然美丽。

　Everything is beautiful in my life, because my God is...

COMPLETELY. ABSOLUTELY. BEAUTIFUL.

some deep shit moments

2011-09-06T01:57:00.000+08:00

I am late for an appointment and...
- my car ran out of fuel
- forgot to reload my Touch n Go card
- my brake lights are still not functioning.

I need to reply an important SMS from my student and...
- my phone's keypad is not functioning
- I'm alone in the office
- I couldn't even call back cz I can't scroll the phone screen to see the number

I came home from a tiring working day and...
- I forgot to bring the house keys (it's 1am)
- my brother just don't feel like picking up the phone
- the worst part......

THIS STUPID COCKROACH IS BLOCKING MY WAY TO THE BATHROOM!!!!

so here I am..
sitting at my bro's com and blog...
hoping that the cockroach decides to go back to its shitty dark drain and let me bathe.

p/s: hey it's September already!

30 minutes.

2011-08-20T15:01:00.000+08:00

用工作间隔的30分钟写一篇纪念他的稿，说是要放在他追思聚会的program book。

只给我30分钟，我望着电脑，脑子一片空白...

游走FB及部落各，果然有好多写给他的post。想参考参考，毕竟怎么可能30分钟内就能写好关于一个人的一生...

字打了又删，删了又打。

思绪定格在那张又熟悉又怜惜的脸...

写下...

" 我们都记得他温柔，体贴人的心。宁愿自己吃亏，为要让身边的人快乐。

他从不好胜，但他心里总对自己要达成的目标有一股莫名的坚持。

凭着这份坚持，他总是能够鼓励身边的人，他常说：“不要轻言放弃，否则对不起上帝”。

在他抗癌的期间，我们更加能够看见，他以行动证明他永不放弃的信念。

他偶尔会提起说，他还有很多事情没有做，他还想为他所爱的人付出些什么…

他或许不知道，Kevin Too这个名字，带给多少人生命中的震撼！

我们或许觉得很惋惜，这么年轻的生命，这么大好前景的生命…

但，

因着他对上帝的信靠，我们的信心也与他一起成长。

因着他积极的对抗病魔，我们也抹去眼泪选择与他并肩作战。

因着他的勇气，我们也变得刚强。

Kevin ，你是我们的英雄。

我们知道上帝比我们任何一个人更加爱你，你已经完成了天父要你走的路，而且完成的很漂亮。

我们会记得你，当我们都完成了自己该走的旅程，就在天堂见你。"

看看表，30分钟，按下Send。

看看自己，看到昨晚忍到今天的眼泪...

Kevin...天堂见。

Tonight

2011-08-02T01:52:00.000+08:00

I cried.
Jesus cried for Lazarus, and Lazarus was revived.
If only my tears could move God's heart...
so that he will be healed.
I am willing to cry him a river.

Listening to "Believe in love, you will see miracles" by SOP while editing some photos taken in the hospital.
Tears flow...
And I let it flow.

There is no greater love than to lay down one's life for one's friends. (John 15:13)

We love you too much to let you go.
We too, know God's love for you surpasses all love man can give.
Jesus lay down His life for you, there is no greater love than this.

So you be strong, Kevin.

We believe together with you.

Love you.

I am reminded

2011-06-17T02:13:00.000+08:00

that God will always reserve the VERY BEST for me.
I have been loosing faith a little, worrying a little lately...
Feeling like walking away...from the big problems ahead.

But yea, I am reminded again today,
that I am a princess in God's eyes,
that I am mommy's precious daughter,
that I am his one and only love,
that all my dreams will come true,
that I deserve all wonderful things in the world.
that I have been receiving so much love.

It's May 31st

2011-05-31T23:54:00.001+08:00

I blog in order to add 1 more pathetic post to the only 1 pathetic post for May archive.

I never thought work will wear me down and tear me off the time to blog. My blog needs salvation.

This will be boring and random and with no pics.

Stepping into the next half of year 2011 in approximately 3 minutes, time flies like Buzz Lightyear.
Some update about me so far:

- We've submitted our booking forms to JPN for R.O.M on November 11...just in case you are not aware. *ehem*
- Feeling a little shy being in the limelight when people start flooding my FB page with wishes and blessings.
- Bought my 13th wedding magazine and downloaded my 3rd wedding planner guide.
- Gotta love Martha Stewart Weddings. I finish reading EVERYTHING in 2 days.
- Having so many plans in my head but ditched nearly all of them due to my empty pocket.
- We've made a booking of 40 tables with Oriental Pavilion but have to ditch that too cos my mom just decided to have an 'Organic' dinner banquet.
- Had a hard time choosing my bridal party especially my bridesmaid. If I were to show you the list... I will have a few dozens of bridesmaid. And he's gonna kill me.
- Had a hard time following my weight lost plan. Cos I simply don't have one.
- I have not put my hands into anything about wedding for 2 weeks now. That's a good sign.
- But now I'm blogging all updates on wedding. That's bad.
- And heck, it's 12:10am and I shall backdate this post to yesterday..

Cz this post suppose to be another pathetic post added to the only pathetic post for MAY.

剩下的发现。

2011-05-16T01:16:00.000+08:00

从去年9月到今天过了7个月，还有4个发现还没写...如果你们还记得的话。
不记得？自己去看：发现#1 - #4 发现#5 - #6

发现#7
怪不得我7个月来吃不好，睡不着，原来还欠你们4个发现！！
（酱就搞定一个发现？？你很敷衍一下je!!)
不爽不要看la.. :p

发现#8
我发梦都梦见的事情快要发生了... 心情像喝了一碗bak kut teh + milo粉 + 过期yogurt...
五味参杂........................... 还会肚子痛 @@
如果你们听说什么/怀疑什么/真的知道什么，请有忍耐加上持守的美德。
谢绝媒体采访，对散播谣言者（无论属实或不属实）将保留提告的权利。
你们都知道我走的是华丽的D调路线。
谢谢。

发现#9
我真的很穷。
。
。。
。。。
。。。。
。。。。。
词穷。

（你又像酱子敷衍掉一个发现？ X@!!nk0*&^$####......）

请你保留我对你的一点点尊重... 这是一篇善良纯洁的部落格，请注重您的遺词用字。
谢谢。

钱到用时方恨少。
发现很多梦想因为没有家财万贯而被迫...放弃。
我钱包里有很多纸... 很多receipt纸...
看着漂亮的婚纱，美美的照片, 马尔代夫的沙滩...

我说我的财宝积儹在天上。(馬太福音6:19-24)

其实，我已经很满足 :)

发现#10
三个月减掉10公斤是不可能的。
白旗。

吃！

yay! 总算对你们有个交待。

我期待

2011-04-29T21:44:00.001+08:00

我期待。

If you are interested in reading my post on my dream wedding.

well... my dream changed a bit.

but yes I am still very much anticipating :)

A new way to think about creativity - Elizabeth Gilbert

2011-04-06T23:59:00.001+08:00

The best creativity video I have ever seen. | Stuff Christians Like – Jon Acuff

I don't know why the video didn't show up but you can follow this link to the video anyway.

"creative people have this reputation for being enormously mentally unstable"
I laughed at this statement, and later sunk into deep thoughts.

Yes..how true is that.
At least once in your lifetime, you will have this worry of being sucked off all your creative juices...
and turn into a dry piece of junk, eventually kicked out by all the "new blood" "upcoming creative minds".. you name it.

"The most extraordinary aspects of your being didn't came from you, maybe they were on loan to you, to be passed along when you're finished. with somebody else." - Elizabeth Gilber.

Elizabeth used this illustration of the people in the desserts of North Africa centuries ago. People used to gather for moonlight dances which are magnificent because all the dancers are professionals.
But somehow, once in a while, there will be an "extraordinary" one. In present terms, "God-like". So the crowd will go shouting " Allah, Allah!" meaning "God, God!". This is because they know that the magnificent extraordinary performance is not by human, it's a glimpse of God.

We, creative people of this present time, have experienced that in one or more stage of our creative journey. We achieved something better than great, there are applause, praises, celebrations...
but what's next?
Just like the moon dancer, falling back to the old self the very next morning, wondering if he/she could ever do that again?

What's next?
Sometimes we don't even know which part of our being has this power to create such success.

Simply because we didn't create them. It's a supernatural power.

In Genesis 1 says, God created the heaven and the earth.
He is the master of all creation. Creativity comes from Him alone.

We are but vessels, receiving gifts and talents from above, then deliver to the world.

It's never about us... no matter how gifted you are in the creative field.
Creative Production Ministry is never about us...no matter how many past successes we've achieved.
I will continually remind myself, it's never ever about me.

