导演，我们做到了。

我最想念的导演

我想告诉你，
我们做到了。
没有你的日子，我不知道我怎样走过来...
我不知道那里来的力量...让CPM走到今天。

Kevin...
去年2010年12月19日...
《4320》创造了制作组的奇迹。
多么多的不可能，在你的带领下，
都一一实现。
你告诉我们说，不要轻言放弃。

今天2011年12月19日..
你再一次创造了不可能的奇迹。
你用你的生命换来许多生命的改变...

虽然上帝知道我们非常舍不得你...
但他更知道我们需要你带来的神迹。

今天后台的状况真的让我一度以为《单程旅客》演不成了。
在那一瞬间我闭起双眼，不要轻言放弃...
我知道上帝爱你，他会为我们开道路。
就在千钧一发的瞬间...电脑荧幕重新操作，向牧师比了ok的手势，你的故事顺利上演。
虽然面对电脑随时当机的情况，我不断地祷告...
我祈求上帝，让杜凯文最大的制作能完美呈现。
在最后的一个短片播完，我盖上剧本，深呼吸。
走到台前拿了麦克风，为Kallpana合音，唱完献给你的一首歌。
在闭上双眼演唱的时候，我感受到你的满足，我感受到上帝为你预备的一切美好。

走回后台，我一腿软跌坐在PA台旁...
头一底，眼泪不停地掉。
或许是如释重负，还是这段时间忍得太久...
牧师分享的时候，眼泪不停打转...

我真的真的好想念你。
有你在的日子，我知道你为我承担了多少重担...
这一次你不在了，我逼着自己长大，学习承担我以前不需要负的责任。
今天，
我想告诉你，
我们做到了。
 

你的梦想，我们会一直一直为你实现下去...
我答应你，我不会放弃。

Kevin...
献给你...



We two have run about the slopes,
and picked the daisies fine ;
But we’ve wandered many a weary foot,
since auld lang syne.

We two have paddled in the stream,
from morning sun till dine^† ;
But seas between us broad have roared
since auld lang syne.

And there’s a hand my trusty friend !
And give us a hand o’ thine !
And we’ll take a right good-will draught,
for auld lang syne.

凌晨

好像很习惯这样了。
超级不好的习惯...

刚才和印刷商通电话的时候应该也预了会这样。
很突然的job啦，加上心虚虚... 因为不知道有没有通过approve的project。
算吧，做好分内事，其它的就少管。（拼命祷告不要发生什么是才好）

既然这么早，去睡觉很浪费，睡下去又怕起不来...
来废话一下咯。

废话 1
我真的开始担心自己的健康
没有睡好，繁忙的工作，三餐不定...
咳了两个星期不会好...
前几天好像没有吃什么但不觉得饿。
这是什么症状啊？
想到接下来的行程表真的不敢病... 还是注意注意比较好。

废话2
我真的在法律上成为人妻了
感觉怪怪，因为“有名无实”。哈哈哈哈...
刚注册后的那天到教会，梁太太前梁太太后...
还有，竟然有人问我怎么没有和梁先生一起来？
咋到。我们还没有住一起好不好。
再重复：在基督徒婚礼后才算数ok!

废话3
房间的衣橱门脱落了，爸爸叫我自己钉。
房门锁头坏了，爸爸叫我自己弄。
妈妈买了4个书橱，我替他组装好。
店里装修敲敲打打搬搬台台...
同事问我是不是女的。

废话4
2011年要过去了！！！！！
今天也未必过的太快了吧 @@

废话5
最近很夯的《那些年，我们一起追过的女孩》...
或许我对它期望太高了。
还是比较喜欢看在youtube的幕后花絮... 听导演及演员们分享好像比看戏来的精彩。
其实是有好看啦，（起码梁先生至今对它念念不忘...一直讲一直讲... = =）
只是总觉得... 很多东西还不够...AHH...That's right!! 你明白吗？
不要紧，等我们CPM拍的青春热血片吧！
（屁啦，八字没一撇还青春热血叻...）

废话6   这不是废话！
《单程旅客》 真的是一部很棒的制作。
如果你在马来西亚的话，我真的鼓励你百忙之中也要抽空来支持。
演员们的档期真的要我吐血... 但我们还真的完成了拍摄的部分！
上个星期拍到我们差点晕到... 11场戏！！！一天内拍了11场戏！
从3pm开始拍到11:30pm，中间几乎没有停止过。
我知道大家已经到累到极限，所以到晚上医院的一场戏大家开始语无伦次，行为异常。
Details 迟点跟你们讲...不要紧啦...开心就好。

.......

