Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Me: Oh it's almost 8pm, gotta go.
Him: Office hour is over isn't it? Where are you going?
Me: Erm...some freelance job. (It's actually rushing some design for church :p)
Him: Freelance... Haih, it's hard to earn enough nowadays..
Me: Em...oh yea.
How if I tell him that I'm doing freelance...for free.
Oh, FREElance indeed.
But I tell you, I will be damn rich in Heaven.
My blessing is not only counted in monetary abundance, I am contented on the inside.
Nothing beats the sense of security, when I know how GREAT is my GOD.
My Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not be in want. Ps 23
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Friday, October 1, 2010
Back from Wall Street.
I don't really understand the whole movie but I enjoyed every bits of it.
I'm blessed with my lack of curiosity.
hm...ok maybe I enjoyed looking at Shia LaBeouf.
Being exposed to the real world recently...
And realized no matter how reluctant you are to face it,
There's no where to hide.
It's just a matter of time when you have to know what you have to know.
But when you get to know it,
It's not that bad after all.
A big AMEN to high income economy.
I am seeing it coming true.
Good morning October!
A blessed month~
A note to him: you actually melt my heart with those words.
And now I'm a little freaked out :p
Friday, September 24, 2010
答：har? 我们好像都没有说谁追谁le...我们在一起hor, 就好像上天注定一样，那么自然，那么纯...
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Bowling, 唱K, shopping, 玩photohunt, 去远远的地方，try不同的餐厅，拍大头贴...
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
I shall fast the internet at home for 40-days to break this addiction.
Need to bring peace back to my bedroom.
"Your job determines who you are.
If you want to change who you are,
First change what you do."
I am seriously pondering on this line from the movie "Repo Men".
Btw, I nearly vomited my dinner eaten 3 days ago after watching that.
Some random thoughts:
- Anyone out there is willing to compose melody for a song? If I have the lyrics
- I just want to cook a meal for myself.
- Tomorrow will be a happy day.
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
being in intervals of total restlessness and over-sleeping turned me upside down.
Recently I have been scribbling here & there...then closed the blog window..
Today I found out that I actually have 20++ saved drafts unpublished!
Mainly because I was bullshitting most of the time so I think it is better not to publish those craps and pollute this nice & friendly blog.
But while reading back at those posts, I realized I wrote better while crapping.
Maybe some secret power unleashed when I'm agitated/intensely confused/very-beh-tahan.
Well I didn't say that I was agitated/intensely confused/very-beh-tahan while writing those entries.
Hm. Maybe today I will try my best not to click on the "x" button after finishing this piece of crap.
So you better be lucky to read this.
Or not so lucky cz here I go crapping somemore.
Let's start with my fb status for today.
"What a birdie day."
Recently I was being "birditized" a lot. I know this is a fairly impolite word to use but well.
"WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME???!!!"
are these song lyrics?
I don't know. But this "birding" activity going on now is very unpleasant to me.
I've lost the will to fight back. So I rather sit back and keep quiet.
I did apologized just in case I am really in the wrong.
Nah...then you know I am not sincere in doing so. Haha.
I will learn to forgive too.
Cz people must be very very VERY tulan to actually start "birding" you.
I will give them the room to express themselves without taking heart.
you see...I am so tempted to click "x" now.
my good sense just won't allow me to publish this.
After all I am such a good good girl with a soft and gentle heart.
p/s: hahah.. i actually wrote all these...and got them published! forgive my crude emotions. i am still a good good girl with a soft & gentle heart ok :)
hm. I think I'll disallow comments from now onwards cz so many random spammers come disturb my blog & leave links which will bring you nowhere. ish! pollute my nice & friendly blog!!
Thursday, July 22, 2010
this is the second night.
should I call this alert/disturbed/confused/excited?
I know great change is coming my way.
I just hope I'm prepared... or at least semi-ready.
some said I'm over-reacting.
Yes I am super allergic.
Sometimes when confirmation is luxury
we just have to go with the flow.
I don't understand my increasing heart rate
I couldn't stop the butterflies in my stomach
I need STRONG sedative drugs.
I am not sick.
I am not depressed.
I am just...
It's a positive thing. don't worry.
Small splashes are accumulating into huge waves
they might destroy & drown you
So get your surf board
ride the wave
prepare to go to greater heights
For He is the King of the rising ocean
we will soar with Him above the storms
for I know that You are God.
p/s: those are Gucci shades xD
Thursday, July 15, 2010
A chance for you to ditch your 9-5 job and pursue your DREAM JOB!
but you only can choose 3 from the above 15 to kick start your dream-catcher journey.
I think my choice would be:
1) Travel Writer
2) Photo Journalist
2) Wedding Planner
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Friday, July 2, 2010
He mentioned that he just want to be "neutral", he doesn't want to be too serious,
he wants her to feel that she has all the free will and comfort in playing around with him & the other guy. He is not letting go but not pulling back..
