Hope of all hearts

Listening to this song tonight moved me, moved me so much that I surrendered and cried.
When Pastor Russell speaks towards the end of the song,
God brought me 4 years back, to Melbourne, to Planetshakers City Church.
To where my spirit was at its ultimate brokenness.
To where my life was at its total mess, hopeless, at its deepest pit.
I literally ran away from life to Melbourne in 2008, with a deeply broken heart.

One Sunday I went to Planetshakers City Church, I was late cos I was still unfamiliar with the transportation there. The worship team was singing Deeper when I reached.
When God wants to heal you, He will do it at His timing, when you least expected.
I literally cried my way finding a seat...
"I need more of You, more of You, Jesus." the lyrics went...
When I was in my deepest brokenness, He knows that all I need is Him, Jesus alone.
God came true to me at my first step into His church... I was being comforted, healed and renewed.
And from that day, my heart cried for one thing: to experience God like never before.

Miracles happened almost everyday and I felt God everywhere, every time.
I can stay up all night worshipping God and drown in His presence.
I experienced supernatural provision financially.
I was blessed with so many great people around me.
I found a dream. I gain back my courage to live for Him.
Each day was like a new encounter with my Creator.

4 years later, one night, here I am...
God came true to me once again. I found myself in the embrace of my God...
The same God I experienced 4 years back in Melbourne...
The same God who visited me every single day when I drew near to Him.
The same God who loves me more than anyone else.
The same God who saved me from the darkess times.
The same God who called me to live for Him and Him only.

Jesus, He is the hope for all hearts.
In the darkness, in trial, my soul shall sing of His mercy and kindness.
Our offering of praise.
Our God never fails. His love never fails.

For those of you who knew Jesus,
We are so blessed, so blessed to have Jesus as our Saviour.
He is our hope no matter what you are facing, no matter how hard is life hitting you,
HE IS YOUR HOPE.

For those who don't know Jesus personally,
You shall find the answer in Jesus, the answer to all your problems, weakness, sickness, struggles.
Because He loves you, no matter who you are.
HE IS YOUR HOPE.

When life gets tough, always remember Jesus.
Plug in your earphones, and listen to this song.
A song which reminds you:
Jesus is the same, yesterday, today and forever.
His love never fails. Never.

I love...

but they never belong to me.

I have been facing with this kind of feeling recently.
Things that I love...have been taken away from me, one by one.
I just have to learn to accept that, they never belong to me from the start.

This is just a process of growing up, growing old.
And we have to be mature enough to let something go.
In fact, to let many things go.

One thing which keeps me going:
My God loves me and He will prepare all the best for me.
He is my only audience to please.

Sometimes, jellybeans and cute silly seals may keep me going, too!

Despite all the reality checks, NEVER SAY NEVER to what you believe in. Cz the One behind your faith is ALMIGHTY.

Beautiful.

Beautiful 全然美丽

Beautiful     你是全然美丽

我身 我心 我灵   都要赞美你

耶稣          你是全然美丽

一生 一世 永远   都要敬拜你 

在Only God Church Camp 按手礼时的感动。

　我的耶稣，全然美丽。

　Everything is beautiful in my life, because my God is...

COMPLETELY. ABSOLUTELY. BEAUTIFUL.

A new way to think about creativity - Elizabeth Gilbert

The best creativity video I have ever seen. | Stuff Christians Like – Jon Acuff

 I don't know why the video didn't show up but you can follow this link to the video anyway.

"creative people have this reputation for being enormously mentally unstable"
I laughed at this statement, and later sunk into deep thoughts.

Yes..how true is that.
At least once in your lifetime, you will have this worry of being sucked off all your creative juices...
and turn into a dry piece of junk, eventually kicked out by all the "new blood" "upcoming creative minds".. you name it.

"The most extraordinary aspects of your being didn't came from you, maybe they were on loan to you, to be passed along when you're finished. with somebody else." - Elizabeth Gilber.

