Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Just in case you have not notice already.

PCS2 Creative Production Ministry presents
Christmas 2010 Production
《4320》

Largest production yet. RM20K invested! 
On stage + On screen performance
Another breakthrough for Creative Production Ministry.
Not to be missed! 


4 Originally Composed Songs for this production
recorded in CD!


Merchandise for sale
 《4320》 Ceramic Drinking Mug
RM 15 ONLY!


This is not an advertorial...
Bah...
:p

This Christmas, make it a memorable and meaningful one.
Be a part of  《4320》.
you are warmly invited :)

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Thursday, November 4, 2010

话说

再过两天就是本小姐生平第一次为朋友婚宴做主持...
到了此时此刻连婚宴流程都还没到手的说..
再加上当晚的主持搭档正赶报告也没空鸟我。
手头上的工作一份接一份...
到夜深人静时静下来想想,
不妙。人家宴请400人,讲说都是自己人,但总得让气氛体面一点。

怎样leh?
夜深人静只好找brother谷问问。
果真有答复!




什么阳光明媚红杏枝头玉栏桥??


我是要现在委婉请辞,还是稍后被豉椒炒鱿好呢?

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

4320


生命倒数
在尽头的挣扎,放手及重生。

A PCS2 Drama Production - Coming Soon This Christmas Season.

**Awesome background artwork by Kazen Koh Liang Sheng.

freelance

Had dinner with a new found friend today.
Me: Oh it's almost 8pm, gotta go.
Him: Office hour is over isn't it? Where are you going?
Me: Erm...some freelance job. (It's actually rushing some design for church :p)
Him: Freelance... Haih, it's hard to earn enough nowadays..
Me: Em...oh yea.

How if I tell him that I'm doing freelance...for free.

Oh, FREElance indeed.

 But I tell you, I will be damn rich in Heaven.
My blessing is not only counted in monetary abundance, I am contented on the inside.
Nothing beats the sense of security, when I know how GREAT is my GOD.


My Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not be in want. Ps 23

Thursday, October 21, 2010

to all of you out there.


He hears your cry.
Just hang on there for a little longer.
Your moment is near.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Help...

I haven't finish my work...
I haven't finish my script...
I haven't pack my luggage...
I haven't change the currency...
I haven't been sleeping...

Taiwan~~~~~ Why soooo soon?? T_________T

就让我玩得安心一点好吗?

想得美。

Friday, October 1, 2010

Ohayo October.


Back from Wall Street.
I don't really understand the whole movie but I enjoyed every bits of it.
I'm blessed with my lack of curiosity.
hm...ok maybe I enjoyed looking at Shia LaBeouf.

Being exposed to the real world recently...
And realized no matter how reluctant you are to face it,
There's no where to hide.
It's just a matter of time when you have to know what you have to know.

But when you get to know it,
It's not that bad after all.

A big AMEN to high income economy.
I am seeing it coming true.

Good morning October!
A blessed month~

Not related:
A note to him: you actually melt my heart with those words.
And now I'm a little freaked out :p

Friday, September 24, 2010

继续发现

发现#5
很久没有在这里post照片
就赏你们一张个人近照!看来我玉女形象依然如昔... ehem*
(我娘拍的...那天陪她去做市场考察,硬要我在那些店前面摆pose假装拍照,其实要拍他们店面的拍摄及产品。就做liao一天的kelefe模特儿 =________=)

发现#6
我们的爱情史原来一点都不好听
刚才喝茶时被追问爱情史,一个两个38的样子真的很想拍下来给你们看。
可是啊...回答了几个问题就给我一副“哇...sien到........”的样子 =____=
原因是,
问:你们在一起几年liao?
答:8年
问:你当初为什么做了这个极度糊涂的决定?
答:糊涂?你知道吗,想当年他可是校园王子le!我可以做他女朋友好像地上拾到金酱幸运... 还有...
问:OKOK 好了好了...(立刻截住)酱他是怎样追你啊?是不是死缠烂打le??
答:har? 我们好像都没有说谁追谁le...我们在一起hor, 就好像上天注定一样,那么自然,那么纯...
大家:得啦得啦!!我们问别人...


oi....为什么现在这种纯情故事不laku liao?
做么一定要死缠烂打,追你十九条街,分分合合来来去去,一哭二闹三上吊的故事才好听le?
你们戏看太多liao。hng!

hehe...好,等下次再有发现再写给你们看!

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

九月都要过了

一个post都没有post到,就写一些东西来敷衍一下...

