空洞。

最近创作有个坏习惯，就是把脑袋里的第一个念头放进去。
不能代表我的心情，免得有人误会我又搞自闭...

这几晚泡的连续剧，
让我这颗脚踏实地，乖乖认命的心激动了又悸动。

生命就是梦想的旅程，完成了一个梦想，再去追下一个。


“你打算到哪一间大学修硕士？看看澳洲有没有机会？”

“我...要是想修一些另外的课程..." （小声）

"哦？比如说？“

“像...arts之类...” （很小声）

“以后要干嘛？能有什么帮助？对我们学院能怎样？”

“没有啦...兴趣而已...想想而已...哈哈...哈...” (非常小声）

“如果没有一个人替我分担，我怎么可能再去打拼？好多计划要完成，你们都靠这份家业吃饭...
(下删一千五百零八十二个字）

“好...我只是说说而已。”

扪心自问，我连把梦说出来的勇气都没有。
平常，我连说说都不敢，每次话到嘴边眼泪先掉。这次算是一个大跃进。
活了二十二年十个月又二十五天，真的很想叛逆一下。

有谁知道，这永远是我心中最脆弱的一块？
看着一幕幕的画面，听着一句句的对白，
眼泪一行行地在掉。

人家太入戏，感情太泛滥啦。



还是，你想找戏里的人来陪你哭？

我说

值得去追求的事情
喜欢不够，要热爱，要疯狂。
年轻的岁月，我要挥霍于追梦。

-恩字

Coffee thoughts.

Coffee Ritual@PJ Section 14
"Everything you order will taste very good."
Mom claimed.

You'll love the ambiance. Nice match of colors.

Starter: Mushroom Soup & Bun
Very well done soup! Not too creamy with little chunks of fresh mushrooms.
Wholemeal bun served warm with SCS butter~ Heaven :)

Drinks: Caffe Latte for me & Peppermint Tea for mom.
I'm a Latte fan. I love it.

Caesar's Salad
Served with homemade salad dressing, lightly salted bread chunks, pickle olives and a generous amount of black pepper chicken slices!
like no other.

Black Pepper Chicken Sandwich
Bread spread with Italian herbs flavored olive oil...which makes all the difference.

Sweet Crepe with Berkeley's Farm Ice Cream
Crispy on the edges, the ice cream was awesome.
Creamy smooth texture and not too sweet.

Plus point: they serve single origin coffee brewed with siphon pot.
Slow but worth your wait.

I did not try it, maybe next time. Coffee anyone?


Maybe some of you knew, I have this little fancy of opening a coffee shop of my own.
I would love to brew quality coffees and serve delicious pastries and cakes.
Having close friends over for hi-tea, organize tea parties at my very own cafe.
I'll put some books for reading, maybe paint some pictures.


I know people need places like this, hiding away from a busy schedule and just sit back and rest.
Rest, is a deep word.
Some people lie down, but don't sleep.
Some people keep quiet, but have no inner peace.
Come in and indulge in some quality time alone.
Alone with your thoughts, your feelings, your emotions, your self.

It will be a nice and cosy place, I believe. :)

p/s: about the statement of my mom- I agree, like totally. Must try.

To JC.

If God appears before you now, what will you say to Him?

I guess mine will be...
I'm sorry.

and I'll kneel down and cry.

What have I done for Him as His servant?
How much have I loved Him as His child?

Sometimes, I felt like Peter.
"You know I love You."
Although I seemed not.

All my life, I would want to glorify Your name.
Choosing to follow You, is the boldest thing I've done in my entire life.
No regrets... but thanksgiving.

I live a contented life. It seems like I'm in abundance.
But there's a big hole inside of me... only You can satisfy.
What good it is, if I gain the whole world...but lose my soul?

What good it is, if I live up to everyone's expectations...but lose Yours?

I spent my whole life searching for my true identity, my calling, my destiny...
Then I realized, I can only find myself... in You.

I just want to be in Your arms...have a good sleep, and wake up to see Your smile.

PS rox.

hm... saved some $$ :)

Updates

I've always come across this kind of "updates" blogs, so let's make this my first one.
Last Updated: 10.9.09

Uni
Waiting for my deposit refund.

Work
Yea I've started working.
Very flexible working hours... too flexible. I never knw when is the right time to go home =.="
I see my boss everyday, almost every moment. So basically I have to be every ready to switch between off-job and on-job modes.
My boss has high expectations on me so it's kinda stressed working with her.
But we can both switch off our laptops at 6pm and rush down for the last episode of "Six Children".
No public holidays in my dictionary...but I can go on a holiday anytime, ofcz with my boss.
Kinda confused, but that's my job.

Church
iCampus officially launched.
Guess I'll have to play the keyboard for the rest of the months this year.
Christmas drama script is ready!
Dream Factory interview next week.

Personal
I am on liver detox & gallstone flush program with slimming enhancement.
Working on a 1year secret plan... *hehe*
Started reading "Through the Bible Through the Year"
Still praying for my Canon EOS 500D.

Many unchecked items on my to-do-list.
Still wondering why didn't I go on a holiday for the 2 months break.
Still struggling to correct my sleeping pattern.

Sometimes I think that my life is crap... but who's life isn't?
Move on move on!

oh...2:36am, CRAP.

Graduated.

I know I have been lazy in blogging nowadays. I shall pick up the momentum again.
Well, my purpose of writing blogs is to make a record of important events in life.
and I can see that I have not been fulfilling it :p
Well, blame facebook.
Seriously, It's much more convenient.

3 years passed in a blink of an eye.
University life is officially, ended.

I felt grieve, surrendering my student ID in the office today.

Sometimes, I just want to stay as a little girl.
always.

No matter how reluctant I am to let go of all these... I am already moving on, unconsciously.

Then I realized, that's life.Nevertheless, I'm still proud of what I've accomplished so far.
All glory to God.

2006
I just can't believe that the girl eating Rocky in lectures...
is now graduated.

5.9.2009
she still loves Rocky though.