It took me a long while, to give back the credits...to the Creator, the one who created me.
But I thank God I did.
Maybe you should do the same too :)

我有一部不错的相机，人家讲的。

2011-03-30T21:22:00.000+08:00

认识我的人应该都见过它 - MAX.
很多人常说，MAX就像幽魂 - 你不知道什么时候会被拍到。
当你发觉的时候，你那副衰样已经给世界第三大国的人民一览无遗。可能还留了comment添！

我想去买间木屋，里面放mini theater, 一张水床，按摩椅，

木桌上放一台MacBook Pro, iPhone, iPad 2。

木橱放个LV Bag，一双Jimmy Choo, 一枚Cartier.

还有位就park一辆 GT-R R35，白色。

记得很久以前我讲过我的婚礼要纯白色。

现在想下...很leong又很chang ngan.

那块红色的布很抢眼

有没有鬼戏的feel?

我还是不知道要写什么。

我的favorite。

有时我有点paiseh, paiseh自己学人家扮pro.

《EXIT出口》剧照。

每次的production我们都有director of photography.

每次的event都有official photogrpaher.

我只是那个没有DSLR，unofficial，

可是又不甘心，在旁边死命拍，在FB死命post的那个。

我有一部不错的相机，

我只会用auto intelligence 及 pin hole effect。

所以才成为那个靠边站的人。

怪谁je? (bitter)

可是我爽。

我喜欢。

我的梦想是成为周游四国的旅行者，拍下我所爱的画面，

写下想法，画下感觉

出版自己的书

给自己看 :)

你要看？跟我借啦。

《EXIT 出口》

2011-03-29T18:14:00.001+08:00

A very special production by Creative Production Ministry of PCKL.
A combination of artistic cinematography, still photography, dances & songs.
Yet another great production you won't want to miss.
Follow this link for more Pictures on shooting.

《EXIT 出口》
Date: 29.5.2011 (Sun)
Time: 11:00am-1:00pm / 3:00pm-5:00pm
Venue: Bentley Music Auditorium
           Wisma Bentley Music
           3, Jalan PJU 7/2, Mutiara Damansara,
           47810 Petaling Jaya, Selangor, Malaysia.
   Map

More details & behind the scene stories coming up soon!

Let me know, I'll send you an invitation card. :)

:)

2011-03-23T00:55:00.001+08:00

芳龄二十五

白领上班族

衔头几充足

可是没下属

男友二十四

右脸三颗痣

还在念硕士

没钱谈婚事

纯粹娱乐自己的打油诗 :p

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打开相本发现很多照片都用pinhole effect.

上面那张是我给新公寓的茶几买的摆设。

新公寓算是不错的投资,

我一直都这样告诉我自己 :(

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公司网络三不五时就所特掉，

今天呆在家做设计。

下过雨的天气，不用化妆的脸...

凉风阵阵吹在床上的一堆烂泥。

明天那堆烂泥还是滚会公司去吧。

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以前信箱里是朋友寄来得贺卡

百货公司的折扣卷

现在很怕去看信箱

怕看到一堆一堆的账单

我愿为五斗米折腰。

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刚刚拿了笔记本去喝茶

他看着我的涂鸦

女孩手中的风车，男孩手中的风筝

他说我的世界很可爱

我很用力地点头

没有应声，怕被哽咽的声音出卖。

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小时候看日本漫画

青春期看日本偶像剧

早前拼命看日本旅游手记

现在每天在看日本真人悲剧

我知道日本会很快站起来

也希望自己也能元気一点。

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早前参加了一个media conference

抱着学skills的心态，

却什么skill都没带回来。

只找回一个旧梦想，

带回一个新使命。

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开始习惯没有你在的日子，

一切准备练习拍摄都上轨道。

大家好像都很自动自发

所以不用担心。

有时，不... 很多时候，

很想念你的321 Action.

收工时的 Cut! Well done!

我真的什么都不是

我只是和你一样，在奇迹前硬撑。

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最近发现好多好多创意/手作的网页

简直hit my button!

（哦...觉得有点歪）

在conference听见看见个个真人见证

追梦要从一道菜开始

"豉椒炒鱿DIY"

就觉得他们很帅咯。

又重重hit my button again!!

结果就hit出一个凹陷，没有事情发生。

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那天跟他的门徒去吃饭

人家pasar malam 摆挡一个礼拜

周薪超越我的月薪

周间自由服事

我愿为五斗米折腰，

折手折脚又点话啧？

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不满不敢大声讲

委屈不敢大声哭

兴奋不敢大声叫

这那里像人生？

这是人生。

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太聪明不见得好

你知道你没资格要求

因为你也没有达到人家的要求

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那块煞风景的大便是他画的

啊...反正是男孩会踩到的。

2011年是上好的一年，我要选择那上好的福分。

2011年从年头到今天的挑战，

都是日后我生命荣耀你的见证。

我的世界很可爱。

我下次就大声说"是！"

stay believing.

2011-03-11T16:26:00.001+08:00

The situation is not good

The people are making noises

The world is falling apart.

But... whatever.

I just want to stay believing.

And you, yes you.

stay believing too.

A thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand,but it will not come near you. (Psalm 91:7)

Picture taken during an angry storm. I was sitting in my car.. playing worship music. staying calm.

Rrrrrabbit Year~

2011-01-29T16:47:00.000+08:00

hm...mush feels threatened.

kinda like this rabbit...let's give her a name.

too too~

erm..lame?

ok this ba gua smell in the air is making me sick.

Happy TOO year!

(too = rabbit)

Be loved everyone.

2011-01-11T02:32:00.000+08:00

Only Hope by Mandy Moore

"A Walk to Remember"

Came across this clip...and it brought me back to this movie.
I remember I read the book and cried like a baby.
Then the movie made me cry even more :p

A very touching and meaningful story... A story about 2 different lives, crossing each other's path.
There's hopes, dreams, love, regrets... there's God.
Although the story ended with a sad tone, but it's really a story telling how amazing our God is.

There's a very special part when Landon flipped through the year book and found out Jamie's ambition:

"To witness a miracle."

How many of you out there, working hard, struggling through, crying for something to happen, begging for something to change...
How about a prayer to witness a miracle?

A miracle of hope, life, love.

To the world, you may be just one person.
But to one person, you are the world.
He's our Heavenly Father.

Never give up will you?

Lay my head back down,
Lift my hands and pray
to be only Yours.

p/s: you know, I'm feeling like writing a love story, a happily ever after love story. It's how all love stories should end. :) Be loved everyone.

morning. goodnight

2011-01-07T06:03:00.001+08:00

5:51am.
2nd time in this week.
There's only one thing that will keep me awake til this hour:
designing stuffs for church.

Maybe some may say, nah... it's just a youth bulletin.
You don't have to put in so much effort...

For me,
designing anything is a part of my journey to the DREAM.
Many a times my "clients" will throw me projects and say:
I just want a simple draft, just simply do okay?

Then I will end up like now...
clicking, shortcut key-ing, squeezing my poor eyes in front of the computer.

I just can't "simply" finish any project...
It's a stubborn stupid principle of mine.

I'll give my best whenever I have a chance to do something,
let it be just a little thing...
which will bring me one baby step closer to my dream...

One day,
When people ask about what I do...

"I'm an artist."

*ehem, okay..digital artist to be exact. :)

gosh, the simple thought of it makes me gay~ I mean happy, just in case :p

Hello 2011.

2011-01-06T03:07:00.001+08:00

I have not been blogging. I just saw a total of 52 posts for the past year and it is not even half of the total for 2009. Well, at least there's one post a week on average.

Had a quick glance through what I have recorded for the past year.
Joy, tears, struggles, victories.
Ah... life :)

I actually asked myself this questions weeks ago:
What do I actually feel about everything for 2010?
My answer was: WHAT A MESS!

Well, I have been busy, unorganized, sloppy and most of the time, angry at myself.
Allow me to give myself a big hug *hugs* :)

I started off the first day of 2010 in a leaders retreat camp, got very discouraged on certain things.
Came back and got very sick... :(

Jan: Went on mission trips to Mantin & Seremban - Started to appreciate what we have in church and learn to serve others.

Mac: Onn & Jia got married. | 11 days in Taiwan - a roller coaster ride spiritually & emotionally.

Apr: Work | OK photoshoot experience | Mission trip to Kluang & Batu Pahat

May: More Work | Mission trip to Kota Bahru | En Tong & JC's wedding | 1st sharing experience in Dream Factory

June: iCampus members got baptized | A4J

July: ITEC New Intake started=a lot of work | Dream Factory Anniversary - Broke a record of 100 salvation

Aug: Mission trip to Mantin & Seremban

Sept: TODAY Camp | iCampus Mid Autumn Evangelistic Meeting

Oct: Taiwan Again

Nov: OK Wedding Banquet- 1st experience being an emcee | Hectic crazy working schedule | Crazy things happened to a family member- turned my family upside down overnight | IMPACT Camp

Dec: Mission trip to Kota Bahru | <4320> Christmas Production - 1400 attended, 135 saved.

