导演，我们做到了。

我最想念的导演

我想告诉你，
我们做到了。
没有你的日子，我不知道我怎样走过来...
我不知道那里来的力量...让CPM走到今天。

Kevin...
去年2010年12月19日...
《4320》创造了制作组的奇迹。
多么多的不可能，在你的带领下，
都一一实现。
你告诉我们说，不要轻言放弃。

今天2011年12月19日..
你再一次创造了不可能的奇迹。
你用你的生命换来许多生命的改变...

虽然上帝知道我们非常舍不得你...
但他更知道我们需要你带来的神迹。

今天后台的状况真的让我一度以为《单程旅客》演不成了。
在那一瞬间我闭起双眼，不要轻言放弃...
我知道上帝爱你，他会为我们开道路。
就在千钧一发的瞬间...电脑荧幕重新操作，向牧师比了ok的手势，你的故事顺利上演。
虽然面对电脑随时当机的情况，我不断地祷告...
我祈求上帝，让杜凯文最大的制作能完美呈现。
在最后的一个短片播完，我盖上剧本，深呼吸。
走到台前拿了麦克风，为Kallpana合音，唱完献给你的一首歌。
在闭上双眼演唱的时候，我感受到你的满足，我感受到上帝为你预备的一切美好。

走回后台，我一腿软跌坐在PA台旁...
头一底，眼泪不停地掉。
或许是如释重负，还是这段时间忍得太久...
牧师分享的时候，眼泪不停打转...

我真的真的好想念你。
有你在的日子，我知道你为我承担了多少重担...
这一次你不在了，我逼着自己长大，学习承担我以前不需要负的责任。
今天，
我想告诉你，
我们做到了。
 

你的梦想，我们会一直一直为你实现下去...
我答应你，我不会放弃。

Kevin...
献给你...



We two have run about the slopes,
and picked the daisies fine ;
But we’ve wandered many a weary foot,
since auld lang syne.

We two have paddled in the stream,
from morning sun till dine^† ;
But seas between us broad have roared
since auld lang syne.

And there’s a hand my trusty friend !
And give us a hand o’ thine !
And we’ll take a right good-will draught,
for auld lang syne.

it has arrived.

Although some people might avoid talking about you,

but I'll somehow think of u a little, 

talk about u a little..

sometimes.

Christmas this year, is all yours.

A story about you and God.

Be with us,

this is your greatest production.

It will be.

A photobook of you.

I'm gonna give it to your mom. 

I remember asking you this question in my dreams.

"We know that you are not here with us anymore,

but why somehow I can still feel that you are around?"

I know many of us feel the same way too.

We miss you..

like, a lot.

30 minutes.

 

用工作间隔的30分钟写一篇纪念他的稿，说是要放在他追思聚会的program book。

只给我30分钟，我望着电脑，脑子一片空白...

游走FB及部落各，果然有好多写给他的post。想参考参考，毕竟怎么可能30分钟内就能写好关于一个人的一生...

字打了又删，删了又打。

思绪定格在那张又熟悉又怜惜的脸...

写下...

" 我们都记得他温柔，体贴人的心。宁愿自己吃亏，为要让身边的人快乐。

他从不好胜，但他心里总对自己要达成的目标有一股莫名的坚持。

凭着这份坚持，他总是能够鼓励身边的人，他常说：“不要轻言放弃，否则对不起上帝”。

在他抗癌的期间，我们更加能够看见，他以行动证明他永不放弃的信念 。

他偶尔会提起说，他还有很多事情没有做，他还想为他所爱的人付出些什么…

他或许不知道，Kevin Too这个名字，带给多少人生命中的震撼！

我们或许觉得很惋惜，这么年轻的生命，这么大好前景的生命…

但，

因着他对上帝的信靠，我们的信心也与他一起成长。

因着他积极的对抗病魔，我们也抹去眼泪选择与他并肩作战。

因着他的勇气，我们也变得刚强。

Kevin ，你是我们的英雄。

我们知道上帝比我们任何一个人更加爱你，你已经完成了天父要你走的路，而且完成的很漂亮。

我们会记得你，当我们都完成了自己该走的旅程，就在天堂见你。"

看看表，30分钟，按下Send。

看看自己，看到昨晚忍到今天的眼泪...

Kevin...天堂见。

Tonight

I cried.
Jesus cried for Lazarus, and Lazarus was revived.
If only my tears could move God's heart...
so that he will be healed.
I am willing to cry him a river.

Listening to "Believe in love, you will see miracles" by SOP while editing some photos taken in the hospital.
Tears flow...
And I let it flow.

There is no greater love than to lay down one's life for one's friends. (John 15:13)

We love you too much to let you go.
We too, know God's love for you surpasses all love man can give.
Jesus lay down His life for you, there is no greater love than this.

So you be strong, Kevin.

We believe together with you.

Love you.

Another one.

不知何故睡不着在FB漫游。
忽然一个Youth Club的旧成员传来一则信息。
被吓一跳，皆因平时都会把Chatroom调Offline, 要不是py小姐说要我On我都不会收到这则可能令我更加睡不着的信息。

LY: 你记得高龙吗？
Me:记得， 怎么了？

通常，被人家这样一问；不是极好的消息，就是极坏。
但，经历了两次这种事情，我的心一沉...