Yay! 6am了，应该可以SMS印刷商了。
好吧，废话到这里。

p/s: 噢，看到新的Blog Header吗？可以download去放你的blog...如果你要的话啦。我没有逼你。

 click the picture to enlarge

又是依末的季节

是正面的依末 :)
看了《单程旅客》的预告片吗？



我自己已经看了N遍... 说我自恋吧，我恋上了我们的制作。
 说真的，首映那天早上，牧师看了目瞪口呆... 在稍后会议的时候赞得Billy （剪接师）天上有地下没有。
首映那天早上，梁先生看了红了眼眶，aunty看了频擦泪。
首映那天早上，我看了心里想你了。

很感动啊...
或许有人说，我们之所以这么有感觉，因为我们是杜凯文故事里的角色。
对于一些不认识他的人来说，可能不过是一部催泪说教的作品。

我们不是要做一部戏来自爽。

杜凯文是我们在这个世界上最重要的朋友。
杜凯文是我生命里最重要的朋友。

就如前篇，这部预告片差点因为太少画面而难产。
能够完成到这样的水准，加上观众们的回响...我们的确有少少心虚...
我只能说，这是上帝的作为。

《单程旅客》打从一开始，就是上帝的制作。

还记得那天晚上，杜凯文还在医院，我在家望着照片...想起他的点滴...
我向上帝祷告，求你，让杜凯文完成他的心愿：做一部更大的制作。
画面，故事，一幕一幕浮现在脑海里...
隔天我兴奋地跑去告诉牧师：上帝给了我们一个最棒的故事---杜凯文的故事！
我们聊了好久，好兴奋。
“杜凯文的角色是该由谁演绎？”
“等杜凯文好起来，他自己演！”
“..... Amen....。”

我不明白牧师的迟延，我信心十足。

剧本没有写出来，他走了。
 结果剧本里没有了最后一幕。我心中好多个为什么...
今天我终于明白，上帝的结局，最美。


我相信，他的故事，必定能让你们，他们，每一个人...学习，感恩，感动。

制作杜凯文的故事，让我们一夜长大。

这次拍摄感觉好不同，大家团结的心意，没有埋怨，全心全意... 我知道，都是因为杜凯文。:)

印象很深刻，饰演杜凯文妈妈的美清姐，在拍照顾重病的凯文一幕...
在台词念完了后很久...我都没有喊卡。
最后喊卡的时候，看到妈妈哭了。哭得好厉害...
我们都静默了好久.. 大家的心境应该都回到三个月前了。
跟在第一次念剧本给制作组的时候一样，
当Deric拿着一把走音的吉他唱着写给凯文的一首歌，我们都哭了。

我们真的很用心，很用心地制作这部戏... 因为凯文的生命值得我们纪念，值得与大家分享。

恳切邀请你，一起见证这个生命带给大家的勇气，坚持  与  爱。
与我们一起，完成杜凯文的心愿...这是杜凯文的制作，最棒的制作。

感动

虽然已经是凌晨2：15am...
心里的感动，很想记录下来。

刚做完《单程旅客》的trailer，
真的，感谢上帝。

因为演员们“档期”的问题，拍摄进度延后很多。
说真的，真的是太少footage可以放进trailer 里面。
和Billy一起想一大堆文字拖延时间... wahaha...