I got deeply discouraged and madly disappointed with myself for not being a good daughter to my parents, a good staff, a good cell group leader, a good girlfriend, a good servant of God...

I tried too hard to be "good" and eventually forgot to be "me".
IMPACT CAMP is my turning point.
There's where I started to shift my focus from myself to the Creator.
And miraculously everything just turns out alright...

I am surprise that I manage to pull myself through nearly the whole year in such a mess.
Then the beautiful story came in, Jesus was carrying me through during the toughest time.

Father, You are truly amazing.
I can tell the world with my head held high:
I am totally set free, blessed and anointed to serve my God.

2011, I welcome you with an open heart and do the ONE thing that is needful: to choose the better blessing by pleasing Your heart above all else. (Luke 10:38-42)

Quote from Peg
" This year WILL be a year of stepping into the supernatural, it WILL be a year of dreaming with God of all the impossibilities and seeing it come to past"

An EXCITING and AMAZING journey begins!

Just in case you have not notice already.

2010-12-14T03:17:00.000+08:00

PCS2 Creative Production Ministry presents

Christmas 2010 Production

《4320》

Largest production yet. RM20K invested!

On stage + On screen performance

Another breakthrough for Creative Production Ministry.

Not to be missed!

4 Originally Composed Songs for this production

recorded in CD!

Merchandise for sale

《4320》 Ceramic Drinking Mug

RM 15 ONLY!

This is not an advertorial...

Bah...

This Christmas, make it a memorable and meaningful one.

Be a part of 《4320》.

you are warmly invited :)

明年今日

2010-11-11T11:11:00.007+08:00

你的人生会在哪一个阶段呢？

11.11.11

:)

话说

2010-11-04T02:07:00.000+08:00

再过两天就是本小姐生平第一次为朋友婚宴做主持...
到了此时此刻连婚宴流程都还没到手的说..
再加上当晚的主持搭档正赶报告也没空鸟我。
手头上的工作一份接一份...
到夜深人静时静下来想想，
不妙。人家宴请400人，讲说都是自己人，但总得让气氛体面一点。

怎样leh?
夜深人静只好找brother谷问问。
果真有答复！

什么阳光明媚红杏枝头玉栏桥？？

我是要现在委婉请辞，还是稍后被豉椒炒鱿好呢？

4320

2010-10-27T14:36:00.001+08:00

生命倒数

在尽头的挣扎，放手及重生。

A PCS2 Drama Production - Coming Soon This Christmas Season.

**Awesome background artwork by Kazen Koh Liang Sheng.

freelance

2010-10-27T01:28:00.000+08:00

Had dinner with a new found friend today.
Me: Oh it's almost 8pm, gotta go.
Him: Office hour is over isn't it? Where are you going?
Me: Erm...some freelance job. (It's actually rushing some design for church :p)
Him: Freelance... Haih, it's hard to earn enough nowadays..
Me: Em...oh yea.

How if I tell him that I'm doing freelance...for free.

Oh, FREElance indeed.

But I tell you, I will be damn rich in Heaven.
My blessing is not only counted in monetary abundance, I am contented on the inside.
Nothing beats the sense of security, when I know how GREAT is my GOD.

My Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not be in want. Ps 23

to all of you out there.

2010-10-21T15:25:00.000+08:00

He hears your cry.

Just hang on there for a little longer.

Your moment is near.

Help...

2010-10-13T04:23:00.000+08:00

I haven't finish my work...
I haven't finish my script...
I haven't pack my luggage...
I haven't change the currency...
I haven't been sleeping...

Taiwan~~~~~ Why soooo soon?? T_________T

就让我玩得安心一点好吗？

想得美。

Ohayo October.

2010-10-01T02:38:00.000+08:00

Back from Wall Street.
I don't really understand the whole movie but I enjoyed every bits of it.
I'm blessed with my lack of curiosity.
hm...ok maybe I enjoyed looking at Shia LaBeouf.

Being exposed to the real world recently...
And realized no matter how reluctant you are to face it,
There's no where to hide.
It's just a matter of time when you have to know what you have to know.

But when you get to know it,
It's not that bad after all.

A big AMEN to high income economy.
I am seeing it coming true.

Good morning October!
A blessed month~

Not related:
A note to him: you actually melt my heart with those words.
And now I'm a little freaked out :p

继续发现

2010-09-24T03:08:00.000+08:00

发现#5
很久没有在这里post照片
就赏你们一张个人近照！看来我玉女形象依然如昔... ehem*
（我娘拍的...那天陪她去做市场考察，硬要我在那些店前面摆pose假装拍照，其实要拍他们店面的拍摄及产品。就做liao一天的kelefe模特儿 =________=）

发现#6
我们的爱情史原来一点都不好听
刚才喝茶时被追问爱情史，一个两个38的样子真的很想拍下来给你们看。
可是啊...回答了几个问题就给我一副“哇...sien到........”的样子 =____=
原因是，
问：你们在一起几年liao?
答：8年
问：你当初为什么做了这个极度糊涂的决定？
答：糊涂？你知道吗，想当年他可是校园王子le!我可以做他女朋友好像地上拾到金酱幸运... 还有...
问：OKOK 好了好了...（立刻截住）酱他是怎样追你啊？是不是死缠烂打le??
答：har? 我们好像都没有说谁追谁le...我们在一起hor, 就好像上天注定一样，那么自然，那么纯...
大家：得啦得啦！！我们问别人...

oi....为什么现在这种纯情故事不laku liao?
做么一定要死缠烂打，追你十九条街，分分合合来来去去，一哭二闹三上吊的故事才好听le?
你们戏看太多liao。hng!

hehe...好，等下次再有发现再写给你们看!

九月都要过了

2010-09-21T00:20:00.000+08:00

一个post都没有post到，就写一些东西来敷衍一下...

就讲近来的10大发现：

发现#1
我超级无敌久没有做菜
以前啊...我所谓“以前”真的是7-8年以前...
我还会去巴杀买菜，6点起床弄早餐，还很讲究色香味俱全的那种...
皆因今早皮痒帮婆婆剁蒜就把中指剁掉...一刀。
还不敢讲，把手放一边单手继续剁 :p
后来血流太多被花现... 就挨婆婆3万字箴言训话。

发现#2
我老了
你一定在那边骂：屁啦!老？？
工作关系常接触比我年长的人，奇怪的是都跟他们很ngam keng.
还以为我的交际能力还不错说，跟年长的人都不会有代沟。
那天，跟一位公司分行的店主谈天。
就谈到很machi的时候我问他几岁...
32岁的他：“哎呀，我们不是差不多！还问我几岁...”

原来不是没有代沟，是他们根本不知道有代沟的几率。

发现#3
我们好像没有什么娱乐
星期一是off day。5点他call我出去。
上车后也没有讨论目的地，车子就驶向那熟悉的方向--1U。
到了1U,没有讨论的情况下，我们已经站在戏院售票处的队伍后。
买了票，走着走着就站在Sushi Zanmai队伍的后面。
开餐时，眼前的食物就是那两种饭，那两样菜。
看完戏，两个人就站在戏院门口...
"你有东西买吗？” “没有...你le?”

他忽然问我，以前我们hang gai都做些什么？
Bowling, 唱K, shopping, 玩photohunt, 去远远的地方，try不同的餐厅，拍大头贴...
他抛下一句：“wah...年轻人真的都做这些无聊事...”
就酱上车回家。

发现#4
发现我没有mood写接下来的5个发现。

hahahaha....

从此以后

2010-08-31T02:11:00.000+08:00

所谓的大人物，就是每天不断努力的小人物。

当你看见某某成就了大事，
其实你正在努力的小事，就是某天别人口中的伟绩。
当你听见某某拥有了世界，
其实你所追求的小梦想，就是某天别人追随的模范。

当你欣赏一个伟人，
试着去了解他卑微的开始，去探索他每天努力着的小事。
一个成功，肯定经历很多失败，只是他都胜过了。

瓶颈不是创意的终点
现实不是梦想的结局

忽然了解，
是我还不够努力。
是我还不够疯狂。

有人用了五年，有人用十年，
也有人经过了无数的十年，却还看不见曙光。

歌词说"谁会记得我的模样，谁会记得我受过的伤..."
上帝说：“我会。”
“你的每一滴眼泪我都记念。”

童话故事的开头总是“很久很久以前..."
结尾也是“从此以后..."

或许你的“很久很久以前”并不绚丽，不精彩，
但我相信，

我们都是这世界的过客，面对的也是短暂的问题。
我们要一起努力，
上帝将祝福我们的“从此以后..."

For the sake of posting something.

2010-08-24T02:46:00.002+08:00

Bringing my laptop home is a serious mistake.
I shall fast the internet at home for 40-days to break this addiction.
ISH.

Need to bring peace back to my bedroom.

"Your job determines who you are.
If you want to change who you are,
First change what you do."

