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Because someone posted this as her timeline cover photo.
Hm, might as well change mine too.
How's life everyone?
56 days into married life, one word: awesome.

*Rejoice in the Lord always, again I say, REJOICE!*

Forty days.

Counting down. 

The number 40 carries special meaning in the bible.

I am too lazy to write so here's a cut & paste version from the web:

"The number 40 holds particular significance in the Bible and refers to a precise number, not just a long period of time. There are at least ten instances in the Old Testament and New Testament where 40 occurs, either in years or days, e.g. it rained for 40 days and 40 nights, Moses was on the mountain 40 days and 40 nights, the Israelites wandered 40 years, Jesus fasted in the wilderness for 40 days and was seen on the earth for 40 days after His crucifixion.

A 40-something time period, whether days, months, or years is ALWAYS a period of testing, trial, probation, or chastisement (but not judgment) and ends with a period of restoration, revival or renewal."

A period of testing, trial, probation, or chastisement. 

Somewhat true to my situation right now.

In 40 days time, I will step into a whole new level of life. I'll be doing life and sharing a future together with another person. Rejoice.

In fact, I am more looking forward for a change. Yes, CHANGE. *Obama style*

But deep down in my heart, I know this is not what God wants me to expect. I am merely hoping for an escape, rather than a breakthrough. God knows it... and shamefully, I knew it too.

If I were to keep this mindset til the day comes, I shall face great disappointment as true FREEDOM comes from a truly SET FREE HEART.

I was truly moved by a sermon preached by Ps Philip Mantofa during M4J.

"Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it." Proverbs 4:23

My heart...

Please withstand the 40 days trial and in the name of Jesus, my heart shall experience restoration, revival and renewal. 

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Just like what I've posted in FB. It has been a crazy week!

Roller coaster ride physically, emotionally and spiritually.

Guess I will not elaborate too much here. 

But I praise God and thank Him for giving me the chance to serve in the Kingdom.

First time playing keyboard with our worship team in such big scale event. 

First time being an English interpreter in such a big scale event.

First time prayed for so many sick people and they actually got healed!

But again, one thing I should remind myself: 

Do not be satisfied with past success. Just like what Ps Philip said:

" I shall die tonight, so that I can have new mercy the next day. So that God can continue to use me in new ways."

Not by my might and power but by God's spirit. 

Another thing that I pray, that God will help me to balance my life.

I have no idea how but I shall be led by the Holy Spirit everyday.

"Di saat ku tak berdaya, kuasaMu yang sempurna."

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Coming back to the subject. 

To my future husband:

I will be united with you, my God given soul mate, in 40 days time. 

It is not about the destination, but the journey that matters. 

I love you very much, because God has first loved us.

I pray that God will protect and lead us through the 40 days of challenging trial.

See you at the altar. :)

想起

想起你走过的路。
8个月就这样过了...

我们要看见复兴了，你在天父那里为我们加油哦！

好，振作起来！

Hope of all hearts

Listening to this song tonight moved me, moved me so much that I surrendered and cried.
When Pastor Russell speaks towards the end of the song,
God brought me 4 years back, to Melbourne, to Planetshakers City Church.
To where my spirit was at its ultimate brokenness.
To where my life was at its total mess, hopeless, at its deepest pit.
I literally ran away from life to Melbourne in 2008, with a deeply broken heart.

One Sunday I went to Planetshakers City Church, I was late cos I was still unfamiliar with the transportation there. The worship team was singing Deeper when I reached.
When God wants to heal you, He will do it at His timing, when you least expected.
I literally cried my way finding a seat...
"I need more of You, more of You, Jesus." the lyrics went...
When I was in my deepest brokenness, He knows that all I need is Him, Jesus alone.
God came true to me at my first step into His church... I was being comforted, healed and renewed.
And from that day, my heart cried for one thing: to experience God like never before.

Miracles happened almost everyday and I felt God everywhere, every time.
I can stay up all night worshipping God and drown in His presence.
I experienced supernatural provision financially.
I was blessed with so many great people around me.
I found a dream. I gain back my courage to live for Him.
Each day was like a new encounter with my Creator.

4 years later, one night, here I am...
God came true to me once again. I found myself in the embrace of my God...
The same God I experienced 4 years back in Melbourne...
The same God who visited me every single day when I drew near to Him.
The same God who loves me more than anyone else.
The same God who saved me from the darkess times.
The same God who called me to live for Him and Him only.

Jesus, He is the hope for all hearts.
In the darkness, in trial, my soul shall sing of His mercy and kindness.
Our offering of praise.
Our God never fails. His love never fails.

For those of you who knew Jesus,
We are so blessed, so blessed to have Jesus as our Saviour.
He is our hope no matter what you are facing, no matter how hard is life hitting you,
HE IS YOUR HOPE.

For those who don't know Jesus personally,
You shall find the answer in Jesus, the answer to all your problems, weakness, sickness, struggles.
Because He loves you, no matter who you are.
HE IS YOUR HOPE.

When life gets tough, always remember Jesus.
Plug in your earphones, and listen to this song.
A song which reminds you:
Jesus is the same, yesterday, today and forever.
His love never fails. Never.

my

pastor taught us not to post negative status in FB...

I'll post it here then.

"Feeling a bit lonely suddenly."

ok, don't go beat up Mr Leong cz it's totally not that kind of lonely...

Just a very light feeling of alone-ness.

Nehemiah 8:10 "Do not grieve, for the joy of the LORD is your strength.” 

:)

Read this post with high speed.

*Knock knock*

Me: Hi doctor...
Doc: Teay Ning Ann is it? Sit sit..
Me: *sits*
Doc: What happen?
Me: Flu...yesterd...
Doc: Got fever?
Me: ... Er...
Doc: *Stuck thermometer into my ear* Nevermind I check. *Pulls out thermometer* Hm no fever..yet.
Me: ...Oh...and..
Doc: *Points torchlight at my nostrils*  Hm nose blocked.
Me: ...ya..
Doc: *Stuck wooden stick into my mouth* Say AA....
Me: ...aaaAa..
Doc: oh got red.. soar throat..
Doc: I will give you medication for your cough..flu..throat..something for your nose..and take antibiotic..
*Scribble scribble on the screen* dunsleepunderthefan...noaircondalso..drinkmorewatersleepandrest....
Me: .......
Doc: want mc?
Me: .... no...
Doc: okthat'sitbyebye.
Me: bai.

This whole conversation lasted about 2 min or less.
I wonder did he manage to look at me for a second or not.

The next thing was...RM65 flew out of my purse and a bag full of ill-tasting candies and syrup followed me home.

Jo said the man inside the clinic is not a doctor..he's just someone with the license to give you drugs.
I think he knew what to give me right after I said the word "flu"..the other diagnosis steps are just procedures.
2 mins = RM65... Doctors just go open your own clinic...good money.

A post for March

My head is so blank I really don't know what to write.
Gotta make it a point to write at least one pathetic post for each month.
So...A random design for a new blog header.
Like it? :)

Oh ya. Maybe one reminder for myself:
My God loves me so much, that He sent angels all around me.
Thank you mommy, darling, Ps Chu, Ps Meng, CPM team & iCampus.
I am too blessed like a little flower under a warm shelter. I shall be strong, be joyful and bless others.