回到家里，把trailer从新看一遍...
我好感动。
能够和杜凯文一起制作这部舞台剧，我很荣幸。

我们时间有限，人力有限... 但你一定会说：不要轻言放弃，否则对不起上帝。
很感谢演员们的敬业，摄影队的付出，幕后工作人员的辛劳，教会牧师及领袖的祷告...
杜凯文，如果你还在，一定会称赞我们的。

我们一定能够做得到。
为上帝，为凯文...
我们一定能够。

11。11。11

感谢各界亲朋好友亲身到来，

远从各国各界的信息，

FB炸爆我notification的祝福等等。

今天法律上是人家的老婆了。

p/s: 但是，基督徒正式结为夫妻，乃是要等到婚礼过后哦。

21.7.2012

到时早点到，红包记得大大的 :p

幸福啦~

Sometimes

I just want to stick a piece of paper on my forehead saying:
"DO NOT TALK TO ME."
when I walk into my office.

Overwhelmed by too many things.
Doing one thing at a time is luxury.
I'm blur with priorities.
Everyone says this is more important, that is less.
Everyone wants a piece of me...
Just tear me apart ba...

I am taking my time, doing somebody else' work.
I am wasting my life, living somebody else' life.

Being too nice for so long...
Just let me... let me...say

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!

I would appreciate some space some time and some love.
sorry and thank you.


ehem. complaining isn't making me feel better.
so shut up la me.

在办公室里等学生放学

听着《那些年》的主题曲，手中的滑鼠来回click。
不知不觉做了这张海报。
应该不是finalize的吧... 还没有经过approve 就放上fb :p
引起的不便请见谅。

最近的设计很minimalism风。不是黑白就是fade out... 然后字少少，很多留白的空间。
这跟我boss的喜好很有出入，他喜欢黄橙红的说... (不要跟他讲我酱讲plss...)
不过，I like it this way.

喜欢人事物最简约，纯朴的一面。
留白的空间就让看得人添上自己的颜色，写上自己的心里话...
然后，自然看见自己内心的图画。


本来poster里还有两句话，
“每个旅途都有结束的时候     你是否知道，终点在那里？”
应该是layout的问题，看来看去还没有到“Ahh...就是这样！”的feel...

沉思了一会... (屁啦，还沉思...= = )
把两句话删掉，
写上：
“大家好，我叫凯文。”

忽然会心一笑，
他真的常常这样介绍自己。
看着看着，仿佛看见真的凯文，拿着皮箱，戴 着一顶他从来不会戴的帽子。
阔达又带点傻气的笑容...
跟大家说：

“大家好，我叫凯文。”


Ahh...就是这样。
: )



凯文的故事，12月感动上演。

I am

a very LAST MINUTE person.

some of you reading might say... ABUDEN??

16 pages of content draft + graphic design for Newcomers Welcome Booklet
Christmas production promotion materials (flyers, invitation card, bookmark)

All by 10am later.


I thought... yes I assume I'll have the whole Monday to finish up all these..
but a sudden trip to Ipoh freaked me out... I only have 8 hours left.

I literally begged Aunty Evon to give me one more day...
All I get was a cold message: "They are not working on Wednesday...so...I think quite impossible."

Regretssssss.
So regret for being a last minute person.
This is serious shit.


ok you say it..
"ABUDEN!!!??"

it has arrived.

Although some people might avoid talking about you,

but I'll somehow think of u a little, 

talk about u a little..

sometimes.

Christmas this year, is all yours.

A story about you and God.

Be with us,

this is your greatest production.

It will be.

A photobook of you.

I'm gonna give it to your mom. 

I remember asking you this question in my dreams.

"We know that you are not here with us anymore,

but why somehow I can still feel that you are around?"

I know many of us feel the same way too.

We miss you..

like, a lot.

mission must possible.

"You sure you wanna look like this when I propose to you?"

I pulled myself out of bed to gym.

After 20mins on the treadmill...

"Good. I think your legs are still not pass for the short dress you want to wear for our ROM."

I threw myself on the bike for another 20mins.

"That tummy might spoil your wedding gown you know.."

Okay okay.. 3 sets of sit ups.

"Darling you did such a great job :)"

That's my evil personal trainer.