I am seriously pondering on this line from the movie "Repo Men".
Btw, I nearly vomited my dinner eaten 3 days ago after watching that.

Some random thoughts:
- Anyone out there is willing to compose melody for a song? If I have the lyrics
- I just want to cook a meal for myself.
- Tomorrow will be a happy day.

mush is proud to be a Malaysian.

2010-08-19T02:46:00.003+08:00

mush made it to the header, eventually.
it is after all her blog.

恋爱通告

2010-08-17T01:12:00.002+08:00

此片让我有点跌眼镜...情节有少leong，但一张帅脸足以让我赦免一切~
王力宏很努力搞笑，我很努力陪笑... :p
还是帅帅地弹钢琴唱歌比较好。

“忽然发现那些幻想，其实是我的梦想...”
令我红了眼眶的台词。
我很少看爱情片会哭，哭也不是为了里面的爱情元素。

他对我说，
我这个人没有什么不良嗜好，
正确来讲，我很难会对一件事染上瘾。
一个对人对事都不会很执着的人，
所以不管什么鸟事把我惹毛，
我可以瞬间忘记，
一个很容易把东西放下的人。
即使被人误会诬赖，
这一秒我可以气得想把自己撕裂，
下一秒我就会“哎，算了吧”地自己碎碎念。

他说，刚发现我这种性格时真的很不能接受。
觉得我太懦弱，不敢为自己辩护，没有主见etc。

人长大后，
他说这是上帝赐给我最大的恩典。

我恍然大悟地Amen。
怪不得我的世界在23年8个月后还是那么美丽...

那天到Mantin宣教，有人问起我的名字。
“宁恩这个名字真好听，你一定是个能够安宁在神的恩典里的人。”
原来上帝赐的恩典，在我生在这个世界，还没有认识他，就伴随着我。
打从一开始，上帝就特别为我预备一个安宁美丽的世界...

写恋爱通告怎么写到这些呢...
都说我这个人很容易离题 :p

在世界里打拼，挣扎，矛盾，钻牛角尖的你，你，或你，
其实你们生命里一定有一个上帝特别特别赐给你的恩典。
只有你才拥有，因为它是上帝给你的special gift。
你一直都拥有着，可能你只是还没发现而已。
这个只有你才拥有的礼物，塑造着你人生的主题曲。
有一天，你身边的人一定能听得到。
你自己作曲，作词，只有你能演奏，属于你的theme song。

上帝一定是哼着这首主题曲，把你我带到这个世界上。
所以，若干年后，当你终于听见你生命的主题曲，
你会很感动，很感动...

我知道上帝爱世人，
但我总觉得，他特别特别爱我。

鸟

2010-08-03T04:04:00.005+08:00

友曰：有翅膀的未必是天使,也有可能是鸟人。
此话确实一绝！

天底下鸟人的鸟话如枪林弹雨，
就看中鸟的是否防鸟功力深厚。

要避免中鸟害，虽不必上山练个十年八年，
学起“防鸟功”防身防身也不坏也。

防鸟功#1招：做个聋鸟
鸟话一律过滤，听不到就不知道。
缺点：万一鸟话中带有人话，错过重要讯息可能带来更大鸟害！

防鸟功#2招：做个忍鸟
听了鸟话，深呼吸，用力吞入肠胃，谷个一肚子鸟气，可以省掉吃饭钱。
缺点：可能导致肠胃纠结，排气不顺，健康受害，不是长久之计。

防鸟功#3招：做个恶鸟
以一字还一字来与鸟人过招，誓死都要拼到剩下最后一口鸟气！
缺点：通常会被鸟就代表你不够人家鸟功好，还去送死？

以上几招都是鸟招，无一招管用。
文毕前赠送最后绝招：

所谓“人必自鸟，然后人鸟之。”

减少自怜情怀，丢掉被害妄想症，脚踏实地地走出鸟笼，
方为上策。

与深受鸟害的你共勉之。

i almost

2010-08-03T02:11:00.004+08:00

threw myself out of the window.
being in intervals of total restlessness and over-sleeping turned me upside down.

Recently I have been scribbling here & there...then closed the blog window..
Today I found out that I actually have 20++ saved drafts unpublished!
nyahah.
Mainly because I was bullshitting most of the time so I think it is better not to publish those craps and pollute this nice & friendly blog.
But while reading back at those posts, I realized I wrote better while crapping.
Maybe some secret power unleashed when I'm agitated/intensely confused/very-beh-tahan.
Well I didn't say that I was agitated/intensely confused/very-beh-tahan while writing those entries.

Hm. Maybe today I will try my best not to click on the "x" button after finishing this piece of crap.

So you better be lucky to read this.

Or not so lucky cz here I go crapping somemore.

Let's start with my fb status for today.
"What a birdie day."
Recently I was being "birditized" a lot. I know this is a fairly impolite word to use but well.

"WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME???!!!"
are these song lyrics?

I don't know. But this "birding" activity going on now is very unpleasant to me.
I've lost the will to fight back. So I rather sit back and keep quiet.
I did apologized just in case I am really in the wrong.
Nah...then you know I am not sincere in doing so. Haha.

I will learn to forgive too.
Cz people must be very very VERY tulan to actually start "birding" you.
I will give them the room to express themselves without taking heart.

you see...I am so tempted to click "x" now.
my good sense just won't allow me to publish this.

After all I am such a good good girl with a soft and gentle heart.
konon-nya la.

whateveriamgoingtopublishthisublowa!

p/s: hahah.. i actually wrote all these...and got them published! forgive my crude emotions. i am still a good good girl with a soft & gentle heart ok :)

hm. I think I'll disallow comments from now onwards cz so many random spammers come disturb my blog & leave links which will bring you nowhere. ish! pollute my nice & friendly blog!!

ohayo.

2010-07-22T05:08:00.004+08:00

alright.

this is the second night.
should I call this alert/disturbed/confused/excited?

I know great change is coming my way.
I just hope I'm prepared... or at least semi-ready.

some said I'm over-reacting.
Yes I am super allergic.
I admit.

Sometimes when confirmation is luxury
we just have to go with the flow.

I don't understand my increasing heart rate
I couldn't stop the butterflies in my stomach

I need STRONG sedative drugs.

I am not sick.
I am not depressed.
I am just...

It's a positive thing. don't worry.

Are you ready?

2010-07-22T02:03:00.006+08:00

A great storm is on its way
Small splashes are accumulating into huge waves
they might destroy & drown you

So get your surf board
ride the wave
prepare to go to greater heights

For He is the King of the rising ocean
we will soar with Him above the storms

Be still
for I know that You are God.

p/s: those are Gucci shades xD

dream job

2010-07-15T03:31:00.004+08:00

for details and better view click here

A chance for you to ditch your 9-5 job and pursue your DREAM JOB!

but you only can choose 3 from the above 15 to kick start your dream-catcher journey.

I think my choice would be:
1) Travel Writer
2) Photo Journalist
2) Wedding Planner

What's yours?

Another one.

2010-07-14T02:38:00.002+08:00

不知何故睡不着在FB漫游。
忽然一个Youth Club的旧成员传来一则信息。
被吓一跳，皆因平时都会把Chatroom调Offline, 要不是py小姐说要我On我都不会收到这则可能令我更加睡不着的信息。

LY: 你记得高龙吗？
Me:记得，怎么了？

通常，被人家这样一问；不是极好的消息，就是极坏。
但，经历了两次这种事情，我的心一沉...

LY: 他走了。

高龙，
我们认识应该是在Youth Club刚成立的时候。
你很害羞，很文静。
认识久了就开始跟我们废话连篇...
已经很久没见到你了，偶尔教会大节日你会出现...
还记得你每次远远地叫“宁恩姐~~~子和哥~~~”

高龙... 宁恩姐一定会记得你。
我知道你在地上曾经不快乐，对不起没有给予你安慰。
你可能觉得自己的存在没有价值，但你其实曾经带给许多人快乐。
天堂是没有眼泪的地方，在天父的怀抱安息吧。
我们天堂见。

tough.

2010-07-09T00:10:00.000+08:00

Ger-Arg 4-0

2010-07-04T01:40:00.000+08:00

FIFA this year is so unpredictable.
HAHAHA~~

we can't have the same jersey.

2010-07-03T00:55:00.002+08:00

Radical.

2010-07-02T03:20:00.003+08:00

There's once we met up with a friend telling us his struggles in relationship.
He mentioned that he just want to be "neutral", he doesn't want to be too serious,
he wants her to feel that she has all the free will and comfort in playing around with him & the other guy. He is not letting go but not pulling back..
Beating around the bush, ups & downs, twist & turn...
(In fact, we all grew tired listening to his whining :p)

Then suddenly he popped a question:
"So what is your opinion, Jo?"

"My friend, you gotta know that I am a VERY RADICAL person."
I love his answer.
...........................................................................................................................

Do not be afraid to be a radical person.