就讲近来的10大发现:

发现#1
我超级无敌久没有做菜
以前啊...我所谓“以前”真的是7-8年以前...
我还会去巴杀买菜,6点起床弄早餐,还很讲究色香味俱全的那种...
皆因今早皮痒帮婆婆剁蒜就把中指剁掉...一刀。
还不敢讲,把手放一边单手继续剁 :p
后来血流太多被花现... 就挨婆婆3万字箴言训话。

发现#2
我老了
你一定在那边骂:屁啦!老??
工作关系常接触比我年长的人,奇怪的是都跟他们很ngam keng.
还以为我的交际能力还不错说,跟年长的人都不会有代沟。
那天,跟一位公司分行的店主谈天。
就谈到很machi的时候我问他几岁...
32岁的他:“哎呀,我们不是差不多!还问我几岁...”

原来不是没有代沟,是他们根本不知道有代沟的几率。

发现#3
我们好像没有什么娱乐
星期一是off day。5点他call我出去。
上车后也没有讨论目的地,车子就驶向那熟悉的方向--1U。
到了1U,没有讨论的情况下,我们已经站在戏院售票处的队伍后。
买了票,走着走着就站在Sushi Zanmai队伍的后面。
开餐时,眼前的食物就是那两种饭,那两样菜。
看完戏,两个人就站在戏院门口...
"你有东西买吗?”  “没有...你le?”

他忽然问我,以前我们hang gai都做些什么?
Bowling, 唱K, shopping, 玩photohunt, 去远远的地方,try不同的餐厅,拍大头贴...
他抛下一句:“wah...年轻人真的都做这些无聊事...”
就酱上车回家。

发现#4
发现我没有mood写接下来的5个发现。

hahahaha....

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

从此以后

所谓的大人物,就是每天不断努力的小人物。

当你看见某某成就了大事,
其实你正在努力的小事,就是某天别人口中的伟绩。
 当你听见某某拥有了世界,
其实你所追求的小梦想,就是某天别人追随的模范。

当你欣赏一个伟人,
试着去了解他卑微的开始,去探索他每天努力着的小事。
一个成功,肯定经历很多失败,只是他都胜过了。


瓶颈不是创意的终点
现实不是梦想的结局

忽然了解,
是我还不够努力。
是我还不够疯狂。

有人用了五年,有人用十年,
也有人经过了无数的十年,却还看不见曙光。

歌词说"谁会记得我的模样,谁会记得我受过的伤..."
上帝说:“我会。”
“你的每一滴眼泪我都记念。”

童话故事的开头总是“很久很久以前..."
结尾也是“从此以后..."

或许你的“很久很久以前”并不绚丽,不精彩,
但我相信,

我们都是这世界的过客,面对的也是短暂的问题。
我们要一起努力,
上帝将祝福我们的“从此以后..."

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

For the sake of posting something.

Bringing my laptop home is a serious mistake.
I shall fast the internet at home for 40-days to break this addiction.
ISH.

Need to bring peace back to my bedroom.

"Your job determines who you are.
If you want to change who you are,
First change what you do."

I am seriously pondering on this line from the movie "Repo Men".
Btw, I nearly vomited my dinner eaten 3 days ago after watching that.


Some random thoughts:
- Anyone out there is willing to compose melody for a song? If I have the lyrics
- I just want to cook a meal for myself.
- Tomorrow will be a happy day. 

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

恋爱通告

此片让我有点跌眼镜...情节有少leong,但一张帅脸足以让我赦免一切~
王力宏很努力搞笑,我很努力陪笑... :p
还是帅帅地弹钢琴唱歌比较好。

“忽然发现那些幻想,其实是我的梦想...”
令我红了眼眶的台词。
我很少看爱情片会哭,哭也不是为了里面的爱情元素。

他对我说,
我这个人没有什么不良嗜好,
正确来讲,我很难会对一件事染上瘾。
一个对人对事都不会很执着的人,
所以不管什么鸟事把我惹毛,
我可以瞬间忘记,
一个很容易把东西放下的人。
即使被人误会诬赖,
这一秒我可以气得想把自己撕裂,
下一秒我就会“哎,算了吧”地自己碎碎念。

他说,刚发现我这种性格时真的很不能接受。
觉得我太懦弱,不敢为自己辩护,没有主见etc。

人长大后,
他说这是上帝赐给我最大的恩典。

我恍然大悟地Amen。
怪不得我的世界在23年8个月后还是那么美丽...

那天到Mantin宣教,有人问起我的名字。
“宁恩这个名字真好听,你一定是个能够安宁在神的恩典里的人。”
原来上帝赐的恩典,在我生在这个世界,还没有认识他,就伴随着我。
打从一开始,上帝就特别为我预备一个安宁美丽的世界...