I can only have soup for dinner T_____T

Dear God... I need to shake off that chunk of extra fat...in a month's time.
I know through You I can do all things.
This is Mr Leong's prayer. Amen.

转眼就永远

永远
是个很遥远的字眼。

转眼
代表的何止是那一瞬间？

爱如果可以到永远
你是否能陪我到那天？

爱如果只能在瞬间
一转眼你会不会不见

梦如果可以实现
应该不会太远


可是我好像把梦遗忘在昨天。


找不回        寻不见
想你的时候就闭上眼
聆听风声雨声
和你模糊的再见

只能珍惜有你的瞬间
哪怕一转眼
就是永远。

哪怕一转眼
你不在身边。

。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

许多话想说但不知从何说起
真的艺术家的忧郁不是骗人的。
我不是说我是艺术家，也不是说我很忧郁
那种半夜三更外面下雨的effect真的很恼人。

十月了...
2011年快到尾声。
这年大起大落，经历的怎能用言语形容？
我的心啊， 我的心...
你辛苦了。

说故事的人，
说的总是别人的故事。

忙碌的人
忙得总是别人的事。

只能说还活着是礼物
还忙着是祝福
能知足是一种幸福。

我的心啊，我的心...

Pik Chek again.

See my post last year...
http://angeline-ning.blogspot.com/2010/07/pik-chek.html

Well... I'm in the same old situation AGAIN.
Just that...
Mr Director is not here to bug me...
He's not here to blow me up the wall...
He's not here to see if I'm ok...

It's not easy...
to make myself dwelling in his story over and over again.
to make myself recall every single heartbreaking details.
to dig out memories from his love ones.
I hate doing that.

and this just makes me miss him more.

I believe it's for a greater cause.
I just have to keep myself together.
Chill. I'm perfectly fine.

just...

PIK CHEK 2.0!!!!!!

haha :D

Beautiful.

Beautiful 全然美丽

Beautiful     你是全然美丽

我身 我心 我灵   都要赞美你

耶稣          你是全然美丽

一生 一世 永远   都要敬拜你 

在Only God Church Camp 按手礼时的感动。

　我的耶稣，全然美丽。

　Everything is beautiful in my life, because my God is...

COMPLETELY. ABSOLUTELY. BEAUTIFUL.

some deep shit moments

I am late for an appointment and...
- my car ran out of fuel
- forgot to reload my Touch n Go card
- my brake lights are still not functioning.

I need to reply an important SMS from my student and...
- my phone's keypad is not functioning
- I'm alone in the office
- I couldn't even call back cz I can't scroll the phone screen to see the number

I came home from a tiring working day and...
- I forgot to bring the house keys (it's 1am)
- my brother just don't feel like picking up the phone
- the worst part......

THIS STUPID COCKROACH IS BLOCKING MY WAY TO THE BATHROOM!!!!

so here I am..
sitting at my bro's com and blog...
hoping that the cockroach decides to go back to its shitty dark drain and let me bathe.


p/s: hey it's September already!

30 minutes.

 

用工作间隔的30分钟写一篇纪念他的稿，说是要放在他追思聚会的program book。

只给我30分钟，我望着电脑，脑子一片空白...

游走FB及部落各，果然有好多写给他的post。想参考参考，毕竟怎么可能30分钟内就能写好关于一个人的一生...

字打了又删，删了又打。

思绪定格在那张又熟悉又怜惜的脸...

写下...

" 我们都记得他温柔，体贴人的心。宁愿自己吃亏，为要让身边的人快乐。

他从不好胜，但他心里总对自己要达成的目标有一股莫名的坚持。

凭着这份坚持，他总是能够鼓励身边的人，他常说：“不要轻言放弃，否则对不起上帝”。

在他抗癌的期间，我们更加能够看见，他以行动证明他永不放弃的信念 。

他偶尔会提起说，他还有很多事情没有做，他还想为他所爱的人付出些什么…

他或许不知道，Kevin Too这个名字，带给多少人生命中的震撼！

我们或许觉得很惋惜，这么年轻的生命，这么大好前景的生命…

但，

因着他对上帝的信靠，我们的信心也与他一起成长。

因着他积极的对抗病魔，我们也抹去眼泪选择与他并肩作战。

因着他的勇气，我们也变得刚强。

Kevin ，你是我们的英雄。

我们知道上帝比我们任何一个人更加爱你，你已经完成了天父要你走的路，而且完成的很漂亮。

我们会记得你，当我们都完成了自己该走的旅程，就在天堂见你。"

看看表，30分钟，按下Send。

看看自己，看到昨晚忍到今天的眼泪...