The majority is afraid to take a stand.
They do not want to choose side.
They want to stay in between.
Maybe it's a safe area. Zero risk, zero miracles.

It's either black or white, it is not okay to be grey.

Don't you feel tired standing on the fence?

JUMP! CHOOSE! MAKE A STAND!

Don't just give a spark, set up a FIRE!!

Don't just take a step, go ALL OUT!!

Don't just work on your dream, FIGHT for it!!

Don't just be passionate, go CRAZY for what you believe in!

Some of you might freak out reading this. My sincere apologies. We are preparing to go into deep waters, the unknown, where MIRACLES are.

Selah.

2010-07-01T17:55:00.006+08:00

In one service during A4J Conference, Ps Philip shared about "Faith = Selah"

Selah simply means pause/rest in musical terms. Faith spells R.E.S.T.

You know, some of us have great expectations attending revival conferences like this. We are waiting for dynamic speakers to bring forth some POWERFUL, LOUD, FAITH-FILLED messages that will stir us up, pump up our faith and motivate us to do more!

Likewise, as a typical Church leader, I cleaned my ears and prepared my spirit to receive the powerful anointing/divine intervention/fire of revival...yadada. you mention it.

But

Yes, God gave me a lot of BUTs recently.

We saw Ps Philip, pulling out a PILLOW, from the hotel by the way, from his bag.

Lay it flat on the stage, and asked Ps Jonathan, his poor interpreter, to lie beside him on the pillow.

He said:

"Faith is not about pumping hard on your believe. Faith is not pushing yourself too hard to be an acceptable Christian."

Faith is rest.

Faith is being able to rest in your problems.

You are able to cast it all to God, knowing He will provide and take care of the things which you cannot see.

Then he started to sing (still lying down with his pillow)

” I wait on God to bring to pass,

all He has promised me.

And as I wait,

I rest in faith in what I cannot see.

For in His way He will provide,

at just the perfect time,

everything that’s good and right

For in His way He will provide,

to bless this life of mine.”

Tears...coming from every single cell of my being, overwhelmed me.

Some people around me were laughing at his act.

But I deeply felt what God is trying to tell me.

Ps Philip pastors 70 churches with over 40,000 members. He is radical and that brings a lot of threat to him.

But he says: "My 2nd most powerful spiritual weapon (His bible being his 1st), is....my pillow!"

The song he sang, is his all time favorite lullaby. He sings himself to sleep. He put all his problems & worries outside. His bedroom is his secret place, his intimate sanctuary where God's peace surrounds.

You are no hero if you can defeat thousand men & move mountains.

A true courageous person, a real strong man, is one who knows how to let go, and let God.

My tears literally flow throughout the service. Many times I trained myself to be a tough girl.

I am a tough girl in my family because I bear the responsibility of their salvation.

I am a tough girl in the office as I run all the tasks and make sure everything is on time.

I am a tough leader in church because I have members to take care off.

That day, God just want me to be...me.

His little girl, who is soft & fragile, knows no evil, knows no responsibility & obligation.

He just want me to dwell in His presence, knowing that He loves me more than anyone else, and knowing that I love Him too, as my Big Daddy, who can make all things right, who will carry me through.

There are times to strive, there are also times of rest.

If you feel weary, defeated, disappointed...

Let's not try to get angry at yourself being weak & useless. Let's not try to motivate yourself by pumping hard on your decreasing faith.

You deserve a good rest.

Let our Heavenly Father renew your strength and tell you that He will bring to pass, all He has promised you.

selah.

Pik Chek.

2010-07-01T00:21:00.006+08:00

"If I fail to come out with the script this Sunday, you can go ahead and kill me."

WHY ON EARTH I MADE SUCH PROMISE????!!

Me: Dear Mr. Director...spare my life please T_______T

Director: "You better go choose a nice picture for your tombstone."

ML: "Where's the flyer design?"

Me: "Ok ok... This Sunday!"

ML: "You said that LAST week."

Me: " Oops I did it again."

......................................................................

No... everything is so behind time.
Pull me out of this shit...SOMEONE!!

Of all nights

2010-06-29T03:38:00.005+08:00

A long post-Deleted.

I will not proclaim negativity in my life!
and of course not to my dear friends who might read them.

The title remained though...

Of all nights,

Why tonight when I need to wake up at 8am tomorrow???

Insomnia attack @@

mush talk

2010-06-28T02:03:00.001+08:00

abandoned my blog for some time.
a new header & background.
CLEAN.

When World Cup calls your name!

2010-06-28T00:32:00.003+08:00

"I've booked a table for 8 tonight 10pm Germany vs England."
Being a football dummy, this was my first time watching a match with the fans.

"I'm supporting England so you must support Germany!"
So I accidentally supported a winning team.

oo yea. it feels good.

p/s: I was sms-ing my dad while watching the match.
me: Germany-1
Dad: Nearly 2!
me: 2 NOW! HAHA!
....
me: Woohoo! 4-1! Unexpected!
Dad: Woohoo! 4-1! EXPECTED!

such a nice bonding with dad :)

zai jian xiao hong.

2010-06-09T18:45:00.004+08:00

I tend to have emotional attachment to non-living objects.

I gave my car away today. Actually it's my brother's car but I am the one who is driving it most of the time :p
He is the first car I drove after getting my P license. Little but strong.

I knew he will be traded in for a new car last week.
Not until yesterday when the car dealer called, I'm still cool about the whole thing.

So yesterday I drove him out til late night.
Then I realized I need to clear out my things before handing him over.
Dug out so many rubbish, coins, parking tickets etc...
then I realized I have been ill-treating him for quite some time :p

The car was emptied, all car stickers removed..
Suddenly he looked so lonely... covering in dust. empty.

09.06.2010, 4pm - I handed the keys to my brother and he will do the "giving away" part.

I miss him already.
Thanks for being a shelter, on sunny or rainy days.
Thanks for giving rides to my family, friends, church members & maybe strangers.
Thanks for bringing me places.

You know,
so many people feel sad when they knew about your leave.
You have been a blessing to all of us.
You served us well, little red warrior!

I love you Little Red.
Our family loves you too.

Farewell. Hope to see you around, this time with a better owner.

T_______T

I'm lovin' It.

2010-05-31T23:47:00.004+08:00

Vanilla Twilight by Owl City.

I was hooked since I first heard him. I always wonder why are his songs so unique.
Then I realized...
Ah, his perfect pronunciation.

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
Till I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because when I think of you
I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again
And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here

and Vanilla Twilight just sounds so cute.

plain vain.

2010-05-26T04:04:00.002+08:00

Dear Max
I just want to let you know I'm so proud to be your owner.
my first step towards a pro.
ok...maybe my first step of million billion zillion steps towards being a pro.

p/s: Ming, I think Max suits him best. Classy yet rugged feel. Thanks for the suggestion :p

Zibabooom~~

2010-05-25T14:06:00.003+08:00

一星期被炸两次...

等着来，以后我炸你们够够力！

p/s: 又回到office，愿神带领祝福今天的工作效率与果效！
weeee~~~

7Days.

2010-05-24T02:45:00.003+08:00

让我记得这一份揪心，这一份感动。
愿上帝的信息，酝酿在剧本里。
愿救恩的大能，彰显于全地。

圣诞节制作---敬请期待。

strawberry dip

2010-05-05T02:09:00.002+08:00

虽然等下会被吃，
我选择活在当下。

人生苦短七八十年，
能有片刻活出自己，值得用一生去争取。

inspiration

2010-04-27T03:32:00.003+08:00

Mom once threw me a question:
"You never like to read books,
how come you can still write with such flow?"

Mom, I don't read books, I read blogs.

Ice Kacang Puppy Love

2010-04-27T02:44:00.003+08:00

“你是汹涌的海浪，我是疲惫的沙滩...”

很不错一下的大马制作。

角色个性丰富，每个演员都好棒！李心洁不愧是影后。
一句对白都没有的梁静茹给人一种像心理变态的色女感觉。

大佬身边的小混混都一肥一瘦，而且都长一副蠢样...。

剧中对白说，初恋像在大热天的红豆冰，吃进口里冰得牙齿都痛，还来不及尝到滋味，就融化了。

初恋就是那种你喜欢我，我喜欢他，他喜欢你的往事。
那一句“我喜欢你”还来不及说，
就看见你牵了别人的手。

在冲凉房哭个死去活来，明天就乖乖变成帮你们传情的好朋友。
那一句“我喜欢你”就成了只有自己知道的秘密。

幼儿园的时候，喜欢的人就是坐在旁边的那个。
小学的时候，就是那个一起坐巴士那个。
中学的时候，就是做在后面的那个。

看来近水楼台先得月不是假的。

哦，说到幼儿园那个，有一天看到他不知何故哭到满桌子眼泪，
5岁的我心想：我怎么会喜欢这种哭包？？
明天就去喜欢对面那个liao.

可爱啦。:)

Welcome mushB.