写恋爱通告怎么写到这些呢...
都说我这个人很容易离题 :p

在世界里打拼,挣扎,矛盾,钻牛角尖的你,你,或你,
其实你们生命里一定有一个上帝特别特别赐给你的恩典。
只有你才拥有,因为它是上帝给你的special gift。
你一直都拥有着,可能你只是还没发现而已。
这个只有你才拥有的礼物,塑造着你人生的主题曲。
有一天,你身边的人一定能听得到。
你自己作曲,作词,只有你能演奏,属于你的theme song。

上帝一定是哼着这首主题曲,把你我带到这个世界上。
所以,若干年后,当你终于听见你生命的主题曲,
你会很感动,很感动...


我知道上帝爱世人,
但我总觉得,他特别特别爱我。

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

友曰:有翅膀的未必是天使,也有可能是鸟人。
此话确实一绝!

天底下鸟人的鸟话如枪林弹雨,
就看中鸟的是否防鸟功力深厚。

要避免中鸟害,虽不必上山练个十年八年,
学起“防鸟功”防身防身也不坏也。

防鸟功#1招:做个聋鸟
鸟话一律过滤,听不到就不知道。
缺点:万一鸟话中带有人话,错过重要讯息可能带来更大鸟害!

防鸟功#2招:做个忍鸟
听了鸟话,深呼吸,用力吞入肠胃,谷个一肚子鸟气,可以省掉吃饭钱。
缺点:可能导致肠胃纠结,排气不顺,健康受害,不是长久之计。

防鸟功#3招:做个恶鸟
以一字还一字来与鸟人过招,誓死都要拼到剩下最后一口鸟气!
缺点:通常会被鸟就代表你不够人家鸟功好,还去送死?

以上几招都是鸟招,无一招管用。
文毕前赠送最后绝招:

所谓“人必自鸟,然后人鸟之。”


减少自怜情怀,丢掉被害妄想症,脚踏实地地走出鸟笼,
方为上策。


与深受鸟害的你共勉之。

i almost

threw myself out of the window.
being in intervals of total restlessness and over-sleeping turned me upside down.

Recently I have been scribbling here & there...then closed the blog window..
Today I found out that I actually have 20++ saved drafts unpublished!
nyahah.
Mainly because I was bullshitting most of the time so I think it is better not to publish those craps and pollute this nice & friendly blog.
But while reading back at those posts, I realized I wrote better while crapping.
Maybe some secret power unleashed when I'm agitated/intensely confused/very-beh-tahan.
Well I didn't say that I was agitated/intensely confused/very-beh-tahan while writing those entries.

Hm. Maybe today I will try my best not to click on the "x" button after finishing this piece of crap.

So you better be lucky to read this.

Or not so lucky cz here I go crapping somemore.



Let's start with my fb status for today.
"What a birdie day."
Recently I was being "birditized" a lot. I know this is a fairly impolite word to use but well.

"WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME???!!!"
are these song lyrics?

I don't know. But this "birding" activity going on now is very unpleasant to me.
I've lost the will to fight back. So I rather sit back and keep quiet.
I did apologized just in case I am really in the wrong.
Nah...then you know I am not sincere in doing so. Haha.

I will learn to forgive too.
Cz people must be very very VERY tulan to actually start "birding" you.
I will give them the room to express themselves without taking heart.



you see...I am so tempted to click "x" now.
my good sense just won't allow me to publish this.

After all I am such a good good girl with a soft and gentle heart.
konon-nya la.

whateveriamgoingtopublishthisublowa!


p/s: hahah.. i actually wrote all these...and got them published! forgive my crude emotions. i am still a good good girl with a soft & gentle heart ok :)

hm. I think I'll disallow comments from now onwards cz so many random spammers come disturb my blog & leave links which will bring you nowhere. ish! pollute my nice & friendly blog!!

Thursday, July 22, 2010

ohayo.

alright.

this is the second night.
should I call this alert/disturbed/confused/excited?

I know great change is coming my way.
I just hope I'm prepared... or at least semi-ready.

some said I'm over-reacting.
Yes I am super allergic.
I admit.

Sometimes when confirmation is luxury
we just have to go with the flow.

I don't understand my increasing heart rate
I couldn't stop the butterflies in my stomach

I need STRONG sedative drugs.







I am not sick.
I am not depressed.
I am just...





It's a positive thing. don't worry.

Are you ready?


A great storm is on its way
Small splashes are accumulating into huge waves
they might destroy & drown you

So get your surf board
ride the wave
prepare to go to greater heights

For He is the King of the rising ocean
we will soar with Him above the storms

Be still
for I know that You are God.


p/s: those are Gucci shades xD

Thursday, July 15, 2010

dream job

for details and better view click here

A chance for you to ditch your 9-5 job and pursue your DREAM JOB!

but you only can choose 3 from the above 15 to kick start your dream-catcher journey.