Kevin...天堂见。

Tonight

I cried.
Jesus cried for Lazarus, and Lazarus was revived.
If only my tears could move God's heart...
so that he will be healed.
I am willing to cry him a river.

Listening to "Believe in love, you will see miracles" by SOP while editing some photos taken in the hospital.
Tears flow...
And I let it flow.

There is no greater love than to lay down one's life for one's friends. (John 15:13)

We love you too much to let you go.
We too, know God's love for you surpasses all love man can give.
Jesus lay down His life for you, there is no greater love than this.

So you be strong, Kevin.

We believe together with you.

Love you.

I am reminded

that God will always reserve the VERY BEST for me.
I have been loosing faith a little, worrying a little lately...
Feeling like walking away...from the big problems ahead.

But yea, I am reminded again today,
that I am a princess in God's eyes,
that I am mommy's precious daughter,
that I am his one and only love,
that all my dreams will come true,
that I deserve all wonderful things in the world.
that I have been receiving so much love.

It's May 31st

I blog in order to add 1 more pathetic post to the only 1 pathetic post for May archive.

I never thought work will wear me down and tear me off the time to blog. My blog needs salvation.

This will be boring and random and with no pics.

Stepping into the next half of year 2011 in approximately 3 minutes, time flies like Buzz Lightyear.
Some update about me so far:

- We've submitted our booking forms to JPN for R.O.M on November 11...just in case you are not aware. *ehem*
- Feeling a little shy being in the limelight when people start flooding my FB page with wishes and blessings.
- Bought my 13th wedding magazine and downloaded my 3rd wedding planner guide.
- Gotta love Martha Stewart Weddings. I finish reading EVERYTHING in 2 days.
- Having so many plans in my head but ditched nearly all of them due to my empty pocket.
- We've made a booking of 40 tables with Oriental Pavilion but have to ditch that too cos my mom just decided to have an 'Organic' dinner banquet.
- Had a hard time choosing my bridal party especially my bridesmaid. If  I were to show you the list... I will have a few dozens of bridesmaid. And he's gonna kill me.
- Had a hard time following my weight lost plan. Cos I simply don't have one.
- I have not put my hands into anything about wedding for 2 weeks now. That's a good sign.
- But now I'm blogging all updates on wedding. That's bad.
- And heck, it's 12:10am and I shall backdate this post to yesterday..

Cz this post suppose to be another pathetic post added to the only pathetic post for MAY.

剩下的发现。

从去年9月到今天过了7个月，还有4个发现还没写...如果你们还记得的话。
不记得？自己去看： 发现#1 - #4    发现#5 - #6

发现#7
怪不得我7个月来吃不好，睡不着，原来还欠你们4个发现！！
（酱就搞定一个发现？？你很敷衍一下je!!)
不爽不要看la.. :p

发现#8
我发梦都梦见的事情快要发生了... 心情像喝了一碗bak kut teh + milo粉 + 过期yogurt...
五味参杂........................... 还会肚子痛 @@
如果你们听说什么/怀疑什么/真的知道什么，请有忍耐加上持守的美德。
谢绝媒体采访，对散播谣言者（无论属实或不属实）将保留提告的权利。
你们都知道我走的是华丽的D调路线。
谢谢。

发现#9
我真的很穷。
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词穷。

（你又像酱子敷衍掉一个发现？ X@!!nk0*&^$####......）

请你保留我对你的一点点尊重... 这是一篇善良纯洁的部落格，请注重您的遺词用字。
谢谢。

钱到用时方恨少。
发现很多梦想因为没有家财万贯而被迫...放弃。
我钱包里有很多纸... 很多receipt纸...
看着漂亮的婚纱，美美的照片, 马尔代夫的沙滩...