2010-04-27T01:13:00.002+08:00

As per title.

love life

2010-04-23T02:01:00.003+08:00

“只要你热爱自己的生命，你就不会做出伤害自己的事情。”

在事情发生后，很多人都会有很多问号..

为什么她要这么做？
是谁让她选择走向绝路？
我们要如何面对这样的噩耗？
这种悲剧到底要发生到什么时候？
到底什么力量能够阻止这一切？

类似的悲剧，发生在我生命的周遭，第二次。
我只有一个问题...
上帝，我能为还活着的人做什么？

不想在报章上看到熟悉的脸孔，
不想我身边的人的微笑，成为一个永在怀念中的回忆。

我要热爱我的生命。
我永远都不要放弃。

这个世界上，还有许多人不舍得放弃你，你知道吗？

看到好多人到你的FB留言，我呆着许久，不知道要讲什么。可能我们已经好多年没有面对面说话了。
但我还记得你那响亮又娇气的声音...
最后，写下了
" Shyn Lyn... T-T"

陈欣宁，永在怀念中。

我流泪，
我在天堂，可能也看不到他们...

Red bomb

2010-04-21T00:58:00.003+08:00

So many of my friends are getting married.
So many of them are younger than me.
So many of them decided in a hurry.
So many of them were not careful.

So is this a trend or what?

在台湾的某一天，

2010-04-13T01:39:00.003+08:00

一群安第的闽南语对话：

现在的少年人，什么事情都是“欢喜嘎做”...
那里像我人的年代？
真的不象话...

人做在高铁内，不能换位子，只好拉起冷帽装睡。

欧巴桑，可不可以顾及坐在旁边的我，这个少年人。

年轻人对喜欢的东西的那份坚持，是长辈眼中的叛逆。
年轻人对热衷的事情的那股冲动，是长辈眼中的鲁莽。
年轻人为追求梦想的不顾一切，是长辈眼中的不孝。

“新酒，要装在新的皮袋里”
旧皮袋伸缩性减低，新酒到进去，皮袋不单只裂开，新酒也流失了。

年轻人的想法，意念，创意，潜力，是无极限的！
要是硬把这些东西让老旧的思想去限制，可能造成两败俱伤的局面。

长辈常常把“像当年，我怎样怎样。。。” “以前我根本不敢怎样怎样。。。”挂在嘴边。
随着时代变迁，很多事情已经不能再去忆当年了。
不要说我们父母的时代，现在比我年轻个五六年，想法已经一个天一个地！
为什么现在的小孩叛逆期越来越早，也越来越长？（我...到底有没有叛逆过啊？|||）

世界上好多成就大事的伟人，都曾经是叛逆，冲动又不孝。

其实，长辈们口出此言，或多或少都是因为年轻人缺乏智慧地坚持，冲动及不顾一切...

如果你还有权利选择做自己认为对的事，别想太多了吧。

写了这一篇，好像觉得自己开始叛逆。。。hehe.

哇，四月了...

2010-04-06T01:29:00.004+08:00

看到很多在感叹光阴飞逝的post，皆因2010年已经过了四分之一。
好久没有blog,但我还是很关心别人在写什么，所以你们不能学我哦！不然上网就不爽liao。
做么这么夜？喝了咖啡+FB上载照片+一大堆工作还没做完+明天可以迟上班lo...
废话la..删掉以上原因我还是这么夜的lar.hehe.

读到这边，就知道这篇是蛮废话的一篇。

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酱，来update一下。

今年的头四分之一就出了两次国，很爽一下。
唯一遗憾是没有一部大大架的相机拍一些美美的照片。
这个愿望等了很久都没有实现...

好姐妹结婚了。帮他们忙完一转，自己也感染待嫁的幸福。
屁啦，即使没被感染都很想嫁好不好。我知道啦，最近比较克制liao :p

讲一下台湾。
翻开日历，差不多三月的一半都label "TAIWAN"。一去去了11天。
从一百万分之不想去，到前五天差点得忧郁症，到后来五天玩得很开心，到归国后对那里念念不忘...感情复杂到...
一言难尽lar总之。有空有闲才交待。
奇怪是旅行回来瘦掉一点。
p/s:台湾女生怎么说话都要这么爹生爹气啊？每句话后面都“哦哦哦” =.= 粉口爱哦~
pp/s: 刚到时很不习惯兑换率，在酒店拿熨斗时听到deposit要500块，我跟妈妈“HARRR???”到很大声...

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回来后就是复活节庆典，无端端要代替演出一角。
星期四参与彩排，星期六就上阵。
庆幸那一角是本人擅长的“疯婆子”，算一切顺利。
演出后个人给的评语不知道要用什么心情面对。
“哇，你演的好像哦！根本不像在演！”
都跟你们讲我是演技派的咯。
“你演得这么自然，我看是露出本性，做回你自己罢了！”
.......

他人说我太疯癫，我说他人看不清。

说道复活节戏剧制作不能不提一下许莉敏。
剧本是她写的，故事是n年前在大学的食堂她说过给我听的。
本来想提给导演参考参考，怎知一提就录用了。从此发掘了这名潜能非凡的编剧+演员！
我是不是你的伯乐？:p
写一篇长达1小时的舞台剧真的不容易，皆因叫我写30分钟的戏就要我的命。
内容还可以温馨搞笑又感动，许莉敏一定是用九条命来写的！
真的很突破，很高兴你能把上帝赐的恩赐发挥出来。
37人接受耶稣，这就是你付出得来最大的奖赏。

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四月liao,看来没有什么假期了，工作堆了一山高，不知道从何下手做。
其实我不是要放任，只是想自由。

....................................................................

出走一次，看看别人所做的比自己多，别人成就的比自己伟大。
觉得自己渺小，心小，胆小。
所谓“时间，空间，人与人之间”是一门难学的功课。

身边的人事物都开始起了变化，
看来一股巨浪将至。复兴要从疯狂开始。
看来我不顾一切的时候将到。

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈~~~

粉兴奋一下哦~~~ （粉口爱的口音）

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hm...还有什么可以写咧？

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-为什么王力宏会这么帅啊？
-迷上太空小宝宝（想为他找个航空母舰）
-公司为什么不可以上FB??
-30号要拍婚纱照（朋友的啦），减肥中。
-五月要去宣教~
-还是想回澳洲。

bai.

For B.

2010-03-12T15:11:00.004+08:00

I just found out that one of my childhood friend was gone.
He was drowned to death during a trip to the beaches in Terengganu.
His mom is my mom's good friend, and now my mom is rushing to see if she's ok.

He was a very bright boy.
I think he just graduated as a medical doctor not long ago.
He's the only son.

His mom must be heartbroken.

RIP Ah Ben gor gor.

You know you are no longer a little girl...

2010-02-25T02:22:00.005+08:00

when mommy don't pay for your new clothes.
when daddy don't pay for the family meal.
when your paycheck comes together with tax forms and bills.

hm...I do miss those times when I saved up hard to buy my first tamagotchi.

baby tamagotchi pet looks something like this...if im not mistaken.

sigh.
24.

A prayer for you.

2010-02-12T01:02:00.004+08:00

Oh my God...
What happen to all of you? :(

It kind of pricked me deep when I read about you guys...

I know it's really annoying hearing someone senior saying:
"Ohh... I've been through what you are going through...
Everything will be fine...
You are just being too sensitive.
Young people are always lost...
Relax....yadadadahhh..."

Sometimes, this "been there, done that" attitude is sh*t.

I really don't know what I can do.
And, to some extend, I feel some of your struggles too.

Dear Father,
I know I couldn't love them as much as You do,
but I know You will take care of them just like those times You have brought me through.
I love you guys, and please love yourself and each other as God has first loved you.

Be strong! I am still learning, but we will eventually get there!
By His power of love.

开始和结尾都不联合，因为写着写着离了题。

2010-02-07T03:04:00.004+08:00

我知道我看戏总是比人慢...而且慢很多。
粗俗也要讲一句：这一幕真的西北感动。

如前篇，最近常梦见澳洲。
回到马来西亚，热的冒汗的夜晚开始想念那张淡黄色的厚棉被。
说真的，冬天的夜晚冷得要人命，比起隔壁室友的那张深蓝色超级无敌厚的“暖炉”被，我简直像盖着一层纱布入眠。
可是，在离乡背井，独自想家的夜晚，它是我唯一的温暖。
初时真的搞不懂离开将近一年半后的今天，突然想起那个遥远的国家。
身边的朋友或许知道，刚归国的我是千方百计地想把自己弄回去...天天守着亚航网站，看机票价钱紧张地像看美股。
时间久了，热忱灭了，当初到处预告“I will be back"的大喇叭也尴尬地收起来了。
当你一直犹豫不决的时候，别人就会替你做决定。
愣在一边太久，一清醒时才发现...路铺好了，鞋子也替自己穿上了，终点拟定了。
这一年半，就这样卖给了现实。
成语说：一年半载。多则一年，少则半年。都过去了...