Elizabeth used this illustration of the people in the desserts of North Africa centuries ago. People used to gather for moonlight dances which are magnificent because all the dancers are professionals.
But somehow, once in a while, there will be an "extraordinary" one. In present terms, "God-like". So the crowd will go shouting " Allah, Allah!" meaning "God, God!". This is because they know that the magnificent extraordinary performance is not by human, it's a glimpse of God.

We, creative people of this present time, have experienced that in one or more stage of our creative journey. We achieved something better than great, there are applause, praises, celebrations...
but what's next?
Just like the moon dancer, falling back to the old self the very next morning, wondering if he/she could ever do that again?

What's next?
Sometimes we don't even know which part of our being has this power to create such success.

Simply because we didn't create them. It's a supernatural power.

In Genesis 1 says, God created the heaven and the earth.
He is the master of all creation. Creativity comes from Him alone.

We are but vessels, receiving gifts and talents from above, then deliver to the world.

It's never about us... no matter how gifted you are in the creative field.
Creative Production Ministry is never about us...no matter how many past successes we've achieved.
I will continually remind myself, it's never ever about me.

It took me a long while, to give back the credits...to the Creator, the one who created me.
But I thank God I did.
Maybe you should do the same too :)

stay believing.

The situation is not good

The people are making noises

The world is falling apart.

But... whatever.

I just want to stay believing.

And you, yes you.

stay believing too.

 A thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand,but it will not come near you. (Psalm 91:7)

Picture taken during an angry storm. I was sitting in my car.. playing worship music. staying calm. 

Be loved everyone.

Only Hope by Mandy Moore

"A Walk to Remember"

Came across this clip...and it brought me back to this movie.
I remember I read the book and cried like a baby.
Then the movie made me cry even more :p

A very touching and meaningful story... A story about 2 different lives, crossing each other's path.
There's hopes, dreams, love, regrets... there's God.
Although the story ended with a sad tone, but it's really a story telling how amazing our God is.

There's a very special part when Landon flipped through the year book and found out Jamie's ambition:

"To witness a miracle."


How many of you out there, working hard, struggling through, crying for something to happen, begging for something to change...
How about a prayer to witness a miracle?

A miracle of hope, life, love.

To the world, you may be just one person.
But to one person, you are the world.
He's our Heavenly Father.

Never give up will you?

Lay my head back down,
Lift my hands and pray
to be only Yours.

p/s: you know, I'm feeling like writing a love story, a happily ever after love story. It's how all love stories should end. :) Be loved everyone.

Hello 2011.

I have not been blogging. I just saw a total of 52 posts for the past year and it is not even half of the total for 2009. Well, at least there's one post a week on average.

Had a quick glance through what I have recorded for the past year.
Joy, tears, struggles, victories.
Ah... life :)

I actually asked myself this questions weeks ago:
What do I actually feel about everything for 2010?
My answer was: WHAT A MESS!

Well, I have been busy, unorganized, sloppy and most of the time, angry at myself.
Allow me to give myself a big hug *hugs* :)

I started off the first day of 2010 in a leaders retreat camp, got very discouraged on certain things.
Came back and got very sick... :(

Jan: Went on mission trips to Mantin & Seremban - Started to appreciate what we have in church and learn to serve others.

Mac: Onn & Jia got married. | 11 days in Taiwan - a roller coaster ride spiritually & emotionally.

Apr: Work | OK photoshoot experience | Mission trip to Kluang & Batu Pahat

May: More Work | Mission trip to Kota Bahru | En Tong & JC's wedding | 1st sharing experience in Dream Factory

June: iCampus members got baptized | A4J

July: ITEC New Intake started=a lot of work | Dream Factory Anniversary - Broke a record of 100 salvation

Aug: Mission trip to Mantin & Seremban

Sept: TODAY Camp | iCampus Mid Autumn Evangelistic Meeting

Oct: Taiwan Again

Nov: OK Wedding Banquet- 1st experience being an emcee | Hectic crazy working schedule | Crazy things happened to a family member- turned my family upside down overnight | IMPACT Camp

Dec: Mission trip to Kota Bahru | <4320> Christmas Production - 1400 attended, 135 saved.