我说我的财宝积儹在天上。(馬太福音6:19-24)

其实，我已经很满足 :)

发现#10
三个月减掉10公斤是不可能的。
白旗。

吃！


yay! 总算对你们有个交待。

我期待

我期待。

If you are interested in reading my post on my dream wedding.

well... my dream changed a bit.

but yes I am still very much anticipating :)

A new way to think about creativity - Elizabeth Gilbert

The best creativity video I have ever seen. | Stuff Christians Like – Jon Acuff

 I don't know why the video didn't show up but you can follow this link to the video anyway.

"creative people have this reputation for being enormously mentally unstable"
I laughed at this statement, and later sunk into deep thoughts.

Yes..how true is that.
At least once in your lifetime, you will have this worry of being sucked off all your creative juices...
and turn into a dry piece of junk, eventually kicked out by all the "new blood" "upcoming creative minds".. you name it.

"The most extraordinary aspects of your being didn't came from you, maybe they were on loan to you, to be passed along when you're finished. with somebody else." - Elizabeth Gilber.

Elizabeth used this illustration of the people in the desserts of North Africa centuries ago. People used to gather for moonlight dances which are magnificent because all the dancers are professionals.
But somehow, once in a while, there will be an "extraordinary" one. In present terms, "God-like". So the crowd will go shouting " Allah, Allah!" meaning "God, God!". This is because they know that the magnificent extraordinary performance is not by human, it's a glimpse of God.

We, creative people of this present time, have experienced that in one or more stage of our creative journey. We achieved something better than great, there are applause, praises, celebrations...
but what's next?
Just like the moon dancer, falling back to the old self the very next morning, wondering if he/she could ever do that again?

What's next?
Sometimes we don't even know which part of our being has this power to create such success.

Simply because we didn't create them. It's a supernatural power.

In Genesis 1 says, God created the heaven and the earth.
He is the master of all creation. Creativity comes from Him alone.

We are but vessels, receiving gifts and talents from above, then deliver to the world.

It's never about us... no matter how gifted you are in the creative field.
Creative Production Ministry is never about us...no matter how many past successes we've achieved.
I will continually remind myself, it's never ever about me.

It took me a long while, to give back the credits...to the Creator, the one who created me.
But I thank God I did.
Maybe you should do the same too :)

我有一部不错的相机，人家讲的。

认识我的人应该都见过它 - MAX.
很多人常说，MAX就像幽魂 - 你不知道什么时候会被拍到。
当你发觉的时候，你那副衰样已经给世界第三大国的人民一览无遗。可能还留了comment添！

我想去买间木屋，里面放mini theater, 一张水床，按摩椅，

木桌上放一台MacBook Pro, iPhone, iPad 2。

木橱放个LV Bag，一双Jimmy Choo, 一枚Cartier.

还有位就park一辆 GT-R R35，白色。

记得很久以前我讲过我的婚礼要纯白色。

现在想下...很leong又很chang ngan.

 那块红色的布很抢眼

有没有鬼戏的feel?

我还是不知道要写什么。

我的favorite。

有时我有点paiseh, paiseh自己学人家扮pro.

《EXIT出口》剧照。

每次的production我们都有director of photography.

每次的event都有official photogrpaher.

我只是那个没有DSLR，unofficial，

可是又不甘心，在旁边死命拍，在FB死命post的那个。

我有一部不错的相机，

我只会用auto intelligence 及 pin hole effect。

 所以才成为那个靠边站的人。

怪谁je? (bitter) 

可是我爽。

我喜欢。

我的梦想是成为周游四国的旅行者，拍下我所爱的画面，

写下想法，画下感觉

出版自己的书

给自己看 :)

你要看？跟我借啦。

《EXIT 出口》

A very special production by Creative Production Ministry of PCKL.
A combination of artistic cinematography, still photography, dances & songs.
Yet another great production you won't want to miss.
Follow this link for more Pictures on shooting.

