This morning

he suddenly brought up the topic of family planning over breakfast. 

"I think we are ready for a baby in 2014."

"Oh! That's nice. When exactly in 2014?"

He had a long thought.......

"Better after World Cup season...please..."

he's still very much a boy. 

:)

Hope of all hearts

Listening to this song tonight moved me, moved me so much that I surrendered and cried.
When Pastor Russell speaks towards the end of the song,
God brought me 4 years back, to Melbourne, to Planetshakers City Church.
To where my spirit was at its ultimate brokenness.
To where my life was at its total mess, hopeless, at its deepest pit.
I literally ran away from life to Melbourne in 2008, with a deeply broken heart.

One Sunday I went to Planetshakers City Church, I was late cos I was still unfamiliar with the transportation there. The worship team was singing Deeper when I reached.
When God wants to heal you, He will do it at His timing, when you least expected.
I literally cried my way finding a seat...
"I need more of You, more of You, Jesus." the lyrics went...
When I was in my deepest brokenness, He knows that all I need is Him, Jesus alone.
God came true to me at my first step into His church... I was being comforted, healed and renewed.
And from that day, my heart cried for one thing: to experience God like never before.

Miracles happened almost everyday and I felt God everywhere, every time.
I can stay up all night worshipping God and drown in His presence.
I experienced supernatural provision financially.
I was blessed with so many great people around me.
I found a dream. I gain back my courage to live for Him.
Each day was like a new encounter with my Creator.

4 years later, one night, here I am...
God came true to me once again. I found myself in the embrace of my God...
The same God I experienced 4 years back in Melbourne...
The same God who visited me every single day when I drew near to Him.
The same God who loves me more than anyone else.
The same God who saved me from the darkess times.
The same God who called me to live for Him and Him only.

Jesus, He is the hope for all hearts.
In the darkness, in trial, my soul shall sing of His mercy and kindness.
Our offering of praise.
Our God never fails. His love never fails.

For those of you who knew Jesus,
We are so blessed, so blessed to have Jesus as our Saviour.
He is our hope no matter what you are facing, no matter how hard is life hitting you,
HE IS YOUR HOPE.

For those who don't know Jesus personally,
You shall find the answer in Jesus, the answer to all your problems, weakness, sickness, struggles.
Because He loves you, no matter who you are.
HE IS YOUR HOPE.

When life gets tough, always remember Jesus.
Plug in your earphones, and listen to this song.
A song which reminds you:
Jesus is the same, yesterday, today and forever.
His love never fails. Never.

为梦受一点伤

我要为我的梦想受伤
因为那是我曾经奋斗过的痕迹.

我要做我所爱
爱我所做.

蓄势待发这主题太棒了.
366天后我要宣告自由.
势在必行.

I know what is going to come might break me.
But that's okay.
I will be strong, to protect what I believe in.

Reminder to self:
When there seems to be no way,
God will make a way.

BELIEVE. BELIEVE. KEEP BELIEVING.

剩下的发现。

从去年9月到今天过了7个月，还有4个发现还没写...如果你们还记得的话。
不记得？自己去看： 发现#1 - #4    发现#5 - #6

发现#7
怪不得我7个月来吃不好，睡不着，原来还欠你们4个发现！！
（酱就搞定一个发现？？你很敷衍一下je!!)
不爽不要看la.. :p

发现#8
我发梦都梦见的事情快要发生了... 心情像喝了一碗bak kut teh + milo粉 + 过期yogurt...
五味参杂........................... 还会肚子痛 @@
如果你们听说什么/怀疑什么/真的知道什么，请有忍耐加上持守的美德。
谢绝媒体采访，对散播谣言者（无论属实或不属实）将保留提告的权利。
你们都知道我走的是华丽的D调路线。
谢谢。

发现#9
我真的很穷。
。
。。
。。。
。。。。
。。。。。
词穷。

（你又像酱子敷衍掉一个发现？ X@!!nk0*&^$####......）

请你保留我对你的一点点尊重... 这是一篇善良纯洁的部落格，请注重您的遺词用字。
谢谢。

钱到用时方恨少。
发现很多梦想因为没有家财万贯而被迫...放弃。
我钱包里有很多纸... 很多receipt纸...
看着漂亮的婚纱，美美的照片, 马尔代夫的沙滩...