I think my choice would be:
1) Travel Writer
2) Photo Journalist
2) Wedding Planner

What's yours?

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Another one.

不知何故睡不着在FB漫游。
忽然一个Youth Club的旧成员传来一则信息。
被吓一跳,皆因平时都会把Chatroom调Offline, 要不是py小姐说要我On我都不会收到这则可能令我更加睡不着的信息。

LY: 你记得高龙吗?
Me:记得, 怎么了?

通常,被人家这样一问;不是极好的消息,就是极坏。
但,经历了两次这种事情,我的心一沉...

LY: 他走了。

高龙,
我们认识应该是在Youth Club刚成立的时候。
你很害羞,很文静。
认识久了就开始跟我们废话连篇...
已经很久没见到你了,偶尔教会大节日你会出现...
还记得你每次远远地叫“宁恩姐~~~子和哥~~~”

高龙... 宁恩姐一定会记得你。
我知道你在地上曾经不快乐,对不起没有给予你安慰。
你可能觉得自己的存在没有价值,但你其实曾经带给许多人快乐。
天堂是没有眼泪的地方,在天父的怀抱安息吧。
我们天堂见。

Sunday, July 4, 2010

Friday, July 2, 2010

Radical.

There's once we met up with a friend telling us his struggles in relationship.
He mentioned that he just want to be "neutral", he doesn't want to be too serious,
he wants her to feel that she has all the free will and comfort in playing around with him & the other guy. He is not letting go but not pulling back..
Beating around the bush, ups & downs, twist & turn...
(In fact, we all grew tired listening to his whining :p)

Then suddenly he popped a question:
"So what is your opinion, Jo?"

"My friend, you gotta know that I am a VERY RADICAL person."
I love his answer.
...........................................................................................................................

Do not be afraid to be a radical person.

The majority is afraid to take a stand.
They do not want to choose side.
They want to stay in between.
Maybe it's a safe area. Zero risk, zero miracles.

It's either black or white, it is not okay to be grey.

Don't you feel tired standing on the fence?

JUMP! CHOOSE! MAKE A STAND!

Don't just give a spark, set up a FIRE!!

Don't just take a step, go ALL OUT!!

Don't just work on your dream, FIGHT for it!!

Don't just be passionate, go CRAZY for what you believe in!


Some of you might freak out reading this. My sincere apologies. We are preparing to go into deep waters, the unknown, where MIRACLES are.

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Selah.

In one service during A4J Conference, Ps Philip shared about "Faith = Selah"

Selah simply means pause/rest in musical terms. Faith spells R.E.S.T.

You know, some of us have great expectations attending revival conferences like this. We are waiting for dynamic speakers to bring forth some POWERFUL, LOUD, FAITH-FILLED messages that will stir us up, pump up our faith and motivate us to do more!

Likewise, as a typical Church leader, I cleaned my ears and prepared my spirit to receive the powerful anointing/divine intervention/fire of revival...yadada. you mention it.

But

Yes, God gave me a lot of BUTs recently.

We saw Ps Philip, pulling out a PILLOW, from the hotel by the way, from his bag.

Lay it flat on the stage, and asked Ps Jonathan, his poor interpreter, to lie beside him on the pillow.

He said:

"Faith is not about pumping hard on your believe. Faith is not pushing yourself too hard to be an acceptable Christian."

Faith is rest.

Faith is being able to rest in your problems.

You are able to cast it all to God, knowing He will provide and take care of the things which you cannot see.

Then he started to sing (still lying down with his pillow)

” I wait on God to bring to pass,

all He has promised me.

And as I wait,

I rest in faith in what I cannot see.

For in His way He will provide,

at just the perfect time,

everything that’s good and right

For in His way He will provide,

to bless this life of mine.”

Tears...coming from every single cell of my being, overwhelmed me.

Some people around me were laughing at his act.

But I deeply felt what God is trying to tell me.

Ps Philip pastors 70 churches with over 40,000 members. He is radical and that brings a lot of threat to him.

But he says: "My 2nd most powerful spiritual weapon (His bible being his 1st), is....my pillow!"

The song he sang, is his all time favorite lullaby. He sings himself to sleep. He put all his problems & worries outside. His bedroom is his secret place, his intimate sanctuary where God's peace surrounds.

You are no hero if you can defeat thousand men & move mountains.

A true courageous person, a real strong man, is one who knows how to let go, and let God.

My tears literally flow throughout the service. Many times I trained myself to be a tough girl.

I am a tough girl in my family because I bear the responsibility of their salvation.

I am a tough girl in the office as I run all the tasks and make sure everything is on time.

I am a tough leader in church because I have members to take care off.