《EXIT 出口》
Date: 29.5.2011 (Sun)
Time: 11:00am-1:00pm / 3:00pm-5:00pm
Venue: Bentley Music Auditorium
           Wisma Bentley Music
           3, Jalan PJU 7/2, Mutiara Damansara,
           47810 Petaling Jaya, Selangor, Malaysia.
           Map

More details & behind the scene stories coming up soon!


Let me know, I'll send you an invitation card. :)

:)

 

芳龄二十五

白领上班族

衔头几充足

可是没下属

男友二十四

右脸三颗痣

还在念硕士

没钱谈婚事

纯粹娱乐自己的打油诗 :p

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打开相本发现很多照片都用pinhole effect. 

上面那张是我给新公寓的茶几买的摆设。

新公寓算是不错的投资,

我一直都这样告诉我自己 :(

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公司网络三不五时就所特掉，

今天呆在家做设计。

下过雨的天气，不用化妆的脸...

凉风阵阵吹在床上的一堆烂泥。

明天那堆烂泥还是滚会公司去吧。

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以前信箱里是朋友寄来得贺卡

百货公司的折扣卷

现在很怕去看信箱

怕看到一堆一堆的账单

我愿为五斗米折腰。

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刚刚拿了笔记本去喝茶

他看着我的涂鸦

女孩手中的风车，男孩手中的风筝

他说我的世界很可爱

我很用力地点头

没有应声，怕被哽咽的声音出卖。

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小时候看日本漫画

青春期看日本偶像剧

早前拼命看日本旅游手记

现在每天在看日本真人悲剧

我知道日本会很快站起来

也希望自己也能元気一点。

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早前参加了一个media conference

抱着学skills的心态，

却什么skill都没带回来。

只找回一个旧梦想，

带回一个新使命。

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开始习惯没有你在的日子，

一切准备练习拍摄都上轨道。

大家好像都很自动自发

所以不用担心。

有时，不... 很多时候，

很想念你的321 Action.

收工时的 Cut! Well done!

我真的什么都不是

我只是和你一样，在奇迹前硬撑。

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最近发现好多好多创意/手作的网页

简直hit my button! 

（哦...觉得有点歪）

在conference听见看见个个真人见证

追梦要从一道菜开始

"豉椒炒鱿DIY"

就觉得他们很帅咯。

又重重hit my button again!!

结果就hit出一个凹陷，没有事情发生。

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那天跟他的门徒去吃饭

人家pasar malam 摆挡一个礼拜

周薪超越我的月薪

周间自由服事

我愿为五斗米折腰，

折手折脚又点话啧？

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不满不敢大声讲

委屈不敢大声哭

兴奋不敢大声叫

这那里像人生？

这是人生。

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太聪明不见得好

你知道你没资格要求

因为你也没有达到人家的要求

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那块煞风景的大便是他画的

啊...反正是男孩会踩到的。

2011年是上好的一年，我要选择那上好的福分。

2011年从年头到今天的挑战，

都是日后我生命荣耀你的见证。

我的世界很可爱。

我下次就大声说"是！"

stay believing.

The situation is not good

The people are making noises

The world is falling apart.

But... whatever.

I just want to stay believing.

And you, yes you.

stay believing too.

 A thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand,but it will not come near you. (Psalm 91:7)

Picture taken during an angry storm. I was sitting in my car.. playing worship music. staying calm. 

Rrrrrabbit Year~

hm...mush feels threatened. 

kinda like this rabbit...let's give her a name.

too too~ 

erm..lame?

ok this ba gua smell in the air is making me sick.

Happy TOO year! 

(too = rabbit)

Be loved everyone.

Only Hope by Mandy Moore

"A Walk to Remember"

Came across this clip...and it brought me back to this movie.
I remember I read the book and cried like a baby.
Then the movie made me cry even more :p

A very touching and meaningful story... A story about 2 different lives, crossing each other's path.
There's hopes, dreams, love, regrets... there's God.
Although the story ended with a sad tone, but it's really a story telling how amazing our God is.