I got deeply discouraged and madly disappointed with myself for not being a good daughter to my parents, a good staff, a good cell group leader,  a good girlfriend, a good servant of God...

I tried too hard to be "good" and eventually forgot to be "me".
IMPACT CAMP is my turning point.
There's where I started to shift my focus from myself to the Creator.
And miraculously everything just turns out alright...

I am surprise that I manage to pull myself through nearly the whole year in such a mess.
Then the beautiful story came in, Jesus was carrying me through during the toughest time.

Father, You are truly amazing.
I can tell the world with my head held high:
I am totally set free, blessed and anointed to serve my God.

2011, I welcome you with an open heart and do the ONE thing that is needful: to choose the better blessing by pleasing Your heart above all else. (Luke 10:38-42)

Quote from Peg
" This year WILL be a year of stepping into the supernatural, it WILL be a year of dreaming with God of all the impossibilities and seeing it come to past"

An EXCITING and AMAZING journey begins! 

freelance

Had dinner with a new found friend today.
Me: Oh it's almost 8pm, gotta go.
Him: Office hour is over isn't it? Where are you going?
Me: Erm...some freelance job. (It's actually rushing some design for church :p)
Him: Freelance... Haih, it's hard to earn enough nowadays..
Me: Em...oh yea.

How if I tell him that I'm doing freelance...for free.

Oh, FREElance indeed.

 But I tell you, I will be damn rich in Heaven.
My blessing is not only counted in monetary abundance, I am contented on the inside.
Nothing beats the sense of security, when I know how GREAT is my GOD.


My Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not be in want. Ps 23

Are you ready?

A great storm is on its way
Small splashes are accumulating into huge waves
they might destroy & drown you

So get your surf board
ride the wave
prepare to go to greater heights

For He is the King of the rising ocean
we will soar with Him above the storms

Be still
for I know that You are God.


p/s: those are Gucci shades xD

Selah.

In one service during A4J Conference, Ps Philip shared about "Faith = Selah"

Selah simply means pause/rest in musical terms. Faith spells R.E.S.T.

You know, some of us have great expectations attending revival conferences like this. We are waiting for dynamic speakers to bring forth some POWERFUL, LOUD, FAITH-FILLED messages that will stir us up, pump up our faith and motivate us to do more!

Likewise, as a typical Church leader, I cleaned my ears and prepared my spirit to receive the powerful anointing/divine intervention/fire of revival...yadada. you mention it.

But

Yes, God gave me a lot of BUTs recently.

We saw Ps Philip, pulling out a PILLOW, from the hotel by the way, from his bag.

Lay it flat on the stage, and asked Ps Jonathan, his poor interpreter, to lie beside him on the pillow.

He said:

"Faith is not about pumping hard on your believe. Faith is not pushing yourself too hard to be an acceptable Christian."

Faith is rest.

Faith is being able to rest in your problems.

You are able to cast it all to God, knowing He will provide and take care of the things which you cannot see.

Then he started to sing (still lying down with his pillow)

” I wait on God to bring to pass,

all He has promised me.

And as I wait,

I rest in faith in what I cannot see.

For in His way He will provide,

at just the perfect time,

everything that’s good and right

For in His way He will provide,

to bless this life of mine.”

Tears...coming from every single cell of my being, overwhelmed me.

Some people around me were laughing at his act.

But I deeply felt what God is trying to tell me.

Ps Philip pastors 70 churches with over 40,000 members. He is radical and that brings a lot of threat to him.

But he says: "My 2nd most powerful spiritual weapon (His bible being his 1st), is....my pillow!"

The song he sang, is his all time favorite lullaby. He sings himself to sleep. He put all his problems & worries outside. His bedroom is his secret place, his intimate sanctuary where God's peace surrounds.

You are no hero if you can defeat thousand men & move mountains.

A true courageous person, a real strong man, is one who knows how to let go, and let God.

My tears literally flow throughout the service. Many times I trained myself to be a tough girl.

I am a tough girl in my family because I bear the responsibility of their salvation.

I am a tough girl in the office as I run all the tasks and make sure everything is on time.