LY: 他走了。

高龙，
我们认识应该是在Youth Club刚成立的时候。
你很害羞，很文静。
认识久了就开始跟我们废话连篇...
已经很久没见到你了，偶尔教会大节日你会出现...
还记得你每次远远地叫“宁恩姐~~~子和哥~~~”

高龙... 宁恩姐一定会记得你。
我知道你在地上曾经不快乐，对不起没有给予你安慰。
你可能觉得自己的存在没有价值，但你其实曾经带给许多人快乐。
天堂是没有眼泪的地方，在天父的怀抱安息吧。
我们天堂见。

love life

“只要你热爱自己的生命，你就不会做出伤害自己的事情。”

在事情发生后，很多人都会有很多问号..

为什么她要这么做？
是谁让她选择走向绝路？
我们要如何面对这样的噩耗？
这种悲剧到底要发生到什么时候？
到底什么力量能够阻止这一切？

类似的悲剧，发生在我生命的周遭，第二次。
我只有一个问题...
上帝，我能为还活着的人做什么？

不想在报章上看到熟悉的脸孔，
不想我身边的人的微笑，成为一个永在怀念中的回忆。

我要热爱我的生命。
我永远都不要放弃。

这个世界上，还有许多人不舍得放弃你，你知道吗？

看到好多人到你的FB留言，我呆着许久，不知道要讲什么。可能我们已经好多年没有面对面说话了。
但我还记得你那响亮又娇气的声音...
最后，写下了
" Shyn Lyn... T-T"

陈欣宁，永在怀念中。



我流泪，
我在天堂，可能也看不到他们...

For B.

I just found out that one of my childhood friend was gone.
He was drowned to death during a trip to the beaches in Terengganu.
His mom is my mom's good friend, and now my mom is rushing to see if she's ok.

He was a very bright boy.
I think he just graduated as a medical doctor not long ago.
He's the only son.

His mom must be heartbroken.

RIP Ah Ben gor gor.

Babies in Heaven.

heard a sad news.
Reminds me of this book. "JESSE found in heaven"

If a baby died in the mother's womb... where will he/she be?

Heard this touching story from Ps Christine Pringle during Asia Conference last year.
Below are quoted from CityNews.

" Chris shared deeply about dealing with the loss of an infant, a small child through miscarriage, termination or still birth. Her own personal experience was when she was a young woman, barely 20, pregnant with her first child. Chris (and her husband Phil Pringle) ran a home group for youth in their own home at the time. She was about 15 weeks pregnant when she found herself bleeding one day, a day of her home group. Before the youth group arrived at her house, Chris decided to head home and rest.

As a young Christian, she thought only good things happened to Christians, so she did not think the bleeding was anything serious. But the bleeding got worse, and “I still remember, the youth were singing praises in the next room, and I was in my bedroom, bleeding, losing my baby.” Chris drew no comfort from people telling her “Maybe it is for the best” or “It is going to be all right”. But peace and assurance came upon her when someone told her, “I believe that God is flushing out your body of all the drugs,” in reference to her previous lifestyle before she came to the Lord.

Many, many years later, a friend showed Chris a video of a vision of heaven. After watching the video, she went into her room. There she heard praise and worship, and felt two arms envelope her. Up to that point, she had not grieved for her lost child, but she started crying now. It was as though she was in this incredible bubble where she could just weep and everything was still. She received a vision of a tall, handsome young man with longish hair — and the Lord told her it was her son, Jesse. Heaven, shared Chris, that’s where the babies go when they are lost on Earth. They are rescued by angels and brought into Heaven, where they grow. When she saw Jesse, he was 23 - exactly the age he would be if he had lived. "

There's this poem Ps Christine wrote to Jesse.

During her sharing session, I wept like a baby. Maybe not many of you know... I am suppose to have an elder sister. My mom had a miscarriage after being stung by a bee.
But now I know I will be seeing her in Heaven one day. She must be very beautiful.

Dear M&A, I felt so sorry for your baby. I can't control my tears when I heard the news.
As much as we grieve, we ought to know that little baby is in our Heavenly Father's safe arms. Angels are protecting little baby and we will see him/her one day.

Yes that's for sure.

Updated: Her name is Cassie Ng.

rip

“一粒麦子不落在地里死了，仍旧是一粒；若是死了，就结出许多子粒来。” 约翰福音12：24

今晚好沉重，惋惜一个年轻的生命。

Connie, 你应该见到天父了吧。
在他那里有永恒的安息，天国见。

For C.

life can be so fragile.
but I believe in miracles.
Stay strong Connie.

认真的女人最美丽

位子的view拍不到正面，来个projector screen view吧~
期待下一次的个人秀!
朝着Nodame的梦想前进吧~

love makes me go wee~

Hau Wei & Peggen.