我说我的财宝积儹在天上。(馬太福音6:19-24)

其实，我已经很满足 :)

发现#10
三个月减掉10公斤是不可能的。
白旗。

吃！


yay! 总算对你们有个交待。

我期待

我期待。

If you are interested in reading my post on my dream wedding.

well... my dream changed a bit.

but yes I am still very much anticipating :)

Be loved everyone.

Only Hope by Mandy Moore

"A Walk to Remember"

Came across this clip...and it brought me back to this movie.
I remember I read the book and cried like a baby.
Then the movie made me cry even more :p

A very touching and meaningful story... A story about 2 different lives, crossing each other's path.
There's hopes, dreams, love, regrets... there's God.
Although the story ended with a sad tone, but it's really a story telling how amazing our God is.

There's a very special part when Landon flipped through the year book and found out Jamie's ambition:

"To witness a miracle."


How many of you out there, working hard, struggling through, crying for something to happen, begging for something to change...
How about a prayer to witness a miracle?

A miracle of hope, life, love.

To the world, you may be just one person.
But to one person, you are the world.
He's our Heavenly Father.

Never give up will you?

Lay my head back down,
Lift my hands and pray
to be only Yours.

p/s: you know, I'm feeling like writing a love story, a happily ever after love story. It's how all love stories should end. :) Be loved everyone.

Hello 2011.

I have not been blogging. I just saw a total of 52 posts for the past year and it is not even half of the total for 2009. Well, at least there's one post a week on average.

Had a quick glance through what I have recorded for the past year.
Joy, tears, struggles, victories.
Ah... life :)

I actually asked myself this questions weeks ago:
What do I actually feel about everything for 2010?
My answer was: WHAT A MESS!

Well, I have been busy, unorganized, sloppy and most of the time, angry at myself.
Allow me to give myself a big hug *hugs* :)

I started off the first day of 2010 in a leaders retreat camp, got very discouraged on certain things.
Came back and got very sick... :(

Jan: Went on mission trips to Mantin & Seremban - Started to appreciate what we have in church and learn to serve others.

Mac: Onn & Jia got married. | 11 days in Taiwan - a roller coaster ride spiritually & emotionally.

Apr: Work | OK photoshoot experience | Mission trip to Kluang & Batu Pahat

May: More Work | Mission trip to Kota Bahru | En Tong & JC's wedding | 1st sharing experience in Dream Factory

June: iCampus members got baptized | A4J

July: ITEC New Intake started=a lot of work | Dream Factory Anniversary - Broke a record of 100 salvation

Aug: Mission trip to Mantin & Seremban

Sept: TODAY Camp | iCampus Mid Autumn Evangelistic Meeting

Oct: Taiwan Again

Nov: OK Wedding Banquet- 1st experience being an emcee | Hectic crazy working schedule | Crazy things happened to a family member- turned my family upside down overnight | IMPACT Camp

Dec: Mission trip to Kota Bahru | <4320> Christmas Production - 1400 attended, 135 saved.

I got deeply discouraged and madly disappointed with myself for not being a good daughter to my parents, a good staff, a good cell group leader,  a good girlfriend, a good servant of God...

I tried too hard to be "good" and eventually forgot to be "me".
IMPACT CAMP is my turning point.
There's where I started to shift my focus from myself to the Creator.
And miraculously everything just turns out alright...

I am surprise that I manage to pull myself through nearly the whole year in such a mess.
Then the beautiful story came in, Jesus was carrying me through during the toughest time.

Father, You are truly amazing.
I can tell the world with my head held high:
I am totally set free, blessed and anointed to serve my God.