That day, God just want me to be...me.

His little girl, who is soft & fragile, knows no evil, knows no responsibility & obligation.

He just want me to dwell in His presence, knowing that He loves me more than anyone else, and knowing that I love Him too, as my Big Daddy, who can make all things right, who will carry me through.

There are times to strive, there are also times of rest.

If you feel weary, defeated, disappointed...

Let's not try to get angry at yourself being weak & useless. Let's not try to motivate yourself by pumping hard on your decreasing faith.

You deserve a good rest.

Let our Heavenly Father renew your strength and tell you that He will bring to pass, all He has promised you.


selah.

Pik Chek.

"If I fail to come out with the script this Sunday, you can go ahead and kill me."

WHY ON EARTH I MADE SUCH PROMISE????!!


Me: Dear Mr. Director...spare my life please T_______T

Director: "You better go choose a nice picture for your tombstone."


ML: "Where's the flyer design?"

Me: "Ok ok... This Sunday!"

ML: "You said that LAST week."

Me: " Oops I did it again."

......................................................................

No... everything is so behind time.
Pull me out of this shit...SOMEONE!!

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Of all nights

A long post-Deleted.

I will not proclaim negativity in my life!
and of course not to my dear friends who might read them.

The title remained though...

Of all nights,

Why tonight when I need to wake up at 8am tomorrow???

Insomnia attack @@

Monday, June 28, 2010

mush talk

abandoned my blog for some time.
a new header & background.
CLEAN.


When World Cup calls your name!


"I've booked a table for 8 tonight 10pm Germany vs England."
Being a football dummy, this was my first time watching a match with the fans.

"I'm supporting England so you must support Germany!"
So I accidentally supported a winning team.

oo yea. it feels good.

p/s: I was sms-ing my dad while watching the match.
me: Germany-1
Dad: Nearly 2!
me: 2 NOW! HAHA!
....
me: Woohoo! 4-1! Unexpected!
Dad: Woohoo! 4-1! EXPECTED!

such a nice bonding with dad :)

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

zai jian xiao hong.

I tend to have emotional attachment to non-living objects.

I gave my car away today. Actually it's my brother's car but I am the one who is driving it most of the time :p
He is the first car I drove after getting my P license. Little but strong.

I knew he will be traded in for a new car last week.
Not until yesterday when the car dealer called, I'm still cool about the whole thing.

So yesterday I drove him out til late night.
Then I realized I need to clear out my things before handing him over.
Dug out so many rubbish, coins, parking tickets etc...
then I realized I have been ill-treating him for quite some time :p

The car was emptied, all car stickers removed..
Suddenly he looked so lonely... covering in dust. empty.

09.06.2010, 4pm - I handed the keys to my brother and he will do the "giving away" part.

I miss him already.
Thanks for being a shelter, on sunny or rainy days.
Thanks for giving rides to my family, friends, church members & maybe strangers.
Thanks for bringing me places.

You know,
so many people feel sad when they knew about your leave.
You have been a blessing to all of us.
You served us well, little red warrior!

I love you Little Red.
Our family loves you too.

Farewell. Hope to see you around, this time with a better owner.


T_______T

Monday, May 31, 2010

I'm lovin' It.

Vanilla Twilight by Owl City.

I was hooked since I first heard him. I always wonder why are his songs so unique.
Then I realized...
Ah, his perfect pronunciation.




The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
Till I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because when I think of you
I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone
I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again
And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you
Oh, if my voice could reach back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here


and Vanilla Twilight just sounds so cute.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

plain vain.


Dear Max
I just want to let you know I'm so proud to be your owner.
my first step towards a pro.
ok...maybe my first step of million billion zillion steps towards being a pro.



p/s: Ming, I think Max suits him best. Classy yet rugged feel. Thanks for the suggestion :p

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Zibabooom~~


一星期被炸两次...

等着来,以后我炸你们够够力!

p/s: 又回到office,愿神带领祝福今天的工作效率与果效!
weeee~~~

Monday, May 24, 2010

7Days.

让我记得这一份揪心,这一份感动。
愿上帝的信息,酝酿在剧本里。
愿救恩的大能,彰显于全地。

圣诞节制作---敬请期待。

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

strawberry dip


虽然等下会被吃,
我选择活在当下。

人生苦短七八十年,
能有片刻活出自己,值得用一生去争取。

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

inspiration



Mom once threw me a question:
"You never like to read books,
how come you can still write with such flow?"

Mom, I don't read books, I read blogs.

Ice Kacang Puppy Love

“你是汹涌的海浪,我是疲惫的沙滩...”