Beating around the bush, ups & downs, twist & turn...
(In fact, we all grew tired listening to his whining :p)
Then suddenly he popped a question:
"So what is your opinion, Jo?"
"My friend, you gotta know that I am a VERY RADICAL person."
I love his answer.
Do not be afraid to be a radical person.
The majority is afraid to take a stand.
They do not want to choose side.
They want to stay in between.
Maybe it's a safe area. Zero risk, zero miracles.
It's either black or white, it is not okay to be grey.
Don't you feel tired standing on the fence?
JUMP! CHOOSE! MAKE A STAND!
Don't just give a spark, set up a FIRE!!
Don't just take a step, go ALL OUT!!
Don't just work on your dream, FIGHT for it!!
Don't just be passionate, go CRAZY for what you believe in!
Some of you might freak out reading this. My sincere apologies. We are preparing to go into deep waters, the unknown, where MIRACLES are.
Thursday, July 1, 2010
In one service during A4J Conference, Ps Philip shared about "Faith = Selah"
Selah simply means pause/rest in musical terms. Faith spells R.E.S.T.
You know, some of us have great expectations attending revival conferences like this. We are waiting for dynamic speakers to bring forth some POWERFUL, LOUD, FAITH-FILLED messages that will stir us up, pump up our faith and motivate us to do more!
Likewise, as a typical Church leader, I cleaned my ears and prepared my spirit to receive the powerful anointing/divine intervention/fire of revival...yadada. you mention it.
Yes, God gave me a lot of BUTs recently.
We saw Ps Philip, pulling out a PILLOW, from the hotel by the way, from his bag.
Lay it flat on the stage, and asked Ps Jonathan, his poor interpreter, to lie beside him on the pillow.
"Faith is not about pumping hard on your believe. Faith is not pushing yourself too hard to be an acceptable Christian."
Faith is rest.
Faith is being able to rest in your problems.
You are able to cast it all to God, knowing He will provide and take care of the things which you cannot see.
Then he started to sing (still lying down with his pillow)
” I wait on God to bring to pass,
all He has promised me.
And as I wait,
I rest in faith in what I cannot see.
For in His way He will provide,
at just the perfect time,
everything that’s good and right
For in His way He will provide,
to bless this life of mine.”
Tears...coming from every single cell of my being, overwhelmed me.
Some people around me were laughing at his act.
But I deeply felt what God is trying to tell me.
Ps Philip pastors 70 churches with over 40,000 members. He is radical and that brings a lot of threat to him.
But he says: "My 2nd most powerful spiritual weapon (His bible being his 1st), is....my pillow!"
The song he sang, is his all time favorite lullaby. He sings himself to sleep. He put all his problems & worries outside. His bedroom is his secret place, his intimate sanctuary where God's peace surrounds.
You are no hero if you can defeat thousand men & move mountains.
A true courageous person, a real strong man, is one who knows how to let go, and let God.
My tears literally flow throughout the service. Many times I trained myself to be a tough girl.
I am a tough girl in my family because I bear the responsibility of their salvation.
I am a tough girl in the office as I run all the tasks and make sure everything is on time.
I am a tough leader in church because I have members to take care off.
That day, God just want me to be...me.
His little girl, who is soft & fragile, knows no evil, knows no responsibility & obligation.
He just want me to dwell in His presence, knowing that He loves me more than anyone else, and knowing that I love Him too, as my Big Daddy, who can make all things right, who will carry me through.
There are times to strive, there are also times of rest.
If you feel weary, defeated, disappointed...
Let's not try to get angry at yourself being weak & useless. Let's not try to motivate yourself by pumping hard on your decreasing faith.
You deserve a good rest.
Let our Heavenly Father renew your strength and tell you that He will bring to pass, all He has promised you.
WHY ON EARTH I MADE SUCH PROMISE????!!
Me: Dear Mr. Director...spare my life please T_______T
Director: "You better go choose a nice picture for your tombstone."
ML: "Where's the flyer design?"
Me: "Ok ok... This Sunday!"
ML: "You said that LAST week."
Me: " Oops I did it again."
No... everything is so behind time.
Pull me out of this shit...SOMEONE!!
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
I will not proclaim negativity in my life!
and of course not to my dear friends who might read them.
The title remained though...
Of all nights,
Why tonight when I need to wake up at 8am tomorrow???
Insomnia attack @@
Monday, June 28, 2010
"I've booked a table for 8 tonight 10pm Germany vs England."
Being a football dummy, this was my first time watching a match with the fans.
"I'm supporting England so you must support Germany!"
So I accidentally supported a winning team.
oo yea. it feels good.
p/s: I was sms-ing my dad while watching the match.