2011, I welcome you with an open heart and do the ONE thing that is needful: to choose the better blessing by pleasing Your heart above all else. (Luke 10:38-42)

Quote from Peg
" This year WILL be a year of stepping into the supernatural, it WILL be a year of dreaming with God of all the impossibilities and seeing it come to past"

An EXCITING and AMAZING journey begins! 

freelance

Had dinner with a new found friend today.
Me: Oh it's almost 8pm, gotta go.
Him: Office hour is over isn't it? Where are you going?
Me: Erm...some freelance job. (It's actually rushing some design for church :p)
Him: Freelance... Haih, it's hard to earn enough nowadays..
Me: Em...oh yea.

How if I tell him that I'm doing freelance...for free.

Oh, FREElance indeed.

 But I tell you, I will be damn rich in Heaven.
My blessing is not only counted in monetary abundance, I am contented on the inside.
Nothing beats the sense of security, when I know how GREAT is my GOD.


My Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not be in want. Ps 23

to all of you out there.

He hears your cry.

Just hang on there for a little longer.

Your moment is near.

Ohayo October.

Back from Wall Street.
I don't really understand the whole movie but I enjoyed every bits of it.
I'm blessed with my lack of curiosity.
hm...ok maybe I enjoyed looking at Shia LaBeouf.

Being exposed to the real world recently...
And realized no matter how reluctant you are to face it,
There's no where to hide.
It's just a matter of time when you have to know what you have to know.

But when you get to know it,
It's not that bad after all.

A big AMEN to high income economy.
I am seeing it coming true.

Good morning October!
A blessed month~

Not related:
A note to him: you actually melt my heart with those words.
And now I'm a little freaked out :p

从此以后

所谓的大人物，就是每天不断努力的小人物。

当你看见某某成就了大事，
其实你正在努力的小事，就是某天别人口中的伟绩。
 当你听见某某拥有了世界，
其实你所追求的小梦想，就是某天别人追随的模范。

当你欣赏一个伟人，
试着去了解他卑微的开始，去探索他每天努力着的小事。
一个成功，肯定经历很多失败，只是他都胜过了。


瓶颈不是创意的终点
现实不是梦想的结局

忽然了解，
是我还不够努力。
是我还不够疯狂。

有人用了五年，有人用十年，
也有人经过了无数的十年，却还看不见曙光。

歌词说"谁会记得我的模样，谁会记得我受过的伤..."
上帝说：“我会。”
“你的每一滴眼泪我都记念。”

童话故事的开头总是“很久很久以前..."
结尾也是“从此以后..."

或许你的“很久很久以前”并不绚丽，不精彩，
但我相信，

我们都是这世界的过客，面对的也是短暂的问题。
我们要一起努力，
上帝将祝福我们的“从此以后..."

恋爱通告

此片让我有点跌眼镜...情节有少leong，但一张帅脸足以让我赦免一切~
王力宏很努力搞笑，我很努力陪笑... :p
还是帅帅地弹钢琴唱歌比较好。

“忽然发现那些幻想，其实是我的梦想...”
令我红了眼眶的台词。
我很少看爱情片会哭，哭也不是为了里面的爱情元素。

他对我说，
我这个人没有什么不良嗜好，
正确来讲，我很难会对一件事染上瘾。
一个对人对事都不会很执着的人，
所以不管什么鸟事把我惹毛，
我可以瞬间忘记，
一个很容易把东西放下的人。
即使被人误会诬赖，
这一秒我可以气得想把自己撕裂，
下一秒我就会“哎，算了吧”地自己碎碎念。

他说，刚发现我这种性格时真的很不能接受。
觉得我太懦弱，不敢为自己辩护，没有主见etc。

人长大后，
他说这是上帝赐给我最大的恩典。

我恍然大悟地Amen。
怪不得我的世界在23年8个月后还是那么美丽...

那天到Mantin宣教，有人问起我的名字。
“宁恩这个名字真好听，你一定是个能够安宁在神的恩典里的人。”
原来上帝赐的恩典，在我生在这个世界，还没有认识他，就伴随着我。
打从一开始，上帝就特别为我预备一个安宁美丽的世界...