I am a tough leader in church because I have members to take care off.

That day, God just want me to be...me.

His little girl, who is soft & fragile, knows no evil, knows no responsibility & obligation.

He just want me to dwell in His presence, knowing that He loves me more than anyone else, and knowing that I love Him too, as my Big Daddy, who can make all things right, who will carry me through.

There are times to strive, there are also times of rest.

If you feel weary, defeated, disappointed...

Let's not try to get angry at yourself being weak & useless. Let's not try to motivate yourself by pumping hard on your decreasing faith.

You deserve a good rest.

Let our Heavenly Father renew your strength and tell you that He will bring to pass, all He has promised you.

selah.

Happy New Year 2

By Your wounds, I have been healed.

2010 - I want to be healthy.

Amen.

Today you shared with me about life.

"In everything you do, any decisions you ought to make, think about its eternal value."

If we live a life full of earthly riches, fulfilling our worldly hungers, yet without any eternal value, are we truly happy?

You told me about Joseph in the Bible. He waited 13 years for his dream to come true yet everything he did along the waiting, were all wholly depended on God. He endured everything because he knew they were meant for an eternal purpose, of great eternal value.

I said, to live a life full of eternal values, first we need to make sacrifices. Sacrifice a little, maybe a lot.

You agreed, but that's also the reason why so many people are still in reluctant to turn their eyes upon things of eternal value.

We both knew, our future will only be meaningful, if we step into the eternal lifestyle. Wholeheartedly.

We pondered over a cup of bubble tea in a noisy cafe. But I know God is talking to our hearts.

Just that this time, we both listened.

To JC.

If God appears before you now, what will you say to Him?

I guess mine will be...
I'm sorry.

and I'll kneel down and cry.

What have I done for Him as His servant?
How much have I loved Him as His child?

Sometimes, I felt like Peter.
"You know I love You."
Although I seemed not.

All my life, I would want to glorify Your name.
Choosing to follow You, is the boldest thing I've done in my entire life.
No regrets... but thanksgiving.

I live a contented life. It seems like I'm in abundance.
But there's a big hole inside of me... only You can satisfy.
What good it is, if I gain the whole world...but lose my soul?

What good it is, if I live up to everyone's expectations...but lose Yours?

I spent my whole life searching for my true identity, my calling, my destiny...
Then I realized, I can only find myself... in You.

I just want to be in Your arms...have a good sleep, and wake up to see Your smile.

Babies in Heaven.

heard a sad news.
Reminds me of this book. "JESSE found in heaven"

If a baby died in the mother's womb... where will he/she be?

Heard this touching story from Ps Christine Pringle during Asia Conference last year.
Below are quoted from CityNews.

" Chris shared deeply about dealing with the loss of an infant, a small child through miscarriage, termination or still birth. Her own personal experience was when she was a young woman, barely 20, pregnant with her first child. Chris (and her husband Phil Pringle) ran a home group for youth in their own home at the time. She was about 15 weeks pregnant when she found herself bleeding one day, a day of her home group. Before the youth group arrived at her house, Chris decided to head home and rest.

As a young Christian, she thought only good things happened to Christians, so she did not think the bleeding was anything serious. But the bleeding got worse, and “I still remember, the youth were singing praises in the next room, and I was in my bedroom, bleeding, losing my baby.” Chris drew no comfort from people telling her “Maybe it is for the best” or “It is going to be all right”. But peace and assurance came upon her when someone told her, “I believe that God is flushing out your body of all the drugs,” in reference to her previous lifestyle before she came to the Lord.

Many, many years later, a friend showed Chris a video of a vision of heaven. After watching the video, she went into her room. There she heard praise and worship, and felt two arms envelope her. Up to that point, she had not grieved for her lost child, but she started crying now. It was as though she was in this incredible bubble where she could just weep and everything was still. She received a vision of a tall, handsome young man with longish hair — and the Lord told her it was her son, Jesse. Heaven, shared Chris, that’s where the babies go when they are lost on Earth. They are rescued by angels and brought into Heaven, where they grow. When she saw Jesse, he was 23 - exactly the age he would be if he had lived. "

There's this poem Ps Christine wrote to Jesse.