Dad: Nearly 2!
me: 2 NOW! HAHA!
me: Woohoo! 4-1! Unexpected!
Dad: Woohoo! 4-1! EXPECTED!
such a nice bonding with dad :)
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
I gave my car away today. Actually it's my brother's car but I am the one who is driving it most of the time :p
He is the first car I drove after getting my P license. Little but strong.
I knew he will be traded in for a new car last week.
Not until yesterday when the car dealer called, I'm still cool about the whole thing.
So yesterday I drove him out til late night.
Then I realized I need to clear out my things before handing him over.
Dug out so many rubbish, coins, parking tickets etc...
then I realized I have been ill-treating him for quite some time :p
The car was emptied, all car stickers removed..
Suddenly he looked so lonely... covering in dust. empty.
09.06.2010, 4pm - I handed the keys to my brother and he will do the "giving away" part.
I miss him already.
Thanks for being a shelter, on sunny or rainy days.
Thanks for giving rides to my family, friends, church members & maybe strangers.
Thanks for bringing me places.
so many people feel sad when they knew about your leave.
You have been a blessing to all of us.
You served us well, little red warrior!
I love you Little Red.
Our family loves you too.
Farewell. Hope to see you around, this time with a better owner.
Monday, May 31, 2010
I was hooked since I first heard him. I always wonder why are his songs so unique.
Then I realized...
Ah, his perfect pronunciation.
The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you dear
'Cause I wish you were here
I'll watch the night turn light blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
Till I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly
I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone
But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because when I think of you
I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone
As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight
When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again
And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here
and Vanilla Twilight just sounds so cute.
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
I just want to let you know I'm so proud to be your owner.
my first step towards a pro.
ok...maybe my first step of million billion zillion steps towards being a pro.
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Monday, May 24, 2010
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Friday, April 23, 2010
" Shyn Lyn... T-T"
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
p/s:台湾女生怎么说话都要这么爹生爹气啊？每句话后面都“哦哦哦” =.= 粉口爱哦~
Friday, March 12, 2010
He was drowned to death during a trip to the beaches in Terengganu.
His mom is my mom's good friend, and now my mom is rushing to see if she's ok.
He was a very bright boy.
I think he just graduated as a medical doctor not long ago.
He's the only son.
His mom must be heartbroken.
RIP Ah Ben gor gor.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
when daddy don't pay for the family meal.
when your paycheck comes together with tax forms and bills.
hm...I do miss those times when I saved up hard to buy my first tamagotchi.
Friday, February 12, 2010
What happen to all of you? :(
It kind of pricked me deep when I read about you guys...
I know it's really annoying hearing someone senior saying:
"Ohh... I've been through what you are going through...
Everything will be fine...
You are just being too sensitive.
Young people are always lost...
Sometimes, this "been there, done that" attitude is sh*t.
I really don't know what I can do.
And, to some extend, I feel some of your struggles too.
I know I couldn't love them as much as You do,
but I know You will take care of them just like those times You have brought me through.
I love you guys, and please love yourself and each other as God has first loved you.
Be strong! I am still learning, but we will eventually get there!
By His power of love.
Sunday, February 7, 2010
时间久了，热忱灭了，当初到处预告“I will be back"的大喇叭也尴尬地收起来了。
Saturday, February 6, 2010
As usual I snuggled with my little pillow, refused to rise...
Then I saw her in a thick blue blanket, all covered up but I know she's ignoring her snoozing alarm too.
We were both waiting for each other to initiate the "rise & shine" routine... and I am always the one who gave up.
Slipped in my blue slippers, picked up my toiletries and washed myself up with streams of freezing cold water.
Went back to the room, she's still in her bed and the house was still quiet.
Pulled myself to the kitchen, toasted some bread taken from the freezer.
Made myself a bowl of cereals soaked in organic soy milk.
Munched down my breakie in front of the new TV...and the new rug.
She's finally up when I was washing up the plates, and sometimes, he'll be awake and coming down from the stairs, bringing his laptop with him for sure.
He'll plug in his laptop and Planetshakers will be playing from it in no time.
Pan was heated, pancake with honey was serve.
She'll make her cup of Milo of course.
We'll be sitting around the dining table, telling each other about our dreams last night.
Ming, Ryan... I miss 18 Marshall Av, Clayton, Melbourne Victoria.
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Friday, January 15, 2010
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Don't ask me what are my new year plans cz I don't have time to even think of any.
I'm completing whatever task that comes to me first. huhu :p
I have a calender for church activities
I have a calender for company activities
I have a calender for friends' bdays & social activities
Now I just want a calender for holidays.
It's the beginning of the year..but it feels like 2009 bring forward.
Note to self:
TEAY NING ANN please go tidy up your room! You are still keeping your YEAR 2 Sem 1 notes on your table!!
The new year jz made u 24. So grow up!