写恋爱通告怎么写到这些呢...
都说我这个人很容易离题 :p

在世界里打拼，挣扎，矛盾，钻牛角尖的你，你，或你，
其实你们生命里一定有一个上帝特别特别赐给你的恩典。
只有你才拥有，因为它是上帝给你的special gift。
你一直都拥有着，可能你只是还没发现而已。
这个只有你才拥有的礼物，塑造着你人生的主题曲。
有一天，你身边的人一定能听得到。
你自己作曲，作词，只有你能演奏，属于你的theme song。

上帝一定是哼着这首主题曲，把你我带到这个世界上。
所以，若干年后，当你终于听见你生命的主题曲，
你会很感动，很感动...


我知道上帝爱世人，
但我总觉得，他特别特别爱我。

Radical.

There's once we met up with a friend telling us his struggles in relationship.
He mentioned that he just want to be "neutral", he doesn't want to be too serious,
he wants her to feel that she has all the free will and comfort in playing around with him & the other guy. He is not letting go but not pulling back..
Beating around the bush, ups & downs, twist & turn...
(In fact, we all grew tired listening to his whining :p)

Then suddenly he popped a question:
"So what is your opinion, Jo?"

"My friend, you gotta know that I am a VERY RADICAL person."
I love his answer.
...........................................................................................................................

Do not be afraid to be a radical person.

The majority is afraid to take a stand.
They do not want to choose side.
They want to stay in between.
Maybe it's a safe area. Zero risk, zero miracles.

It's either black or white, it is not okay to be grey.

Don't you feel tired standing on the fence?

JUMP! CHOOSE! MAKE A STAND!

Don't just give a spark, set up a FIRE!!

Don't just take a step, go ALL OUT!!

Don't just work on your dream, FIGHT for it!!

Don't just be passionate, go CRAZY for what you believe in!


Some of you might freak out reading this. My sincere apologies. We are preparing to go into deep waters, the unknown, where MIRACLES are.

Selah.

In one service during A4J Conference, Ps Philip shared about "Faith = Selah"

Selah simply means pause/rest in musical terms. Faith spells R.E.S.T.

You know, some of us have great expectations attending revival conferences like this. We are waiting for dynamic speakers to bring forth some POWERFUL, LOUD, FAITH-FILLED messages that will stir us up, pump up our faith and motivate us to do more!

Likewise, as a typical Church leader, I cleaned my ears and prepared my spirit to receive the powerful anointing/divine intervention/fire of revival...yadada. you mention it.

But

Yes, God gave me a lot of BUTs recently.

We saw Ps Philip, pulling out a PILLOW, from the hotel by the way, from his bag.

Lay it flat on the stage, and asked Ps Jonathan, his poor interpreter, to lie beside him on the pillow.

He said:

"Faith is not about pumping hard on your believe. Faith is not pushing yourself too hard to be an acceptable Christian."

Faith is rest.

Faith is being able to rest in your problems.

You are able to cast it all to God, knowing He will provide and take care of the things which you cannot see.

Then he started to sing (still lying down with his pillow)

” I wait on God to bring to pass,

all He has promised me.

And as I wait,

I rest in faith in what I cannot see.

For in His way He will provide,

at just the perfect time,

everything that’s good and right

For in His way He will provide,

to bless this life of mine.”

Tears...coming from every single cell of my being, overwhelmed me.

Some people around me were laughing at his act.

But I deeply felt what God is trying to tell me.

Ps Philip pastors 70 churches with over 40,000 members. He is radical and that brings a lot of threat to him.

But he says: "My 2nd most powerful spiritual weapon (His bible being his 1st), is....my pillow!"

The song he sang, is his all time favorite lullaby. He sings himself to sleep. He put all his problems & worries outside. His bedroom is his secret place, his intimate sanctuary where God's peace surrounds.

You are no hero if you can defeat thousand men & move mountains.