很不错一下的大马制作。

角色个性丰富,每个演员都好棒!李心洁不愧是影后。
一句对白都没有的梁静茹给人一种像心理变态的色女感觉。

大佬身边的小混混都一肥一瘦,而且都长一副蠢样...。


剧中对白说,初恋像在大热天的红豆冰,吃进口里冰得牙齿都痛,还来不及尝到滋味,就融化了。

初恋就是那种你喜欢我,我喜欢他,他喜欢你的往事。
那一句“我喜欢你”还来不及说,
就看见你牵了别人的手。

在冲凉房哭个死去活来,明天就乖乖变成帮你们传情的好朋友。
那一句“我喜欢你”就成了只有自己知道的秘密。

幼儿园的时候,喜欢的人就是坐在旁边的那个。
小学的时候,就是那个一起坐巴士那个。
中学的时候,就是做在后面的那个。
看来近水楼台先得月不是假的。

哦,说到幼儿园那个,有一天看到他不知何故哭到满桌子眼泪,
5岁的我心想:我怎么会喜欢这种哭包??
明天就去喜欢对面那个liao.

可爱啦。:)




Welcome mushB.


As per title.


Friday, April 23, 2010

love life



“只要你热爱自己的生命,你就不会做出伤害自己的事情。”

在事情发生后,很多人都会有很多问号..

为什么她要这么做?
是谁让她选择走向绝路?
我们要如何面对这样的噩耗?
这种悲剧到底要发生到什么时候?
到底什么力量能够阻止这一切?

类似的悲剧,发生在我生命的周遭,第二次。
我只有一个问题...
上帝,我能为还活着的人做什么?

不想在报章上看到熟悉的脸孔,
不想我身边的人的微笑,成为一个永在怀念中的回忆。

我要热爱我的生命。
我永远都不要放弃。

这个世界上,还有许多人不舍得放弃你,你知道吗?

看到好多人到你的FB留言,我呆着许久,不知道要讲什么。可能我们已经好多年没有面对面说话了。
但我还记得你那响亮又娇气的声音...
最后,写下了
" Shyn Lyn... T-T"

陈欣宁,永在怀念中。



我流泪,
我在天堂,可能也看不到他们...

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Red bomb

So many of my friends are getting married.
So many of them are younger than me.
So many of them decided in a hurry.
So many of them were not careful.

So is this a trend or what?

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

在台湾的某一天,

一群安第的闽南语对话:

现在的少年人,什么事情都是“欢喜嘎做”...
那里像我人的年代?
真的不象话...

人做在高铁内,不能换位子,只好拉起冷帽装睡。

欧巴桑,可不可以顾及坐在旁边的我,这个少年人。

年轻人对喜欢的东西的那份坚持,是长辈眼中的叛逆。
年轻人对热衷的事情的那股冲动,是长辈眼中的鲁莽。
年轻人为追求梦想的不顾一切,是长辈眼中的不孝。

“新酒,要装在新的皮袋里”
旧皮袋伸缩性减低,新酒到进去,皮袋不单只裂开,新酒也流失了。

年轻人的想法,意念,创意,潜力,是无极限的!
要是硬把这些东西让老旧的思想去限制,可能造成两败俱伤的局面。

长辈常常把“像当年,我怎样怎样。。。” “以前我根本不敢怎样怎样。。。”挂在嘴边。
随着时代变迁,很多事情已经不能再去忆当年了。
不要说我们父母的时代,现在比我年轻个五六年,想法已经一个天一个地!
为什么现在的小孩叛逆期越来越早,也越来越长?(我...到底有没有叛逆过啊?|||)

世界上好多成就大事的伟人,都曾经是叛逆,冲动又不孝。

其实,长辈们口出此言,或多或少都是因为年轻人缺乏智慧地坚持,冲动及不顾一切...



如果你还有权利选择做自己认为对的事,别想太多了吧。




写了这一篇,好像觉得自己开始叛逆。。。hehe.

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

哇,四月了...

看到很多在感叹光阴飞逝的post,皆因2010年已经过了四分之一。
好久没有blog,但我还是很关心别人在写什么,所以你们不能学我哦!不然上网就不爽liao。
做么这么夜?喝了咖啡+FB上载照片+一大堆工作还没做完+明天可以迟上班lo...
废话la..删掉以上原因我还是这么夜的lar.hehe.

读到这边,就知道这篇是蛮废话的一篇。

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酱,来update一下。

今年的头四分之一就出了两次国,很爽一下。
唯一遗憾是没有一部大大架的相机拍一些美美的照片。
这个愿望等了很久都没有实现...

