Sunday, September 27, 2009

To JC.

If God appears before you now, what will you say to Him?

I guess mine will be...
I'm sorry.

and I'll kneel down and cry.

What have I done for Him as His servant?
How much have I loved Him as His child?

Sometimes, I felt like Peter.
"You know I love You."
Although I seemed not.

All my life, I would want to glorify Your name.
Choosing to follow You, is the boldest thing I've done in my entire life.
No regrets... but thanksgiving.

I live a contented life. It seems like I'm in abundance.
But there's a big hole inside of me... only You can satisfy.
What good it is, if I gain the whole world...but lose my soul?

What good it is, if I live up to everyone's expectations...but lose Yours?

I spent my whole life searching for my true identity, my calling, my destiny...
Then I realized, I can only find myself... in You.

I just want to be in Your arms...have a good sleep, and wake up to see Your smile.

Thursday, September 10, 2009


I've always come across this kind of "updates" blogs, so let's make this my first one.
Last Updated: 10.9.09

Waiting for my deposit refund.

Yea I've started working.
Very flexible working hours... too flexible. I never knw when is the right time to go home =.="
I see my boss everyday, almost every moment. So basically I have to be every ready to switch between off-job and on-job modes.
My boss has high expectations on me so it's kinda stressed working with her.
But we can both switch off our laptops at 6pm and rush down for the last episode of "Six Children".
No public holidays in my dictionary...but I can go on a holiday anytime, ofcz with my boss.
Kinda confused, but that's my job.

iCampus officially launched.
Guess I'll have to play the keyboard for the rest of the months this year.
Christmas drama script is ready!
Dream Factory interview next week.

I am on liver detox & gallstone flush program with slimming enhancement.
Working on a 1year secret plan... *hehe*
Started reading "Through the Bible Through the Year"
Still praying for my Canon EOS 500D.

Many unchecked items on my to-do-list.
Still wondering why didn't I go on a holiday for the 2 months break.
Still struggling to correct my sleeping pattern.

Sometimes I think that my life is crap... but who's life isn't?
Move on move on!

oh...2:36am, CRAP.


I know I have been lazy in blogging nowadays. I shall pick up the momentum again.
Well, my purpose of writing blogs is to make a record of important events in life.
and I can see that I have not been fulfilling it :p
Well, blame facebook.
Seriously, It's much more convenient.

3 years passed in a blink of an eye.
University life is officially, ended.

I felt grieve, surrendering my student ID in the office today.

Sometimes, I just want to stay as a little girl.

No matter how reluctant I am to let go of all these... I am already moving on, unconsciously.
Then I realized, that's life.Nevertheless, I'm still proud of what I've accomplished so far.
All glory to God.

I just can't believe that the girl eating Rocky in lectures...
is now graduated.

she still loves Rocky though.

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Babies in Heaven.

heard a sad news.
Reminds me of this book. "JESSE found in heaven"

If a baby died in the mother's womb... where will he/she be?

Heard this touching story from Ps Christine Pringle during Asia Conference last year.
Below are quoted from CityNews.

" Chris shared deeply about dealing with the loss of an infant, a small child through miscarriage, termination or still birth. Her own personal experience was when she was a young woman, barely 20, pregnant with her first child. Chris (and her husband Phil Pringle) ran a home group for youth in their own home at the time. She was about 15 weeks pregnant when she found herself bleeding one day, a day of her home group. Before the youth group arrived at her house, Chris decided to head home and rest.

As a young Christian, she thought only good things happened to Christians, so she did not think the bleeding was anything serious. But the bleeding got worse, and “I still remember, the youth were singing praises in the next room, and I was in my bedroom, bleeding, losing my baby.” Chris drew no comfort from people telling her “Maybe it is for the best” or “It is going to be all right”. But peace and assurance came upon her when someone told her, “I believe that God is flushing out your body of all the drugs,” in reference to her previous lifestyle before she came to the Lord.

Many, many years later, a friend showed Chris a video of a vision of heaven. After watching the video, she went into her room. There she heard praise and worship, and felt two arms envelope her. Up to that point, she had not grieved for her lost child, but she started crying now. It was as though she was in this incredible bubble where she could just weep and everything was still. She received a vision of a tall, handsome young man with longish hair — and the Lord told her it was her son, Jesse. Heaven, shared Chris, that’s where the babies go when they are lost on Earth. They are rescued by angels and brought into Heaven, where they grow. When she saw Jesse, he was 23 - exactly the age he would be if he had lived. "

There's this poem Ps Christine wrote to Jesse.

During her sharing session, I wept like a baby. Maybe not many of you know... I am suppose to have an elder sister. My mom had a miscarriage after being stung by a bee.
But now I know I will be seeing her in Heaven one day. She must be very beautiful.

Dear M&A, I felt so sorry for your baby. I can't control my tears when I heard the news.
As much as we grieve, we ought to know that little baby is in our Heavenly Father's safe arms. Angels are protecting little baby and we will see him/her one day.

Yes that's for sure.

Updated: Her name is Cassie Ng.