There's a very special part when Landon flipped through the year book and found out Jamie's ambition:

"To witness a miracle."


How many of you out there, working hard, struggling through, crying for something to happen, begging for something to change...
How about a prayer to witness a miracle?

A miracle of hope, life, love.

To the world, you may be just one person.
But to one person, you are the world.
He's our Heavenly Father.

Never give up will you?

Lay my head back down,
Lift my hands and pray
to be only Yours.

p/s: you know, I'm feeling like writing a love story, a happily ever after love story. It's how all love stories should end. :) Be loved everyone.

morning. goodnight

5:51am.
2nd time in this week.
There's only one thing that will keep me awake til this hour:
designing stuffs for church.

Maybe some may say, nah... it's just a youth bulletin.
You don't have to put in so much effort...

For me,
designing anything is a part of my journey to the DREAM.
Many a times my "clients" will throw me projects and say:
I just want a simple draft, just simply do okay?

Then I will end up like now...
clicking, shortcut key-ing, squeezing my poor eyes in front of the computer.

I just can't "simply" finish any project...
It's a stubborn stupid principle of mine.

I'll give my best whenever I have a chance to do something,
let it be just a little thing...
which will bring me one baby step closer to my dream...

One day,
When people ask about what I do...

"I'm an artist."

*ehem, okay..digital artist to be exact. :)

gosh, the simple thought of it makes me gay~ I mean happy, just in case :p

Hello 2011.

I have not been blogging. I just saw a total of 52 posts for the past year and it is not even half of the total for 2009. Well, at least there's one post a week on average.

Had a quick glance through what I have recorded for the past year.
Joy, tears, struggles, victories.
Ah... life :)

I actually asked myself this questions weeks ago:
What do I actually feel about everything for 2010?
My answer was: WHAT A MESS!

Well, I have been busy, unorganized, sloppy and most of the time, angry at myself.
Allow me to give myself a big hug *hugs* :)

I started off the first day of 2010 in a leaders retreat camp, got very discouraged on certain things.
Came back and got very sick... :(

Jan: Went on mission trips to Mantin & Seremban - Started to appreciate what we have in church and learn to serve others.

Mac: Onn & Jia got married. | 11 days in Taiwan - a roller coaster ride spiritually & emotionally.

Apr: Work | OK photoshoot experience | Mission trip to Kluang & Batu Pahat

May: More Work | Mission trip to Kota Bahru | En Tong & JC's wedding | 1st sharing experience in Dream Factory

June: iCampus members got baptized | A4J

July: ITEC New Intake started=a lot of work | Dream Factory Anniversary - Broke a record of 100 salvation

Aug: Mission trip to Mantin & Seremban

Sept: TODAY Camp | iCampus Mid Autumn Evangelistic Meeting

Oct: Taiwan Again

Nov: OK Wedding Banquet- 1st experience being an emcee | Hectic crazy working schedule | Crazy things happened to a family member- turned my family upside down overnight | IMPACT Camp

Dec: Mission trip to Kota Bahru | <4320> Christmas Production - 1400 attended, 135 saved.

I got deeply discouraged and madly disappointed with myself for not being a good daughter to my parents, a good staff, a good cell group leader,  a good girlfriend, a good servant of God...

I tried too hard to be "good" and eventually forgot to be "me".
IMPACT CAMP is my turning point.
There's where I started to shift my focus from myself to the Creator.
And miraculously everything just turns out alright...

I am surprise that I manage to pull myself through nearly the whole year in such a mess.
Then the beautiful story came in, Jesus was carrying me through during the toughest time.

Father, You are truly amazing.
I can tell the world with my head held high:
I am totally set free, blessed and anointed to serve my God.

2011, I welcome you with an open heart and do the ONE thing that is needful: to choose the better blessing by pleasing Your heart above all else. (Luke 10:38-42)

Quote from Peg
" This year WILL be a year of stepping into the supernatural, it WILL be a year of dreaming with God of all the impossibilities and seeing it come to past"

An EXCITING and AMAZING journey begins!