Thursday, January 15, 2009

Purposely fixed my scanner for this

click for bigger view

I have not been drawing for so long...
I used to paint my drawings but I'm too lazy...

Slowly... this little passion of mine has been buried 1000 feet under.
I can still remember my BM teacher reading out my karangan titled
"Cita-cita Saya" (My Ambition)

"Cita-cita saya ialah menjadi seorang pelukis comik yang terkenal. Saya akan membuka sebuah syarikat komik yang bernama "Syarikat Komik Angeline" dan mempublishkan (sry I jz can't recall how u say publish in BM >.<) komik saya ke seluruh dunia!"

That was when I was 10 years old man...
That was my greatest passion, my biggest dream.
I kept so many books filled with sketches of people, cartoons...
Even some adventure stories I created myself... ha...

I used to be so determine on what I want to do.
I used to be so sure of my own future.
I used to ignore what other people say about me.
I used to be strong in protecting my dream.

Now I am so blur with my future
I am not sure anymore, about what I really want.
I am so afraid of standing up for my own thoughts
I am reluctant to admit that I do care what others think of me, very much.
I let my biggest dream stayed as a childhood fantasy... way under many many obligations, responsibilities and duties.

I don't really do good at it, but I really do like it very much.
I don't see a great future with it, but I really do enjoy doing it.

13 years later... one night.
this girl starts to think if what she is doing right now, is now right.

mush talk: this post makes me so emo...


greenmilktea said...

u r saying exactly what i'm thinking and feeling as well...we have the same confusion...reminds me about the talks that we had together with a cup of coffee..........

btw, it's penerbitan, menerbitkan (is it -kan??) hahaha

傻敏 charmaine koh said...

wanna study in the one for illustration design after graduate anot? then u will be my brother's junior. lolz.

Wish u luck la~

btw,melissa still rem BM ar?mine all dah pulang kepada guru.

lei ming

ang3line said...

yea..i rmb we used to talk abt all these in in yippie cup :)
we have come to a state where there's no use turning back.let's go on and see what life brings us.i stil believe our future are in good hands.
oh yea..menerbitkan!!

haha..good idea also neh.

-popjammerz- said...

that picture was very long time ago!!!!

ang3line said...

it's the most recent one wei!