A true courageous person, a real strong man, is one who knows how to let go, and let God.

My tears literally flow throughout the service. Many times I trained myself to be a tough girl.

I am a tough girl in my family because I bear the responsibility of their salvation.

I am a tough girl in the office as I run all the tasks and make sure everything is on time.

I am a tough leader in church because I have members to take care off.

That day, God just want me to be...me.

His little girl, who is soft & fragile, knows no evil, knows no responsibility & obligation.

He just want me to dwell in His presence, knowing that He loves me more than anyone else, and knowing that I love Him too, as my Big Daddy, who can make all things right, who will carry me through.

There are times to strive, there are also times of rest.

If you feel weary, defeated, disappointed...

Let's not try to get angry at yourself being weak & useless. Let's not try to motivate yourself by pumping hard on your decreasing faith.

You deserve a good rest.

Let our Heavenly Father renew your strength and tell you that He will bring to pass, all He has promised you.

selah.

When World Cup calls your name!

"I've booked a table for 8 tonight 10pm Germany vs England."
Being a football dummy, this was my first time watching a match with the fans.

"I'm supporting England so you must support Germany!"
So I accidentally supported a winning team.

oo yea. it feels good.

p/s: I was sms-ing my dad while watching the match.
me: Germany-1
Dad: Nearly 2!
me: 2 NOW! HAHA!
....
me: Woohoo! 4-1! Unexpected!
Dad: Woohoo! 4-1! EXPECTED!

such a nice bonding with dad :)

zai jian xiao hong.

I tend to have emotional attachment to non-living objects.

I gave my car away today. Actually it's my brother's car but I am the one who is driving it most of the time :p
He is the first car I drove after getting my P license. Little but strong.

I knew he will be traded in for a new car last week.
Not until yesterday when the car dealer called, I'm still cool about the whole thing.

So yesterday I drove him out til late night.
Then I realized I need to clear out my things before handing him over.
Dug out so many rubbish, coins, parking tickets etc...
then I realized I have been ill-treating him for quite some time :p

The car was emptied, all car stickers removed..
Suddenly he looked so lonely... covering in dust. empty.

09.06.2010, 4pm - I handed the keys to my brother and he will do the "giving away" part.

I miss him already.
Thanks for being a shelter, on sunny or rainy days.
Thanks for giving rides to my family, friends, church members & maybe strangers.
Thanks for bringing me places.

You know,
so many people feel sad when they knew about your leave.
You have been a blessing to all of us.
You served us well, little red warrior!

I love you Little Red.
Our family loves you too.

Farewell. Hope to see you around, this time with a better owner.


T_______T

Red bomb

So many of my friends are getting married.
So many of them are younger than me.
So many of them decided in a hurry.
So many of them were not careful.

So is this a trend or what?

You know you are no longer a little girl...

when mommy don't pay for your new clothes.
when daddy don't pay for the family meal.
when your paycheck comes together with tax forms and bills.

hm...I do miss those times when I saved up hard to buy my first tamagotchi.

baby tamagotchi pet looks something like this...if im not mistaken.

sigh.
24.

27th Jan 2010

I look to the future because that's where I'm going to spend the rest of my life.
- George Burns

Today you shared with me about life.

"In everything you do, any decisions you ought to make, think about its eternal value."

If we live a life full of earthly riches, fulfilling our worldly hungers, yet without any eternal value, are we truly happy?

You told me about Joseph in the Bible. He waited 13 years for his dream to come true yet everything he did along the waiting, were all wholly depended on God. He endured everything because he knew they were meant for an eternal purpose, of great eternal value.

I said, to live a life full of eternal values, first we need to make sacrifices. Sacrifice a little, maybe a lot.

You agreed, but that's also the reason why so many people are still in reluctant to turn their eyes upon things of eternal value.

We both knew, our future will only be meaningful, if we step into the eternal lifestyle. Wholeheartedly.

We pondered over a cup of bubble tea in a noisy cafe. But I know God is talking to our hearts.

Just that this time, we both listened.