During her sharing session, I wept like a baby. Maybe not many of you know... I am suppose to have an elder sister. My mom had a miscarriage after being stung by a bee.
But now I know I will be seeing her in Heaven one day. She must be very beautiful.

Dear M&A, I felt so sorry for your baby. I can't control my tears when I heard the news.
As much as we grieve, we ought to know that little baby is in our Heavenly Father's safe arms. Angels are protecting little baby and we will see him/her one day.

Yes that's for sure.

Updated: Her name is Cassie Ng.

约书亚乐团《台湾我爱你》

怎么“台湾”和“马来西亚”差那么多个字？
不然可以直接substitute进去。
上帝爱台湾
上帝更爱马来西亚。

喂，谁有感动写一首酱的歌给马来西亚？

Miracle.

Father God,
I don't need a miracle. I want to be the miracle.
You've made me a champion~
And I will live up to my identity.
xoxo.


I love prayers.
Thanks for supporting me emotionally as well as spiritually.
It's wonderful...you prayed for me 3 times today :)
kinda like it.
I love you so so much darling.

The man behind the altar.

I mentioned that Ps Philip is a bold and fierce man, full of God's anointing and power. But...when you get to know the super cheeky side of him, I think you would probably faint.


After sharing about love, Ps Philip wanted to show us that he loves us and he will put it into action.
Everyone was thrilled when he said he brought gifts for ALL OF US! Although I doubted a bit cz hello, there were 1000 of us! But pastor wont lie right.. so we were very excited.

He pulled out a huge paper bag... and it contains all the gifts for us. Then I was thinking maybe he wants to give us sweets... cz that bag can't fit anything big for 1000.
He invited the organizing committees, hospitality team and drivers up the stage. They lined up excitedly until....he pulls out a laundry bag from the hotel room........

He wanted to let us bring home a gift from him but there was no time for him to do any shopping... and hence, he brought everything available from his hotel room....... =.="

Some got toothbrush, tea bags, shower cap.... omg...I was laughing non stop even when Im typing... HAHA...
He was laughing like mad also...he went: "Ok let's see what else I have... COTTON BUDS!! AHAHAHAHAH.!!!!" Need not to mention Ps Ewen beside him...his expression of disbelieve for Ps philip's "act of love". We know he was struggling in interpretating... “哦...你拿到...HAHAHA...沐。。浴。。露。。。AHAHAHA” So we literally saw 2 men laughing like mad on the stage with all committees recieving a piece of face tissue from him... and ofcz we laughed til we teared.

The climax was when Ps Ewen got a roll of TOILET PAPPER from Ps philip... omg I REALLY BEH TAHAN HIM...

In the end, he distributed nuts for all of us. And the 2 boxes of nuts were given by the hospitality team to him. Someomore he want to mentioned that he ate some so we can have the remnants...

But the nuts were not enough for all of us...then Ps Ewen donated his toilet roll so that each one of us can have a little piece...

Ps Jonathan asked us to bring home and laminate it and keep it in our bible for life. Cz it's a piece of "anointed toilet tissue" from Ps Philip. A gift in memory of A4J 2009.

Seriously, I will.

You can see it in his eyes, you can feel it from his words.
He loves us so much. He loves Malaysia so much.
The mark he left in our lives, will shine forever.
We love you Ps Philip.

Dear God... although I spent my revision time in this conference, even now Im still spending time recording all these..but I felt so loved, so full..that I must share Your vision for Malaysia to others. I have no regrets. No matter what is the outcome. Cz in You, I commit my life.

Shifted, spiritually. The change is very subtle... not very dramatic. But I can see changes going on everyday... in my words, thoughts, actions and relationship .. changed, and still changing.

Next year, A4J 2010 --- we are going to a STADIUM! I urge you, register and reborn!

A4J Conference Day 4 Session 7

Session 7 Ps Philip Mantofa

Love is the Principle of Everything We Do.
1Cor 7:8-9

1. Love is purposeful
- We have a purpose in what we with others and what we do to others.
- So that we may be careful in everything we do as everything comes from God's will.