............

友人说：我不像你，一毕业就就业。是我贪玩，还想放荡一年半载...
我说：你以为我想的阿？我够想去玩咯...只是现实和责任太多。
友人：所以我很敬佩你。

屁啦。
（我知道这个友人会读我的部落格，这句粗俗的话纯粹为了表达我心中的极之无奈必折，并不是针对你:p)

说真的我并不敬佩这种人。我最多只能对他说：兄弟，我明白你的感受。

............

那天在小组，组员情绪激动地说着自己遇到的困境。
其实我早前已听说，只是这位姐妹每每在道出问题后，还来不及安慰，就很快地告诉别人自己其实还好，感谢神...
那天她一轮嘴地说了许多的...我看着她，突然打断问了一句：你是不是很不快乐？
“我很不快乐...”泪水如泉涌。
第一次，她坦诚面对自己的感受。
在为她祷告的时候，我也悄悄对上帝说：我也不是很快乐。

...........

近来生活开始越来越忙碌。
我很努力地用正面的角度去看待每一件事。
我开始学习敞开心，抛开先入为主的思想，大力拥抱眼前的一切。
我很羡慕身边的他，即使陷入什么境况，他都能对生命抱着“我一定能做到”的心态。
其实自怜自哀是很悲的事情，很讨厌面子书上那些消极又自怜又无奈又毫无盼望的留言。
每个人都有自己的挣扎，不需要把自己的软弱到处宣扬。
所以我就选择写在这种没什么人看，看了也没什么人记得，记得也没什么人讲的地方。
我很聪明哩？

.............

我只是想说...
不要剥夺我爱你的快乐。

...............

原谅我，纳闷太久会胸口郁闷，郁闷太久可能引发心血管疾病。

虽然一切皆虚空，都捕风，传道人依然在最后一章告诉人是有盼望的。

赠宁恩：
万事互相效力，叫爱神的人得益处。
你是有福的。

众人皆知我走的是华丽的低调路线，不需留言，见面不需提起。偶尔在祷告中记念我就可以了。
哇噻!够力串！呵呵~

Memories.

2010-02-06T02:41:00.003+08:00

I woke up in my bed..covered in a yellow quilt blanket. The weather was very cold...
As usual I snuggled with my little pillow, refused to rise...
Then I saw her in a thick blue blanket, all covered up but I know she's ignoring her snoozing alarm too.
We were both waiting for each other to initiate the "rise & shine" routine... and I am always the one who gave up.
Slipped in my blue slippers, picked up my toiletries and washed myself up with streams of freezing cold water.
Went back to the room, she's still in her bed and the house was still quiet.
Pulled myself to the kitchen, toasted some bread taken from the freezer.
Made myself a bowl of cereals soaked in organic soy milk.
Munched down my breakie in front of the new TV...and the new rug.
She's finally up when I was washing up the plates, and sometimes, he'll be awake and coming down from the stairs, bringing his laptop with him for sure.
He'll plug in his laptop and Planetshakers will be playing from it in no time.
Pan was heated, pancake with honey was serve.
She'll make her cup of Milo of course.
We'll be sitting around the dining table, telling each other about our dreams last night.

Ming, Ryan... I miss 18 Marshall Av, Clayton, Melbourne Victoria.

Jo23ph

2010-02-04T01:58:00.003+08:00

"Do guys believe in sweet 16? Happy Birthday...and have a sweet 16 :)"
This was my first birthday wish to you, when you were 16.

You are 23 now.
8 years down the road, I am truly blessed.
Love you.

Today.

2010-02-02T13:36:00.002+08:00

I live today.
and it's all that matters.

27th Jan 2010

2010-01-27T12:32:00.001+08:00

I look to the future because that's where I'm going to spend the rest of my life.
- George Burns

Happy New Year 2

2010-01-15T12:01:00.001+08:00

By Your wounds, I have been healed.

2010 - I want to be healthy.

Amen.

Happy New Year.

2010-01-13T02:55:00.003+08:00

It's the 13th day of the new year.
Don't ask me what are my new year plans cz I don't have time to even think of any.
I'm completing whatever task that comes to me first. huhu :p

I have a calender for church activities
I have a calender for company activities
I have a calender for friends' bdays & social activities

Now I just want a calender for holidays.

It's the beginning of the year..but it feels like 2009 bring forward.

Note to self:
TEAY NING ANN please go tidy up your room! You are still keeping your YEAR 2 Sem 1 notes on your table!!
The new year jz made u 24. So grow up!

excited.

2009-12-24T05:05:00.000+08:00

and tired.

dumbadidumdum~~

23

2009-12-07T19:10:00.003+08:00

今年的生日不知不觉过了。

好友的一片没有蜡烛的蛋糕，
家人特地不睡觉等12点替我庆生，
小组组员一起团结祷告，
男友从早到晚陪我一起工作，
教会少年人送的小礼物，
虽然没有特别的惊喜，但每一个举动都让我想流泪。

看来踏入人生的第24年，开始学会享受平凡的感动，细水长流的幸福。

谢谢你。
谢谢你们。

I Have A Date with Christmas

2009-11-09T01:39:00.004+08:00

一部充满复古风，轻松搞笑，温馨感人，写实得来，又充满奇迹的作品。
继“这一个，不能少”的佳作，又一部由新生代导演，资深制作人及强劲演员班底泡制的复古风歌舞剧。

Bring you a glimpse of the old time, full of fun & laughter, warm & tears. We show you the reality, yet surround by miracles. After a great production "This, I cannot live without", another awesome production by PCS2.

“我和圣诞有个约会”灵感来自“我和春天有个约会”港剧，您将会看到鬼马的角色，熟悉的歌曲，复古的舞蹈。PCS2制作组由服装造型到音乐舞蹈都交足诚意！

"I Have a Date with Christmas" is inspired by famous HK movie "I Have a Date with Spring". Be certain to see cheeky characters, familiar songs and dances of the olden days. From costumes and settings to music and dance choreography, PCS2 Production Team gives you our very best!

这个圣诞，让您和您的家人朋友回到80年代，享受一场别开生面的演出！
This Christmas, let you and you family & friends indulge in this special performance!

歌舞剧公演 2 场！This musical is showing for 2 DAYS!

20.12.09 (星期日 Sun) 10:00am (自助午餐 Buffet lunch)

25.12.09 (星期五 Fri) 7:30pm (6pm 自助晚餐 Buffet dinner)

地点 Venue: PCS2 (see photo for map)

*凭票入场，请致电索票（免费）。 603-78475181
please call for ticket reservation (for free)

Stay tune for production trailer!

p/s: Dear PCS2 members, feel free to copy this blog to share on your blog :) For love, for the Kingdom.

Today you shared with me about life.

2009-11-09T00:57:00.000+08:00

"In everything you do, any decisions you ought to make, think about its eternal value."

If we live a life full of earthly riches, fulfilling our worldly hungers, yet without any eternal value, are we truly happy?

You told me about Joseph in the Bible. He waited 13 years for his dream to come true yet everything he did along the waiting, were all wholly depended on God. He endured everything because he knew they were meant for an eternal purpose, of great eternal value.

I said, to live a life full of eternal values, first we need to make sacrifices. Sacrifice a little, maybe a lot.

You agreed, but that's also the reason why so many people are still in reluctant to turn their eyes upon things of eternal value.

We both knew, our future will only be meaningful, if we step into the eternal lifestyle. Wholeheartedly.

We pondered over a cup of bubble tea in a noisy cafe. But I know God is talking to our hearts.

Just that this time, we both listened.

空洞。

2009-10-31T03:15:00.003+08:00

最近创作有个坏习惯，就是把脑袋里的第一个念头放进去。
不能代表我的心情，免得有人误会我又搞自闭...

这几晚泡的连续剧，
让我这颗脚踏实地，乖乖认命的心激动了又悸动。

生命就是梦想的旅程，完成了一个梦想，再去追下一个。

“你打算到哪一间大学修硕士？看看澳洲有没有机会？”

“我...要是想修一些另外的课程..." （小声）

"哦？比如说？“

“像...arts之类...” （很小声）

“以后要干嘛？能有什么帮助？对我们学院能怎样？”

“没有啦...兴趣而已...想想而已...哈哈...哈...” (非常小声）

“如果没有一个人替我分担，我怎么可能再去打拼？好多计划要完成，你们都靠这份家业吃饭...
(下删一千五百零八十二个字）

“好...我只是说说而已。”

扪心自问，我连把梦说出来的勇气都没有。
平常，我连说说都不敢，每次话到嘴边眼泪先掉。这次算是一个大跃进。
活了二十二年十个月又二十五天，真的很想叛逆一下。

有谁知道，这永远是我心中最脆弱的一块？
看着一幕幕的画面，听着一句句的对白，
眼泪一行行地在掉。

人家太入戏，感情太泛滥啦。

还是，你想找戏里的人来陪你哭？

我说

2009-10-28T05:22:00.005+08:00

值得去追求的事情
喜欢不够，要热爱，要疯狂。
年轻的岁月，我要挥霍于追梦。

-恩字

Coffee thoughts.

