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The Climb-Miley Cyrus

She's just 16.
I really need to motivate myself.
The thing is, it has been a week after finals...and I'm still living on a messy life. Hah ;p
Days are not entirely meaningless, you know what I mean?
It's that kind of "unsettled" feeling that is bothering me.
Yea, maybe I'm much lucky than those who fall into the "jobless" category straight after uni. I have a secured job, good money I suppose, of course a very bright future, I suppose.
Mom promised me 2 months break.
2 months, I am free to do whatever I want...and then?
It's like "you better enjoy the freedom now" kinda feeling.
It's not that I don't enjoy working with my family business...I've always been working there anyway.

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I don't expect anyone to understand...cz I never really tell my true feelings.
Dreams run wild in my mind...and stay there.
I don't understand why am I so afraid to talk to my parents about what is really inside of me.
When I was young, daddy & mommy are my biggest support, my safest fortress.
As I grew up, I start to sense that they have expectations on me.
Of course, I love them very much. I don't wanna make them unhappy.
The pressure on me is sometimes very hard.
The pressure of being the one.
The pressure of being a good girl.

Sometimes... I felt that I am being a bit fake in front of them.
After much struggles inside, I know I will do it.
I do it, because I love you.

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geez... Staying awake at night makes me emo.
nvm... so just let me go wild for 2 months.
heee haa~~