2. Love is regretful
- Not regretful for the righteous actions, but just because you feel for the others.
He shared about his story with his son.
One day he caught his son kicking his grandmother after watching the movie Kungfu Panda. hehe.. He love his son but he also needs to discipline him. So he took away his favorite toy as a punishment. Thinking that his daddy will return his toy later on...the kid took it easy. However, after many days, the kid realized that his dad is not going to give him back although he pleaded so much. When he knew the truth, he cried and cried until he fell asleep in daddy's arm. Ps philip felt so heartache seeing his son in such despair. Many times he wanted to just give him back the toy. But the Holy Spirit told him not to do so, we are suppose to be responsible for wrongdoings.

Ps Philip said he was haunted by our ugly face the day before when he shared about hell... hehehe...and the felt so heartache when he made all pastors cried. He speak the truth in love but the truth hurts. He love us so much that he have to do that to us in order for us to be circumcised and clease off all our ungodly attitudes.

He did not regret hurting us, but he is regretful for our feelings.

I can relate to his feelings to his son. I remeber when I was a kid, I used to suck my thumb a lot..(>.<) Knowing that it's a bad habit and very unhygienic, my dad punished me when he caught me doing that. He brought me up and locked us in a room. He asked me to show him which hand i used to suck my thumb. I was so scared and showed him my right hand. There came a huge rotan and I cried like mad cz it hurts... I cried and cried on the bed and he lied beside me watching me cry without saying anything at all. I cried myself to sleep... and I can feel him patting me on my back. My dad loves me, he did that out of deep love for me. But he is regretful for causing hurt in me. How can a dad feels nothing when he sees his little girl cry?

3. Love is grateful
- Our relationship with God does not directly change the relationship of us with people, unless we can interpret what we got from God into normal life.
-If we know how to be grateful, we will be like a king. People will serve you not because they have to, but because they want to.

If love is the principle of everything we do, then we are willing to do everything for love.

This is the last session. Surprisingly, I was expecting some kind of prayer session or impartation going on, but it ended...SUPER FUNNY. Read my next post.

A4J Conference Day 3 Session 6

Session 6 - A Trip to Hell: Ps Philip Mantofa.

I really don't know what to share about this night.
I was on duty as a counselor so I get to be in the main hall, thank God.
The hall was packed, overflow halls L5, L4 and L3 all packed.
Some Christians in the main hall had to give their seats to the new friends.
Last year during this service, Ps Philip was in great pain when he tried to share his experience. I heard that he can barely say a word but cried... he mentioned the gate of the hell... and he choked.. he just sat on the stage and cried. But the whole atmosphere was like everyone has been brought to the gate...
He stopped his sharing and immediately open the altar for decisions. 187 people RUN like there's no tmr to the front. The atmosphere was so intense cz the gate was opened for only minutes. Some could not even get themselves in and cried and wept.

This year however, he share 2 stories from hell. He described...Hell has a huge gate at the entrance, the texture of the gate is like an old rugged cross. God asked him to open the gate and he went in. What he saw in there, left such great hurt and pain in him. It was BIG...with no boundaries.. so many people were in there. He can literally see the hell as describe in the bible but there is nothing to compare with on earth. Hell is much much terrible than anything we can imagine. There's devils all around, torturing the dead people.

He told us about a lady who was near the gate. Devils surround her and shouted "LIE! LIE! LIE!" The lady kept on saying "Yes, I lied." But the devils seem unsatisfied. They held her tongue, and pull. the whole tongue came out with blood and worms and maggots oozing out from it. And they scratch her face with sharps... making the whole scene bloody... and all these repeated and repeated and repeated...

Another scene where 2 men with devils all around them. The devils want them to fight and commanded the old man to peel off the young man's scalp and eat his brain. And then they take turns... they were apologizing, crying and begging while doing that. God inspired Ps Philip that they might be father and son and all their lives on earth, the live in unforgiveness. Hence the devils celebrate their sins when they were reunited in hell.