2009-10-13T01:56:00.010+08:00

Coffee Ritual@PJ Section 14
"Everything you order will taste very good."
Mom claimed.

You'll love the ambiance. Nice match of colors.

Starter: Mushroom Soup & Bun
Very well done soup! Not too creamy with little chunks of fresh mushrooms.
Wholemeal bun served warm with SCS butter~ Heaven :)

Drinks: Caffe Latte for me & Peppermint Tea for mom.
I'm a Latte fan. I love it.

Caesar's Salad
Served with homemade salad dressing, lightly salted bread chunks, pickle olives and a generous amount of black pepper chicken slices!
like no other.

Black Pepper Chicken Sandwich
Bread spread with Italian herbs flavored olive oil...which makes all the difference.

Sweet Crepe with Berkeley's Farm Ice Cream
Crispy on the edges, the ice cream was awesome.
Creamy smooth texture and not too sweet.

Plus point: they serve single origin coffee brewed with siphon pot.
Slow but worth your wait.

I did not try it, maybe next time. Coffee anyone?

Maybe some of you knew, I have this little fancy of opening a coffee shop of my own.
I would love to brew quality coffees and serve delicious pastries and cakes.
Having close friends over for hi-tea, organize tea parties at my very own cafe.
I'll put some books for reading, maybe paint some pictures.

I know people need places like this, hiding away from a busy schedule and just sit back and rest.
Rest, is a deep word.
Some people lie down, but don't sleep.
Some people keep quiet, but have no inner peace.
Come in and indulge in some quality time alone.
Alone with your thoughts, your feelings, your emotions, your self.

It will be a nice and cosy place, I believe. :)

p/s: about the statement of my mom- I agree, like totally. Must try.

To JC.

2009-09-27T02:47:00.008+08:00

If God appears before you now, what will you say to Him?

I guess mine will be...
I'm sorry.

and I'll kneel down and cry.

What have I done for Him as His servant?
How much have I loved Him as His child?

Sometimes, I felt like Peter.
"You know I love You."
Although I seemed not.

All my life, I would want to glorify Your name.
Choosing to follow You, is the boldest thing I've done in my entire life.
No regrets... but thanksgiving.

I live a contented life. It seems like I'm in abundance.
But there's a big hole inside of me... only You can satisfy.
What good it is, if I gain the whole world...but lose my soul?

What good it is, if I live up to everyone's expectations...but lose Yours?

I spent my whole life searching for my true identity, my calling, my destiny...
Then I realized, I can only find myself... in You.

I just want to be in Your arms...have a good sleep, and wake up to see Your smile.

PS rox.

2009-09-26T16:46:00.002+08:00

hm... saved some $$ :)

Updates

2009-09-10T02:13:00.004+08:00

I've always come across this kind of "updates" blogs, so let's make this my first one.
Last Updated: 10.9.09

Uni
Waiting for my deposit refund.

Work
Yea I've started working.
Very flexible working hours... too flexible. I never knw when is the right time to go home =.="
I see my boss everyday, almost every moment. So basically I have to be every ready to switch between off-job and on-job modes.
My boss has high expectations on me so it's kinda stressed working with her.
But we can both switch off our laptops at 6pm and rush down for the last episode of "Six Children".
No public holidays in my dictionary...but I can go on a holiday anytime, ofcz with my boss.
Kinda confused, but that's my job.

Church
iCampus officially launched.
Guess I'll have to play the keyboard for the rest of the months this year.
Christmas drama script is ready!
Dream Factory interview next week.

Personal
I am on liver detox & gallstone flush program with slimming enhancement.
Working on a 1year secret plan... *hehe*
Started reading "Through the Bible Through the Year"
Still praying for my Canon EOS 500D.

Many unchecked items on my to-do-list.
Still wondering why didn't I go on a holiday for the 2 months break.
Still struggling to correct my sleeping pattern.

Sometimes I think that my life is crap... but who's life isn't?
Move on move on!

oh...2:36am, CRAP.

Graduated.

2009-09-10T01:00:00.000+08:00

I know I have been lazy in blogging nowadays. I shall pick up the momentum again.
Well, my purpose of writing blogs is to make a record of important events in life.
and I can see that I have not been fulfilling it :p
Well, blame facebook.
Seriously, It's much more convenient.

3 years passed in a blink of an eye.
University life is officially, ended.

I felt grieve, surrendering my student ID in the office today.

Sometimes, I just want to stay as a little girl.
always.

No matter how reluctant I am to let go of all these... I am already moving on, unconsciously.

Then I realized, that's life.Nevertheless, I'm still proud of what I've accomplished so far.
All glory to God.

2006
I just can't believe that the girl eating Rocky in lectures...
is now graduated.

5.9.2009
she still loves Rocky though.

Babies in Heaven.

2009-09-09T01:43:00.006+08:00

heard a sad news.
Reminds me of this book. "JESSE found in heaven"

If a baby died in the mother's womb... where will he/she be?

Heard this touching story from Ps Christine Pringle during Asia Conference last year.
Below are quoted from CityNews .

" Chris shared deeply about dealing with the loss of an infant, a small child through miscarriage, termination or still birth. Her own personal experience was when she was a young woman, barely 20, pregnant with her first child. Chris (and her husband Phil Pringle) ran a home group for youth in their own home at the time. She was about 15 weeks pregnant when she found herself bleeding one day, a day of her home group. Before the youth group arrived at her house, Chris decided to head home and rest.

As a young Christian, she thought only good things happened to Christians, so she did not think the bleeding was anything serious. But the bleeding got worse, and “I still remember, the youth were singing praises in the next room, and I was in my bedroom, bleeding, losing my baby.” Chris drew no comfort from people telling her “Maybe it is for the best” or “It is going to be all right”. But peace and assurance came upon her when someone told her, “I believe that God is flushing out your body of all the drugs,” in reference to her previous lifestyle before she came to the Lord.

Many, many years later, a friend showed Chris a video of a vision of heaven. After watching the video, she went into her room. There she heard praise and worship, and felt two arms envelope her. Up to that point, she had not grieved for her lost child, but she started crying now. It was as though she was in this incredible bubble where she could just weep and everything was still. She received a vision of a tall, handsome young man with longish hair — and the Lord told her it was her son, Jesse. Heaven, shared Chris, that’s where the babies go when they are lost on Earth. They are rescued by angels and brought into Heaven, where they grow. When she saw Jesse, he was 23 - exactly the age he would be if he had lived. "

There's this poem Ps Christine wrote to Jesse.

During her sharing session, I wept like a baby. Maybe not many of you know... I am suppose to have an elder sister. My mom had a miscarriage after being stung by a bee.
But now I know I will be seeing her in Heaven one day. She must be very beautiful.

Dear M&A, I felt so sorry for your baby. I can't control my tears when I heard the news.
As much as we grieve, we ought to know that little baby is in our Heavenly Father's safe arms. Angels are protecting little baby and we will see him/her one day.

Yes that's for sure.

Updated: Her name is Cassie Ng.

2009-08-28T02:45:00.003+08:00

我知道我不是一个人。

最近就是预了写一些你们看不明白的东西。
八月创下blogging最少纪录！
证明我真的没有什么想法可以share.

但此时此刻，只想记下这份感动。
其实，你们也很在乎。
你们也很珍惜。

我的心情真的很难形容，如果我现在站在你面前，我想我会握着你得手，久久说不出话来吧。
谢谢你们。

我敢保证，我们老爸已经泪流满面了吧！

I am tired.

2009-08-28T01:53:00.000+08:00

...

yea...

wow.

2009-08-20T18:08:00.001+08:00

quoted from azharmukadam (youtube)

This is the world's most costly Advertisement
and the winner of this year's best Ad of the world.

It took 606 takes and re-takes to make this commercial and the total cost was $ 6.2 million for this 90 second commercial. You could probably make a movie for that kind of money!

Everything is real with no graphics used and still look at the precision. The team that made this commercial won many awards.

Wow...I thought it was all 3D visuals...

I believe in miracles

2009-08-03T18:37:00.002+08:00

when you start to believe
miracles happen.

Faith is a journey
you endure all difficulties, barriers & disappointments
because your eyes are fixed upon what you believe in.

Something's gonna change
when you really start to believe.

rip

2009-08-01T02:47:00.002+08:00

“一粒麦子不落在地里死了，仍旧是一粒；若是死了，就结出许多子粒来。” 约翰福音12：24

今晚好沉重，惋惜一个年轻的生命。

Connie, 你应该见到天父了吧。
在他那里有永恒的安息，天国见。