好姐妹结婚了。帮他们忙完一转,自己也感染待嫁的幸福。
屁啦,即使没被感染都很想嫁好不好。我知道啦,最近比较克制liao :p

讲一下台湾。
翻开日历,差不多三月的一半都label "TAIWAN"。一去去了11天。
从一百万分之不想去,到前五天差点得忧郁症,到后来五天玩得很开心,到归国后对那里念念不忘...感情复杂到...
一言难尽lar总之。有空有闲才交待。
奇怪是旅行回来瘦掉一点。
p/s:台湾女生怎么说话都要这么爹生爹气啊?每句话后面都“哦哦哦” =.= 粉口爱哦~
pp/s: 刚到时很不习惯兑换率,在酒店拿熨斗时听到deposit要500块,我跟妈妈“HARRR???”到很大声...

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回来后就是复活节庆典,无端端要代替演出一角。
星期四参与彩排,星期六就上阵。
庆幸那一角是本人擅长的“疯婆子”,算一切顺利。
演出后个人给的评语不知道要用什么心情面对。
“哇,你演的好像哦!根本不像在演!”
都跟你们讲我是演技派的咯。
“你演得这么自然,我看是露出本性,做回你自己罢了!”
.......

他人说我太疯癫,我说他人看不清。

说道复活节戏剧制作不能不提一下许莉敏。
剧本是她写的,故事是n年前在大学的食堂她说过给我听的。
本来想提给导演参考参考,怎知一提就录用了。从此发掘了这名潜能非凡的编剧+演员!
我是不是你的伯乐?:p
写一篇长达1小时的舞台剧真的不容易,皆因叫我写30分钟的戏就要我的命。
内容还可以温馨搞笑又感动,许莉敏一定是用九条命来写的!
真的很突破,很高兴你能把上帝赐的恩赐发挥出来。
37人接受耶稣,这就是你付出得来最大的奖赏。

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四月liao,看来没有什么假期了,工作堆了一山高,不知道从何下手做。
其实我不是要放任,只是想自由。

....................................................................

出走一次,看看别人所做的比自己多,别人成就的比自己伟大。
觉得自己渺小,心小,胆小。
所谓“时间,空间,人与人之间”是一门难学的功课。

身边的人事物都开始起了变化,
看来一股巨浪将至。复兴要从疯狂开始。
看来我不顾一切的时候将到。

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈~~~

粉兴奋一下哦~~~ (粉口爱的口音)

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hm...还有什么可以写咧?

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-为什么王力宏会这么帅啊?
-迷上太空小宝宝(想为他找个航空母舰)
-公司为什么不可以上FB??
-30号要拍婚纱照(朋友的啦),减肥中。
-五月要去宣教~
-还是想回澳洲。


bai.

Friday, March 12, 2010

For B.

I just found out that one of my childhood friend was gone.
He was drowned to death during a trip to the beaches in Terengganu.
His mom is my mom's good friend, and now my mom is rushing to see if she's ok.

He was a very bright boy.
I think he just graduated as a medical doctor not long ago.
He's the only son.

His mom must be heartbroken.

RIP Ah Ben gor gor.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

You know you are no longer a little girl...

when mommy don't pay for your new clothes.
when daddy don't pay for the family meal.
when your paycheck comes together with tax forms and bills.

hm...I do miss those times when I saved up hard to buy my first tamagotchi.
baby tamagotchi pet looks something like this...if im not mistaken.


sigh.
24.

Friday, February 12, 2010

A prayer for you.

Oh my God...
What happen to all of you? :(

It kind of pricked me deep when I read about you guys...

I know it's really annoying hearing someone senior saying:
"Ohh... I've been through what you are going through...
Everything will be fine...
You are just being too sensitive.
Young people are always lost...
Relax....yadadadahhh..."

Sometimes, this "been there, done that" attitude is sh*t.

I really don't know what I can do.
And, to some extend, I feel some of your struggles too.

Dear Father,
I know I couldn't love them as much as You do,
but I know You will take care of them just like those times You have brought me through.
I love you guys, and please love yourself and each other as God has first loved you.

Be strong! I am still learning, but we will eventually get there!
By His power of love.

Sunday, February 7, 2010

开始和结尾都不联合,因为写着写着离了题。

我知道我看戏总是比人慢...而且慢很多。
粗俗也要讲一句:这一幕真的西北感动。

如前篇,最近常梦见澳洲。
回到马来西亚,热的冒汗的夜晚开始想念那张淡黄色的厚棉被。
说真的,冬天的夜晚冷得要人命,比起隔壁室友的那张深蓝色超级无敌厚的“暖炉”被,我简直像盖着一层纱布入眠。
可是,在离乡背井,独自想家的夜晚,它是我唯一的温暖。
初时真的搞不懂离开将近一年半后的今天,突然想起那个遥远的国家。
身边的朋友或许知道,刚归国的我是千方百计地想把自己弄回去...天天守着亚航网站,看机票价钱紧张地像看美股。
时间久了,热忱灭了,当初到处预告“I will be back"的大喇叭也尴尬地收起来了。
当你一直犹豫不决的时候,别人就会替你做决定。
愣在一边太久,一清醒时才发现...路铺好了,鞋子也替自己穿上了,终点拟定了。
这一年半,就这样卖给了现实。
成语说:一年半载。多则一年,少则半年。都过去了...

