Tuesday, July 7, 2009

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The Climb-Miley Cyrus

She's just 16.
I really need to motivate myself.
The thing is, it has been a week after finals...and I'm still living on a messy life. Hah ;p
Days are not entirely meaningless, you know what I mean?
It's that kind of "unsettled" feeling that is bothering me.
Yea, maybe I'm much lucky than those who fall into the "jobless" category straight after uni. I have a secured job, good money I suppose, of course a very bright future, I suppose.
Mom promised me 2 months break.
2 months, I am free to do whatever I want...and then?
It's like "you better enjoy the freedom now" kinda feeling.
It's not that I don't enjoy working with my family business...I've always been working there anyway.

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I don't expect anyone to understand...cz I never really tell my true feelings.
Dreams run wild in my mind...and stay there.
I don't understand why am I so afraid to talk to my parents about what is really inside of me.
When I was young, daddy & mommy are my biggest support, my safest fortress.
As I grew up, I start to sense that they have expectations on me.
Of course, I love them very much. I don't wanna make them unhappy.
The pressure on me is sometimes very hard.
The pressure of being the one.
The pressure of being a good girl.

Sometimes... I felt that I am being a bit fake in front of them.
After much struggles inside, I know I will do it.
I do it, because I love you.

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geez... Staying awake at night makes me emo.
nvm... so just let me go wild for 2 months.
heee haa~~

8 comments:

greenmilktea said...

加油!!

i'm feeling very empty too after the exams, and only i realised that all this while my life is about studying and exams?!?!!

NO!!!!!!!!!!!! it shouldnt be like this!!!

傻敏 charmaine koh said...

ystrday i cant sleep until 5am =.=

see somehow you know you will do it.

I support you to pursue your dream, in any kind of way, you know what I mean, so just go ahead.

anyway, dun talk so much first, come hug hug first.

*hugz*

lei ming

傻敏 charmaine koh said...

btw, is the miley cyrus the hannah montana?

looks alike o..

lei ming

LoLLipop MiracLe said...

All the best to you =)

lengleng said...

jia you!~ muacksssss ;)

ang3line said...

din log in for a day and saw 5 comments..all so sweet T__T
jane: i want to talk to u over ikea's breakie & coffee >.<

ming: hugssss my dream never dies!! i will overcome all failures,disappointments & losts!
oh yes she's hannah montana.this song is fr her movie.

lydia:thanks! i need a lollipop miracle! oh ya..nice seeing u in person tat day.

xm:yesh!we jia yo together!!

boonie said...

hey ning ann, that's ok, brick walls are there for a reason. they give us a chance to prove how badly we want things :)

boonie said...

aik that was me, liwun hehe.