Stumbled upon this great photographer's site and saw a sweet video featuring their engagement.
Hau Wei & Peggan, both are great leaders of Planetshakers Church. When God create couples, He has great plans for them. When 2 great people are united, the POWER is unlimited. I look up upon them.

Peggen was my one-day cell group leader when I was attending Planetshakers Australia. I don't know her much but this woman of God left great impact in my life, and I believe, in many many lives. She's really a woman of faith.

I once heard about a prayer session led by her, can you imagine when not even one prayer is left unanswered? That's her level of faith.

I can still remember during my farewell party last year, she gave me a huge firm hug and said to me: "Angeline, I never worried about you. You can make it!"
and yes I am making it happen.

During the sharing session, I mentioned that I've learned a lot from PlanetUni and I hope I will make a difference when I'm back in my home church.
She interrupted with a stern look: "What do you mean by "you hope"? YOU WILL!"
and yes I will make it happen.

When you are weak, stand with someone strong.
When your faith is like a little spark, stand with someone with faith like flame.
She might not know, but she's one person who holds me up.


Oh ya, they are getting married on my birthday. I'll dedicate my birthday wish for them.

Irish farewell

Finnegan's Irish Pub
Food was ok..good ambiance, great music + hot angmos.

camera not working well. so pics are like taken during an earthquake.

Last day of the studying semester.

Empty glasses
and a bunch of awesome peeps.

Loving uni life.

An eventful day too...
we got a drunk monitor
car keys in the car boot
HD scholar rocking in hot pants
lastly a RM687.70 bill.

Dried.

5:00pm - 2000words literature review due.
4:00pm - 1309 words.
4:30pm - 1309 words.

whatever...print first.

4:35pm - sudden down pour of rain.
4:40pm - printer ran out of ink.

Option 1: Replace ink cartridge, print, drift to uni = late submission
Option 2: Drift to uni, hunt for computer, queue for printer = late submission
Option 3: Smash the printer, curl up at corner, cry = late submission

Life is full of options, useless options.

4:45pm - Jing sms: I got your review, printed, handed in.
5:00pm - replace ink cartridge, curl up at a corner, give thanks to God.

Coming to the final final days of uni..
I concluded that without you guys...I can't survive.

Jing: Always kena rush like hell to hand in assignment for me. Even when you are occupied with your own work, you never say no for helping me. T__T

Ming: Provide me with report examples whenever I need them, my midnight partner & alarm clock..

HXuan: My poor partner..always have to do most of the assignment loads. Pleas forgive this non-contributing partner..

MHui: Entertaining me during stressful times..always the cheerful angel.

Sophia: Thanks for helping me with the method of reviewing the articles..

My darling: although u don't understand what is Bacillus licheniformis, but you stay up all night giving me all the support I needed.

Dear Father in heaven...tough time won't last, but tough people last forever.
I am tough because of all the people you place around me, they held me strong.

Darling, jing, ming, hxuan, mhui, sophia: THANK YOU...T__T

Years later...

we are not where we used to be.
we walked on different paths, lead on different lives.
but somehow,
I still remember the nights we talked about our dreams.
my heart still beats the same rhythm.
how about yours?

Some friends, you cherish them in a very special way.
you are one.

如果觉得是你，那就是写给你的吧。

发现你还是把自己沉醉在郁闷中。
这么多年了，还是把自己绷那么紧。

有时觉得对你同情，
希望自己能够在你身边，为你做些什么。

有时觉得对你生气，
希望你能好好振作，别钻牛角尖。

有时却觉得与你共鸣，
希望和你两杯啤酒一起喝个不省人事。

人心像个甜甜圈，永远填不满的空洞。
相信你也知道不能这样下去。
表面厌倦孤寂渴望解脱，
背后却暗地里喂养你那浮沉的情绪。

溺水了，
多少双手愿意拉你一把，
你却享受在痛苦的挣扎中。

不难了解这种心理，
有时束缚久了，反而害怕垂手可得的自由。

放宽心，释开怀
开始寻找另一种快乐吧。
至少在你闭上眼睛的那一刻，心是打开的。

近来读到一句话：
“想要和得到，中间还有两个字：做到。
原来信念这玩意，不是说出来的，是做出来的。”

心中所想的，
实践它吧。

10 things you will do in Full House

1) Comment on the white interior deco.

哇，很白哦！不错不错... 不过，很容易肮脏hor?
haha...so lame la u.

2) Comment on the hand drawn menu.


3) Take lots of pictures of your food.

ok la..I know nowadays people take pictures of everything on the table.

4) Try on all their shades but not buying any.

I wonder if they do manage to sell those stuffs?

5) Play with the hats.

Repeat: I wonder if they really really do manage to sell those stuffs?

6) Play hide & seek behind the bath curtains.


7) Sit/step inside the bath tub.

so many shoe prints inside wei!

8) Take picture with the car outside.

this is standard

9) Do some drama using everything available as props.


10) But i like this most...

Listening to old stories from Sa
Lame jokes from TH
Happenings from Chew Weng
Be as blurr as J
Laugh as loud as Rue



So... anything familiar for you? :)

mush talk: Bye Jane...will miss you very much.