click for bigger viewI have not been drawing for so long...
I used to paint my drawings but I'm too lazy...
Slowly... this little passion of mine has been buried 1000 feet under.
I can still remember my BM teacher reading out my karangan titled
"Cita-cita Saya" (My Ambition)
"Cita-cita saya ialah menjadi seorang pelukis comik yang terkenal. Saya akan membuka sebuah syarikat komik yang bernama "Syarikat Komik Angeline" dan mempublishkan (sry I jz can't recall how u say publish in BM >.<) komik saya ke seluruh dunia!"
That was when I was 10 years old man...
That was my greatest passion, my biggest dream.
I kept so many books filled with sketches of people, cartoons...
Even some adventure stories I created myself... ha...
I used to be so determine on what I want to do.
I used to be so sure of my own future.
I used to ignore what other people say about me.
I used to be strong in protecting my dream.
Now I am so blur with my future
I am not sure anymore, about what I really want.
I am so afraid of standing up for my own thoughts
I am reluctant to admit that I do care what others think of me, very much.
I let my biggest dream stayed as a childhood fantasy... way under many many obligations, responsibilities and duties.
I don't really do good at it, but I really do like it very much.
I don't see a great future with it, but I really do enjoy doing it.
13 years later... one night.
this girl starts to think if what she is doing right now, is now right.
mush talk: this post makes me so emo...