What we feel physically is actually because of what we feel in our soul. Hence even though we are dead, we can are sensitive in every sensations we have physically. Imagine the pain and suffering.

As I'm on duty, I have to sit in front which is very near Ps philip. When he was telling his experience, I can literally feel the chill...and his struggles of forcing himself to recall all these torturing things.
It's not easy for him to share. Imagine if you ask a rape victim to reproduce the process in detail.

God brought him there, he saw all the truth and he doesn't want anybody to go there. Hence, although it hurts billion zillion times...he shared his experience over and over again, to let more people know and given a chance, not to go there.

Well, something happened in between. Shook us all. The situation became super intense during that moment. I really don't know how to share here. But this hurts Ps philip so much and it hurts me...hurt everyone of us Christians..
Sometimes the truth can be ugly and cruel. We have to learn to face it.

But God is mighty to save. He finally opened the altar for people to come to Christ. We counselors have o be chased out to give room. I was standing near the stairs and when he said: "Set them free!" People were running down the stairs and made such huge stomping effect. The ushers are urging them to go into the circle fast. There was so many people...until the ushers have to move back few rows to accommodate everyone.

Due to my non-strategic view...I can barely see what's going on inside. But through some sharing from people in the overflow hall. There's 2 old couples were struggling whether or not to go into the circle. When they finally decided and walked there, the time is up. Ushers closed the gate and the old couple asked for entry. The usher did not response. one of my church members happened to be an usher as well and she was deeply moved by the scene.

When one day, everything is too late.

I know not every people accept the idea of heaven and hell. I understand they struggle to accept things which sounds unscientific. But I believe, heaven and hell, they are so real.

I am not bold enough to talk like Ps Philip... but I pray that with God's help, I can at least try my very best to prevent this from my love ones.

The night ended. Approximately 3000 attendees. ~500 responded to altar call. >200 new believers. Praise the Lord.

"A Trip to Hell" is not another fiction story to scare people. The truth has been told but everyone has their own free-will. God does not force us to believe in Him. It all depends on your choice.

We can take it easy, but remember: when one day, everything is too late.

I teared.

A4J Conference Day 3 Session 5

Session 5 Ps Jonathan Chow 周巽正牧师



Ps Jonathan, better known as Ps Zheng3 Zheng2 (正正牧师) is the younger brother of Ps Ewen. He's running a School of Theology in Taiwan. Very powerful speaker!

粽子（众子）不见了 The dumpling is gone (haha...)
Rom 8:19-21; John 3:22-30

Yesterday the pastors were being circumcised, today it's our turn.
I think God spoke to me a lot during this session.
v27 "A man can receive only what is given him from heaven"

We, as servants of God, sometimes will fall into the pride pit.
We want to steal some glory from God. We compare the number of our cell group members, we compete in ministry. When the ministry is successful, we take honor. When things aren't good, we feel ashamed.
We are treating the ministry as "my" ministry, "my" cell group, "my" accomplishment.

We are letting God's dream becoming our identity.
We are following the vision instead of following God.
We rejoice in the success of the ministry instead of rejoicing in the Lord's presence.

Our dream, ministry and talents are not our reward. Only God Himself is our greatest reward.

When God circumcise us, we might be ripped off our most precious thing in life.
Things which we are good at, things we call our talents and identity.

For example, you are a worship leader and you do good at it. People give you praise and you enjoy it. If one day you are not allowed to lead anymore. Who are you? Have you lost you identity?
Our only identity is the child of God.
What good is it if we gain the whole world but lose God.

Jesus came to earth, dying from His status of God's son. He humble himslef, empty everything. Then, He ministered with great power.

Elisha left his high ranked occuption and followed Elijah, only to wash his hands and carry his baggage. Then, Elisha got double the anointing from Elijah.

If we want the double anointing, we want to serve with great power, DIE.

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This day, God ripped me off my pride. I have been longing to make myself noticed, taking credits for things I've accomplished. Now I am nothing else but an empty vessel. I can't take the glory which belongs to God. In this way, only can His glory be manifested to the fullest.

No longer me, but Jesus Christ wo lives in me.