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I have not been drawing for so long...I used to paint my drawings but I'm too lazy...
Slowly... this little passion of mine has been buried 1000 feet under.
I can still remember my BM teacher reading out my karangan titled
"Cita-cita Saya" (My Ambition)
"Cita-cita saya ialah menjadi seorang pelukis comik yang terkenal. Saya akan membuka sebuah syarikat komik yang bernama "Syarikat Komik Angeline" dan mempublishkan (sry I jz can't recall how u say publish in BM >.<) komik saya ke seluruh dunia!"
That was when I was 10 years old man...
That was my greatest passion, my biggest dream.
I kept so many books filled with sketches of people, cartoons...
Even some adventure stories I created myself... ha...
I used to be so determine on what I want to do.
I used to be so sure of my own future.
I used to ignore what other people say about me.
I used to be strong in protecting my dream.
Now I am so blur with my future
I am not sure anymore, about what I really want.
I am so afraid of standing up for my own thoughts
I am reluctant to admit that I do care what others think of me, very much.
I let my biggest dream stayed as a childhood fantasy... way under many many obligations, responsibilities and duties.
I don't really do good at it, but I really do like it very much.
I don't see a great future with it, but I really do enjoy doing it.
13 years later... one night.
this girl starts to think if what she is doing right now, is now right.
mush talk: this post makes me so emo...
5 comments:
u r saying exactly what i'm thinking and feeling as well...we have the same confusion...reminds me about the talks that we had together with a cup of coffee..........
btw, it's penerbitan, menerbitkan (is it -kan??) hahaha
wanna study in the one for illustration design after graduate anot? then u will be my brother's junior. lolz.
Wish u luck la~
btw,melissa still rem BM ar?mine all dah pulang kepada guru.
lei ming
ann2sa
yea..i rmb we used to talk abt all these in ikea...now in yippie cup :)
we have come to a state where there's no use turning back.let's go on and see what life brings us.i stil believe our future are in good hands.
oh yea..menerbitkan!!
ann2ming
haha..good idea also neh.
garhhhh!
that picture was very long time ago!!!!
rue...
it's the most recent one wei!
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