............

友人说:我不像你,一毕业就就业。是我贪玩,还想放荡一年半载...
我说:你以为我想的阿?我够想去玩咯...只是现实和责任太多。
友人:所以我很敬佩你。

屁啦。
(我知道这个友人会读我的部落格,这句粗俗的话纯粹为了表达我心中的极之无奈必折,并不是针对你:p)

说真的我并不敬佩这种人。我最多只能对他说:兄弟,我明白你的感受。

............

那天在小组,组员情绪激动地说着自己遇到的困境。
其实我早前已听说,只是这位姐妹每每在道出问题后,还来不及安慰,就很快地告诉别人自己其实还好,感谢神...
那天她一轮嘴地说了许多的...我看着她,突然打断问了一句:你是不是很不快乐?
“我很不快乐...”泪水如泉涌。
第一次,她坦诚面对自己的感受。
在为她祷告的时候,我也悄悄对上帝说:我也不是很快乐。

...........

近来生活开始越来越忙碌。
我很努力地用正面的角度去看待每一件事。
我开始学习敞开心,抛开先入为主的思想,大力拥抱眼前的一切。
我很羡慕身边的他,即使陷入什么境况,他都能对生命抱着“我一定能做到”的心态。
其实自怜自哀是很悲的事情,很讨厌面子书上那些消极又自怜又无奈又毫无盼望的留言。
每个人都有自己的挣扎,不需要把自己的软弱到处宣扬。
所以我就选择写在这种没什么人看,看了也没什么人记得,记得也没什么人讲的地方。
我很聪明哩?

.............

我只是想说...
不要剥夺我爱你的快乐。

...............

原谅我,纳闷太久会胸口郁闷,郁闷太久可能引发心血管疾病。

虽然一切皆虚空,都捕风,传道人依然在最后一章告诉人是有盼望的。

赠宁恩:
万事互相效力,叫爱神的人得益处。
你是有福的。



众人皆知我走的是华丽的低调路线,不需留言,见面不需提起。偶尔在祷告中记念我就可以了。
哇噻!够力串!呵呵~

Saturday, February 6, 2010

Memories.

I woke up in my bed..covered in a yellow quilt blanket. The weather was very cold...
As usual I snuggled with my little pillow, refused to rise...
Then I saw her in a thick blue blanket, all covered up but I know she's ignoring her snoozing alarm too.
We were both waiting for each other to initiate the "rise & shine" routine... and I am always the one who gave up.
Slipped in my blue slippers, picked up my toiletries and washed myself up with streams of freezing cold water.
Went back to the room, she's still in her bed and the house was still quiet.
Pulled myself to the kitchen, toasted some bread taken from the freezer.
Made myself a bowl of cereals soaked in organic soy milk.
Munched down my breakie in front of the new TV...and the new rug.
She's finally up when I was washing up the plates, and sometimes, he'll be awake and coming down from the stairs, bringing his laptop with him for sure.
He'll plug in his laptop and Planetshakers will be playing from it in no time.
Pan was heated, pancake with honey was serve.
She'll make her cup of Milo of course.
We'll be sitting around the dining table, telling each other about our dreams last night.

Ming, Ryan... I miss 18 Marshall Av, Clayton, Melbourne Victoria.

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Jo23ph

"Do guys believe in sweet 16? Happy Birthday...and have a sweet 16 :)"
This was my first birthday wish to you, when you were 16.

You are 23 now.
8 years down the road, I am truly blessed.
Love you.


Wednesday, January 27, 2010

27th Jan 2010

I look to the future because that's where I'm going to spend the rest of my life.
- George Burns

Friday, January 15, 2010

Happy New Year 2

By Your wounds, I have been healed.

2010 - I want to be healthy.

Amen.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Happy New Year.

It's the 13th day of the new year.
Don't ask me what are my new year plans cz I don't have time to even think of any.
I'm completing whatever task that comes to me first. huhu :p

I have a calender for church activities
I have a calender for company activities
I have a calender for friends' bdays & social activities

Now I just want a calender for holidays.

It's the beginning of the year..but it feels like 2009 bring forward.

Note to self:
TEAY NING ANN please go tidy up your room! You are still keeping your YEAR 2 Sem 1 notes on your table!!
The new year jz made u 24. So grow up!